Saturday, December 31, 2005

Friday, December 30, 2005

ain't no mountain!

ain't no mountain high enough...
ain't no valley low enough...
ain't no river long enough....

alright...i've come to my senses. i'm cool. just a sudden burst of insanity. my apologies.

i've modified my bike a bit. gave it new pedals. bought a new hand pump so i don't have to go to the petrol station to pump 'em wheels anymore. i can't wait for my next race!

the weather hasn't been very merciful. i mean, rain pours down on me at HTM in OB. Rain pours down on me before i go to Sekadeh. and rain now pours down on me every freaking morning during my run. i decided to sleep in this morning and try the evening. and guess what? the sky was a clear crystal blue this morning, while the dark clouds blotched the sky at 5 pm. wth! i know i appreciate a challenge but do i really have to be tested this way?

i'm having a photo shoot tomorrow. family portrait. and big bro says a tube top is unacceptable. oh bummer....

new year's eve for me shall be low key. a bunch of fellas will be over for some chips n movies. then we'll probably humour ourselves with charades or multiple rounds of spin the bottle. as the great OB instructors say to me...Anything also can...:)

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

the void

for the past 3 days i've been tuning my clock to ring t 7 am. Big bro's it's time to whip both myself and him into shape. hence, the reason why i havent exactly been online later in the night, and also probably the reason to why my blogging has been on the low side. my bad. =)

ever since i came home from OB i have this draggy feeling. i feel moody and agitated. and i tend to feel sleepy very frequently. i do miss OB. no doubts about it. but very very frankly, it aint so much about missing the people in OB and all. I miss them, true, but there's always MSN and Friendster that makes distances halved in a nano second. so there's not much room for missing them. And of course i miss the activities. where else can i kayak a single kayak for over an hour, or climb a genuine rock wall, or get stung by unseen and unheard of before insects. i crave for that too, but there's a limit to how much i can take Mother Nature. There will come a time when i yearn to come home to my comfy bed and air-conditioned room.

what saddens me most about the end of OB is the fact that i'm back to face the harsh reality of my life. (which may sound overly exaggerated but on...). i'm not going to put up a facade. things have changed around me. my friends have changed. i just got home from one of those spontaneous mamak sessions. i had fun. there was a point i had stitches in my sides. but there was also a point where i was completely clueless and lost. and for a split second i felt like i didn't fit in. let's face it. there are a lot of stuff which i do not do, which my friends do. and i would try it for the sake of fitting in more, but that's just wrong. and sometimes, i get this vibe like they think of me as Ms Goody 2 Shoes, however lame that my sound. but it happens. there will come a moment where this pang of loneliness would just stab me.

then there's him. the more i talk to him, the more i see how things are just not meant to be. and i do want to move on. very very desperately. i really want to get rid of that queesiness that comes after each conversation i have with matter how short it was. and most importantly, i really want to enjoy love songs without feeling like i'm missing something. i want myself back.

and there's my studies. i didn't quite score in the last sem. I almost failed one subject, which freaked my parents out. they fear that my scholarship may be withdrawn. and after i have tried so hard to ask them to trust me, and to convince them that i know what i'm doing. they're going to go back to keeping an eye on me. all the more do i wish i could go abroad!

i really don't want to be all moody, and emo. but it's the festive season. and it's hard not to feel the void when it's all around you.

Monday, December 26, 2005


after checking out melanie's and OJ's post on OB, i'm starting to feel like my post was inferior to theirs. i don't intend to update mine. i have other matters to blog about. but just so my readers get an equal share of details of The Great OB Experience, do check out their blogs. Especially Mel's. haha...

I can, however, provide you with a more visual representation of The Great OB Experience. Check out my photos and OJ's photos.

Now that i've got that off my chest, i can move on to other Christmassy matters.

25th of December 2005 begun at 9.00 am. Unusually early for me. I had breakfast with my extended family, namely uncle n aunty from Brunei, cousins from Singapore, big brother from Perth. Yes! The big korkor's back!! he actually came home the night i returned from OB. And both my brothers and i went shopping in 1U yesterday! We watched The Chronicles of Narnia which was good. it started of draggy (or perhaps i was still a little OB-hung over) but then it just got better n better!

the much awaited Uncle Peter's Christmas Lunch finally came! every year i save my stomach for this auspicious event! The food is fantastic!!! we had turkey, macaroni, lasagne, cakes, pies...*burp*. I had fun talking to all those triathletes and duathletes again! Most of them said i look very different. It's probably the tan. and the hair. =) My brother was like some celeb walking down the red carpet. "Kevin, you're back from Perth!!". i have a famous brother...=)

then i went to see my porpor in SJMC. great news! she'll be discharged tomorrow!

My handphone has been fixed! the handphone which i lost to the freak rain in OB while trekking! The battery was short circuited but the interior of the phone is fine! yay! i got all my contacts and messages back!!! which means i now have more disposable income to spend!

Edwin called me just now and said Chun kit and him were dead bored and were in need of my companionship! ahahha....i met up with them at 10 at Coffee Bean Subang Parade. There, i bumped into Anne, Cheryl and Tasha! haha...i haven't seen Cheryl and Tasha in like donkey years! then a while later a group of guys walked in. They were Faris, Fadhli, Iqram, Nor Azlan and someone whom i can't seem to remember his name. Either that or i never knew it to begin with. =)

I was dead hungry and since expensive cakes won't do the trick, we adjourned to Rafi's SS15. Lo and behold, we met Sing Foong and Daniel! hahaha...Soon Seng then joined us after i called him. So it was a case of 5 guys, a girl and a mamak.

Beautiful times....

Saturday, December 24, 2005


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i'm home~! bee-stung, jellyfish-stung, red ant-bitten, sun-blazed and everything!

yup...bearing much more battle scars than last year, i'm proud to say that i have experienced yet another gruelling 10 days in OB! priceless.

i'm dead tired. my brains are a bit messed up right now. so i'll spare you the long windedness and sprinkle you with highlights.

in the past 2 weeks i learned that:

1. you should never trust mosquito repellants bought from KL. They don't work on jungle mozzies.

2. you can get sick of chicken from eating them too much.

3. teenagers have this miraculous way of surviving through the day with very very little sleep.

4. never follow people blindly.

5. just because u can't see anything, doesn't mean there's nothing there.

6. bee stings hurt like hell, no matter what you say.

7. random words created with meaning and all, can become a whole new language by itself if influencial enough.

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8. all random words created with meaning and all are influencial enough.

9. the quality of a pair shoes rises exponentially with the price of the shoes. in other words, Power shoes may save you financially, but it may not save you physically.

10. you should never underestimate the power of air-borne disease.

11. never tease the guy with the red eye. he infects.

12. it is not fun being forced to stay in and do nothing, no matter what you say.

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13. should you be quarantined, be so with people who won't sleep all day.

14. that one can learn how to play, master it, and get sick of chor dai di all in but 2 days.

15. rain sucks.

16. blisters on the feet are as torturous as any form of physical discomfort, if not worse.

17. you should never tie your hammock on a tree infested with ants.

18. no, mosquito repellant does not work on ants.

19. mosquito repellant does not work. period.

20. my Bata hiking shoes are waterproof!

21. water may not seep into the material of the shoe, but leave it hanging outside in the rain and it just might get wet through the hole you put your feet in through.

22. making a fire with wet wood not only takes aeons to do, but it also makes a funny sound and produces loads of smoke.

23. when you're exhausted, you can not hear the alarm even if it's next to your ear.

24. 10 days lasts an eye wink when you are having a blast.

25. missing people actually depreciates your apetite.

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to my Clima Cools, you'll forever be in my heart.

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Friday, December 09, 2005

all my bags are packed, I'm ready to go!

all my bags are packed...i'm ready to go
i'm standing here...all psyched and so
i hate to leave this blog and say goodbye

but the clock is ticking, tomorrow's coming
melanie's waiting, she's already screaming
already i'm so excited i could die!

yes! To serve, to strive but not to yield! i come! hehe...i spent the day packing. and basically all i did was put in stuff, and took them out again. I seem to think twice about everything i'm bringing. I don't know why. OB is supposed to be about living with the simple resources nature can provide. haha owell. Least i'm done now. I'm SO psyched! It seems so exciting to be meeting Mel, Oj and Poh Leng again! Can't wait can't wait!

This shall be my last entry for the next 2 weeks! There's a counter for my homecoming under Profile. But for those of you who really can't bear not seeing Galnexdor online, feel free to call me. You got my number. *wink*. Call after 11pm. i think that's when we'll be free. haha...

the pics for Yvonne's Heart4Hope bunting are out! You can see them here.

till the 23rd! Adios!!

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Dear Nick and Pods!

i took this picture some time back actually. i don't know why but i find it so fascinating. it was the first time i went to my uncle's hardware shop in Gombak. and the moment i entered the shop i was greeted by rows n rows of pigeon holes like the ones above. pardon my jakunness but i've really never stepped into a spare part/hardware shop quite like that before. i've seen the ones here in Subang but they don't seem quite the same.

anyway, i went out with Nick, Jackie, Wen Ching, O-Wern, Jolvin and Ju. it was fun! really! i was never particularly close to this group of SJians but when you leave school for a while you tend to treat all former schoolmates with the same enthusiasm. haha...and i honestly found it fun! especially when i started to tease a few of them who have found themselves their respective other halves. such is the situation i seem to be facing day in day out. everyone's hooking up. *frowns*

and Nick brought me Pods!! hehe...Nick's such a dear! =) he actually brought 3 boxes but for some reason nobody wanted it (?!?!?!?!?) so i took home all 3. haha...i feel so greedy and selfish and glutton-ish! so anybody who wants some feel free to come over alright? i'm feeling generous with my Pods! =)

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

sleeping habits

i've been getting this command all night. i tried signing into Keith's account and i got in within a second. I always thought when things like this happen it, it happens to everyone on MSN. But Ju says hers is fine, so i'm thinking this is God's way of saying, "Go to sleep Karen! you need to change your sleeping habit!". hehe...i do. i sleep at 3-4 am and i wake up at noon. it's bad. my mum thinks i'm a bad influence to Keith. so i should start sleeping earlier and waking up earlier. =)

i went to Fajar today with my mum and my aunt. I think my mum plans to buy up the entire Fajar. hehe she's been making multiple trips to it and coming home with heaps of plstic bags exclaiming "Very cheap la!". since i was in Summit, i thought i might drop by Fitness First to show how eager i was to get started. Isaiah was there. Unfortunately his boss wasn't. Darn. So we had a tour around the place, not like i've never been there, but yea. It was nice seeing Isaiah again. ahah i think the last time i saw him was at Powerman Putrajaya. Looking good i must say. I really wanna work in Fitness First. I could use some shedding of pounds and toning of abs and biceps. haha yes, even girls need to tone biceps. =)

alright. almost 1 am. let's see if i can get some sleep at this hour. it takes some getting used to.=)

-update- i just got connected to MSN. haha maybe God decided to reward my persistence in trying and retrying to sign in. =) anyway, i forgot to mention, i went jogging today. hehe up SS18. feels good...=)

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

ice skating and McSundaes

I had a gala time with Ju today. it's been a while since the last time we went out, just the 2 of us. And just like those times, we were in Pyramid. And just like those times, we ate McSundae cones. I miss those times...=)

They had this christmas performance by Pyramid Ice. I've always loved figure skaters. But these ones looked pretty beginnerish. anyhow, they were pretty fascinating. they had like groups of skaters to represent different countries. The theme was One World, One Christmas. and i especially liked the Spanish group. coz they came in pairs and the guys carried the girls! i tell you, the man i marry must be able to carry me. and that's not very likely to happen unless i find someone strong enough. so, now you know why i like buffed guys. *wink* i liked one of the guys very much. found him very charming in a way, the way he smiled at the audience and all. very good showmanship!=)

and to my surprise, one of those Moscow guys was ZiHao! ahah he called out to me after the show. i havent seen him since i left Taylor's a year ago. =) Wanted him to introduce me to that charming Spanish guy but he seemed to be in a hurry. Owell, he also said that the guy's a year younger, and you know how pantang i am about dating younger guys. no. =)

i'm picky. and stubborn. sue me.

Monday, December 05, 2005

the new galnexdor

yes. i've got a new skin. u like?

and no, john, i don't look cute. i wonder if that midnite person would come back and have a look. the last time she commented it was too boastful to put a large studio pic there. very unlike the common girl next door. i have to admit when i chose the nick i didn't know what it meant. i just thought it was cool. haha...

anyway, this is me. with nothing but an eyeliner to define 'em eyes. foundation, no airbrushing, no studio, no photoshopping. AND taken with a 3.0 megapixel Sony cybershot by my best friend Julie. no big-fancy-multifocus-whatchamacallit-camera. yup...

so comment if you please. =) plenty of room for improvement.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

bukits, 1U, the lake and cycling

i've been thinking of something to blog about to get rid of the horrid emo post. i'm fine now. honest. but i can't think of anything that might seem somewhat amusing. let me gather what i can:

well, you already heard from Ju that the Bukit Tabur climb was cancelled since it rained like crazy this morning. i actually woke up at 5.45 am. went to brush my teeth and put on my contacts before i got dressed into my hiking attire. i switched on my phone and in came Beat's message saying that the hike was put on hold. so i lay in bed, dozing off again and again, but not falling into deep slumber. at 7.15 am another message from Beat came saying the hike's off. darn. i was looking forward to it man! but i had trouble sleeping the night before so i figured it was a blessing in disguise. i took out my contacts again and went back to sleep.


i went to 1U again last night with the usual gang. Ate in Peranakan Place again. that's 3 times in a row. and the 4th time i've been to 1U. gosh...was cool really...i somehow found myself thinking what it would be like if this gang meets up again say 10 years down the road. then i found myself wondering which of us girls would be married off first and somehow Pei Jien came to mind. the girl's been going strong with her boy. *shrugs*. but then i found myself worrying that i'd be the last person to be distributing wedding invitations, so i just shook the whole idea off altogether.


this morning, my mum woke me up and said we're going to 1U. again. that's the 5th time. i'm swearing off 1U for the rest of 2005 now. Keith went to watch Harry Potter with his friends so we sent him there. My grandparents came along. Lucky for me we had Teppenyaki instead of the Peranakan Place again. =)


in both the times I was in 1U i met Thean Aik. *beams* hehe...


isaiah called me today from the gym. we talked about his job and then my mum came in and announced she was going jogging with my dad. so while talking to the fitness freak on the line, and saying no to my parents on the other hand, i found myself blushing with embarrassment. "daddy mummy go jogging, karen not going jogging ar?". ok isaiah! u got me. i'm going jogging!

so we went to the lake and that scary guy was there again. so i followed my parents' pace. i didn't dare go on my own for fear the guy might just come up to me and talk to me again. *shudders*. i don't think i'll jog there for a while, so long as he's gonna be there. think i'll stick to good ol' ss18. =)

my dad's fitter and faster than me now! boohoo! i need to regain my level of fitness. after putting running off for so long i actually lost to my old man in a 200m sprint! grr...this should not be happening! next thing i know he'd be beating me in the 10km's! Nooooooooo....ok, so he has been running everyday. Watch out daddy! i'm gonna beat u again! Muahahahah!!


i want plan to go cycling tomorrow. but first i need to pump my bike. haha i have a feeling Ben's gonna trash me with his mountie if i go cycling with him. i may have a roadie, but he probably has the skills. =) so yea i want need to go cycling tomorrow.


Genting Trailblazer got postponed! grr...why why why?? i was looking forward to it!

Friday, December 02, 2005

love songs

i remember when a friend of mine was feeling really low, she'd flip the radio channels whenever a love song came on air. she'd just avoid the whole emotional crap and brave herself to stay strong.

i, on the other hand, would just drown in those blues. i'd be in no mood for Ciara or Missy E. i'd just hit any slow moving song without a techno beat in my media player. and i did that just now. but when i ran out of songs to listen to, i realised how deep in a rut i've dragged myself into. i have a gazillion songs to suit the mood. but half of which were sent by you. and as much as i love those songs, as appropriate as those songs may seem to be for now, i didn't feel like listening to them. because i didn't want you to have the satisfaction of sending me a song which i liked. i didn't want you to have the satisfaction of knowing that you knew just what i'd like. because i was mad.

but i can't find a reason to be mad for. there's no one to blame, no mistake to bring up, and no evidence to prove.

so after listening to repeats of Lisa Loeb, i decided to hit some of the songs you sent me. and it just said all that i wanted to say. but it also said all you wanted to say to her, didn't it?

Thursday, December 01, 2005

talk the Lingo!

when Yvonne told me about John Ling sometime back, i pictured someone very prominent. someone chatty, yet not air-headed. someone who spoke very confidently and very surely. and considering he has been rather successful as a writer, i somehow figured he was closing in on his 30s.

i met John Ling today. we went for a photoshoot for Yvonne's Heart4Hope t-shirts. he wasn't very chatty. he was rather quiet. and he sure as hell did not look 30. haha...Ju and Lyn were giving me the raised eyebrows (yes, those newly shaped eyebrows which the 3 of us paid 10 bucks each for). I told them he was probably about late 20s. how wrong was i!

i found out he was 22. That's my brother's age! and he has 5 books in his name! talk about a writing prodigy! well, i offered to give hima ride to the KTM station. On the way, i asked him about his books and stuff and that was when the chitter-chatter poured out of him. haha...pretty entertaining fella i'd say. boy, does he love his books!

i am yet to read the short stories he just sent me. All of the romantic theme. My fav! =)

well, just thought i'd say it was fun meeting you, John! Should you read this that is. And all the best in your writing career! You're going places alright. =)

Tuesday, November 29, 2005


alritey people...i know like a billion of you who is yet to reach your charity quota for the year...or rather for your lifetime! Time to do your bit for charity!
looks kinda cool aye? well, these are the t-shirts that my friend Yvonne Foong is selling to raise funds for her surgery. You can read more about this here.

It's only RM30 each. If you buy 2 it's RM50. So you lovebirds out there looking for a couple tee, i'd say look no further! Head on over to InKafe in SS15, Subang Jaya to get a pair for yourselves! Christmas is around the corner, spread some christmas spirit! Be on Santa's Good List this season! hehe....

If you don't have RM30 to spare, well the least you could do is spread the word k? Should i say..."God knows"...? =)

Sunday, November 27, 2005

sneezels bejeezels!

in the midst of all the coughing, and sneezing, and the midst of all the lost apetite, and throbbing head, and diminished taste buds...i got to thinking and i am certain that this is by far the worst time to fall sick ever!! 2 things:

1. i wasn't allowed to run! i was grounded to my room by my mum no later than 12 am last night and no earlier than 11 am this morning. sure i felt like crap, but i really wanted to go for the IOI Community run! i was training for it...well, kinda...the point is i was looking forward to running again...*grumbles*

2. i couldn't go take photo in Yvonne's t-shirt! i dreamt about it last night. thinking of all the different poses i'd strike. i even planned what sorta make up i'd put on. and i could've met Kenny Sia! tsk tsk.... what a waste!

anyway, just some photos from yesterday's 1U excursion (Cleo 10 Hour Shopping) with my girlfriends:

rosie-me-lyn (Urban n Co Fitting room)

lyn-me (Urban n Co Fitting room)

rosie + asam laksa + soya cincau

me + pineapple fried rice

lyn + nyonya mee

rosie as Stilla's test specimen

Saturday, November 26, 2005

1U fun!

i like the mothers of the swimmers of Stingray Club. They're such kind and generous people. The dance team i was coaching for the OKH dinner came out 2nd place in the competition. So they got RM200. Being the nice people they are, they decided to split the money into 12 people (including yours truly). so we got about RM17 each. Today they planned to gather at 1 Utama to get buy stuff together. When we met up, Aunty Christine treated us to breakfast at this place called Kluang Station. It's opposite Giant. It's a really cool place. Their curry puffs (pic) rocks! nice of her. :)

then, they were having some AXN Kung Fu world thing there. There were these cool people abseiling here and there. They actually had this game whereby, they will belay 2 participants up to the centre, and the 2 will stick as many stickers on each other as possibly, the person who stuck the most stickers on the other wins. It was free, and i was dying to go, but i chose of all days to wear a skirt! aih...i tried to talk my bro into going so i could snap some shots of him but his fear of heights set in even when watching the staff go up. so he bailed. would've been cool tho, if he went. :)

at about 9 pm, Weng Lum called me along to visit Pn Suraya. yay! so at slightly before 10 pm we left for her house in PJS 10. it was nice to see my form teacher again. it was good to have a reminder of the times when life was a whole lot simpler. :)

Mummy's back from Beijing. She reached home at about 2.30 am last night. Keith and I stayed up to greet and welcome her home. And mummy dearest bought us goodies! hahaha...i got 2 pairs of black ankle boots, and a set of costume jewellery (necklace + bracelet). but i think the most amusing thing she brought back were these little feathered shuttle cocks, for lack of a better term, and i was playing with it all night. haha...i have to say though, i totally suck at it. i have bad leg coordination. yup. hence, i say i have no ball sense. it's true! i can't play football, basketball, or any ball games. Heck, ball was my worst apparatus during my gymrama days. which is why i stick to simple, ball-less, running. er...literally ball-less....u get what i mean. :)

Tuesday, November 22, 2005


i'm pissed
i'm mad
i can't believe u did that

i'm furious
i'm angered
why can't u see that it mattered

i'm disappointed
i'm down
but the strength i seek could not be found

i'm sad
i'm hurt
but the feelings i have would always revert

i can't stay mad at you
neither can i stay disappointed
but i am, without a doubt, gonna stay hurt

when i told him how much i liked him, he said things to me that i'll never forget...things that i'll hold so dearly. eventhough, it didn't work out between us. but could i possibly be so dazzled by him that i naively took in every word he said and turned it into my own version? i don't know how much of that he meant. i don't know much of what he thinks of me now. and i have no right to be angry with such trivial issues. but just that one small detail, has made me question all that he said to me that day.

i'll have you

i give up, i give in
there's no one else that's coming in
into my heart, into my head
there's no one else i can relate

i've tried strong, i've tried hard
but everyone, i seem to disregard
i've looked forward, i've looked ahead
but the past still roars in my head

i close my eyes, i clam up to noise
yet your voice comes and gives me no choice
i blur my vision, i try not to hear
yet your face just seems all too clear

so i give up, i give in
there's no one else that i'll bring in
into my heart, into my head
in every case, i'll have you instead

Sunday, November 20, 2005

"me" time overdose

it's good to have "me" times, i've been told. but too much can seriously drive you up the wall. i don't know how spinsters slash bachelors slash widows live...but it sucks when you have nobody to talk to.

My mum's out of town. she's in Beijing with a group of Calamity Janes. haha...i'm so evil...i meant teachers. She left Thursday night. My brother Keith, has a swimming meet that lasts from Friday till Sunday. My dad worked on Friday, and spend the whole of today at the pool with my brother. He'll be doing the same thing tomorrow.

boredem's getting to me. i really don't want to die a spinster....

Saturday, November 19, 2005

where's the Purple Girl?

no doubt i'm no where near the medal tally for triathlons and duathlons...i'm not even among the top half of the triathletes and duathletes. but it's comforting to know that these people know me. haha...

my little brother came home from his OKH swim meet today and told me Joey Chan went for the Titiwangsa Tri. Joey was my swimmer in one of the relays i took part in. an adorable little boy my brother's age. Joey said that the people there were asking "where's the Purple Girl?". so be known as the Purple be known. period. hehe....

it was a pity that i wasn't able to take part in Titiwangsa Tri. i think it's the first time i've skipped a tri ever since i started many years back. Oh...apart from the Kenyir one. :) i love taking part in these races...and some day, i shall be among those up on stage...


i just got a job as a promo girl. it's just a 3-day stint in KLCC from 2-4 December. the cool thing is i get RM120 a day. oh and uniforms are provided. i have to go for wardrobe fitting on Monday, which makes me worry a little, thinking of what sort of "uniform" i'll be donning. ain't no mini lycra skirt is gonna cover my thunder thighs....hehe....


i went for a body fat analysis recently. one of the guys there was Jen Lye, a former schoolmate. when he saw me going in he went "Karen siah? don't need to take la, you're not fat!". He should not have said that. I stepped onto that fat reading machine and i am fat. I have 25.4% body fat when a normal female under 30 years of age should have 22% and below. 25% and above is categorized as "high risk of obesity". i'm on high risk of obesity, people! Keep me away from fatty foods! but i've had chicken rice once, carbonara once and garlic cheese naan once since the test. i think my body fat percentage now has sky rocketed from "high risk of obesity" to just "obese".

Friday, November 18, 2005

Mrs K the love counsellor

Session Start: 17 November 2005
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[23:41:29] galnexdor: but i'll be going for OBS again
[23:41:32] galnexdor: 10th - 23rd
[23:41:35] galnexdor: ahhaha
[23:42:02] khawce@hotma: wah as assistant now?
[23:42:08] khawce@hotma: as a job?
[23:42:51] galnexdor: assistant again
[23:42:51] galnexdor: :)

[23:43:11] khawce@hotma: u really like the great outdoors
[23:43:15] khawce@hotma: Id rather not
[23:43:19] galnexdor: ahhaha's so fun
[23:43:22] khawce@hotma: prefer me mod cons
[23:43:23] galnexdor: :)
[23:43:29] galnexdor: aahahah...

[23:43:31] khawce@hotma: flushed toilets, running hot shower
[23:43:39] galnexdor: my family aren't really big on the outdoors also
[23:43:46] khawce@hotma: dats why I left the Girl Guides
[23:43:50] galnexdor: hehe its quite shocking since they're all sports oriented
[23:43:52] khawce@hotma: din like the camping
[23:43:57] galnexdor: they like sports...but not dirt
[23:43:58] galnexdor: ahahah

[23:44:04] khawce@hotma: same here
[23:44:07] galnexdor: ahahha
[23:44:11] galnexdor: i like both...

[23:44:15] khawce@hotma: dats why I got involved in indoor sport
[23:44:34] khawce@hotma: ah well u also have to find BF who also like
[23:46:45] galnexdor: ahahah
[23:46:50] galnexdor: as u can see i'm still looking
[23:47:06] galnexdor: coz apparently guys like them (outdoor freaks) dun like girls alike

[23:48:52] khawce@hotma: ?
[23:49:01] khawce@hotma: mean outdoor guys like indoor girls???
[23:49:13] khawce@hotma: god balances life...hmmm
[23:49:29] galnexdor: yess...its called yin n yang
[23:49:30] galnexdor: :)

[23:49:59] khawce@hotma: maybe so I talk a lot, Mr Khaw quiet
[23:50:06] galnexdor: ahhaha yea...
[23:50:23] khawce@hotma: I artistic, Mr K can't draw a line
[23:50:26] khawce@hotma: hmmm
[23:50:27] galnexdor: so i won't be surprised if i wound up marrying someone dorcile as a lamb
[23:50:27] galnexdor: hehe

[23:50:36] khawce@hotma: heheheh
[23:50:48] khawce@hotma: it CAN be interesting
[23:50:52] galnexdor: it can?
[23:50:53] galnexdor: ahahahha

[23:50:55] khawce@hotma: who wants to compete at home
[23:51:00] khawce@hotma: better be different
[23:51:26] khawce@hotma: I remember reading a study said those who are alike will be more in danger of breaking up cos competing
[23:51:35] khawce@hotma: so an actor should never marry an actress
[23:52:04] galnexdor: ahahahha
[23:52:12] galnexdor: yea...explains why all hollywood marriages didn't last
[23:52:13] galnexdor: haha

[23:52:23] khawce@hotma: so look indoors, girl, for that guy in the horizon
[23:52:36] khawce@hotma: he isn't on the tracks
[23:53:35] galnexdor: ahahhaha....
[23:53:40] galnexdor: advice taken...;)
[23:53:50] galnexdor: i am so saving this conversation
[23:53:57] galnexdor: if things work out i'll recite this at my wedding
[23:54:03] galnexdor: "why we got married"

[23:54:03] khawce@hotma: hahaha for future reference
[23:54:03] galnexdor: ahahahha
[23:54:12] khawce@hotma: oh yeah those wedding slideshows
[23:54:14] khawce@hotma: heheheh
[23:54:17] galnexdor: oh you're invited btw
[23:54:18] galnexdor: :)

*some 17 minutes and many other random topics later...*

[00:09:11] khawce@hotma: right good nite
[00:09:17] khawce@hotma: see u some time
[00:09:29] khawce@hotma: be good and dun 4get to look INDOORS
[00:20:45] galnexdor: gnitee
[00:20:47] galnexdor: right
[00:20:47] galnexdor: :)

see why i like my gim coach so much? how many coaches give you relationship advice? hehe....

Wednesday, November 16, 2005


funny how i've envisioned today ever since i got the timetable for this sem's finals, seeing myself beaming with the bliss of liberation, my mind making mental notes of today's, tomorrow's, the day after's plans and that of the many days to come. but now that i'm done with my finals, as in completely done with Year doesn't feel all that big a deal. sure i'm relieved...but the sweet taste of freedom lasted for only a while...the moment i sat down at the velvet seats of TGV Sunway Pyramid next to Lyn, drousiness took over. i wanted to sleep more than anything in the world. haha...not that the show was boring. it was nice...i liked it.

*i recommend watching Just Like Heaven for all you chick-flick-romantic-comedy suckers out there*

and when night came, i didn't even want to go out for supper. i wanted to eat at home. it's so weird. when i was having my exams, i'd kill to go out but i'd have this guilty consciousness gnawing at the pit of my stomach. now the whole idea of going just seems overrated. haha...

my goodness...this is such a mature, down-to-earth, dull post coming from someone who has just finished her finals! who am i kidding?


and i'm going crazy thinking of all the things i want to do! i want to buy myself stuff, i want to watch movies, i want to go running, i want to go climbing, i want to work, i want to have sleepovers, i want to go mamak-ing, i want to meet up with my friends from the Land Down Under! ;)

13th November 2005
Black Suit's Comin' dance

Sunday, November 13, 2005

to cry when no one's around

i've always tried not to cry
when my tears could be seen by others
so i could avoid the interrogative why
and spare mysef the criticizers

i've always tried not to cry
when there's people around me
so i could avoid the whispering lies
when people predict what happened to me

but try as i might, sometimes i falter
and the brick walls around me seem to crumble
and kind friends come to pick up my shatters
trying their utmost best to be gentle

and though i treasure their concern for me
though i appreciate their act of kindness
i hate myself when my eyes turn puffy
i hate myself when i spell out bitterness

and it is precisely because of that
that it is far worse, i found
to feel the heat radiate from my cheeks
to feel the knot gather in my throat
to feel the tears well up in my eyes
and to shed them when no one's around

online chats are expressionless you say? i beg to differ. i never knew i could be so emotionally affected by just a conversation over the internet with someone who's miles away across the globe. and it had to happen on the night my family decides to go out for dinner and i decide to stay home and study.

i hate crying in public. but i hate crying to myself even more.

i used to think i was so misunderstood. now i think i misunderstand too much.

anyway, it's all over now. i think. the air's clear now. my family is oblivious to my tears. let's keep it that way. on a brighter note, Yvonne seems to think i'm blog-worthy. Thanks Yvonne! I know your blog has tonnes of readers. i already see 5 comments. i don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. :)

Saturday, November 12, 2005

- facelift -

my house is undergoing massive repainting. like really major change. So much so Roshida drove right passed my house today twice before she called me to ask for my house number. hehe...see that's when you know a person's house too well, you fail to note the house number. =)

these painters that my mum hired are real morning people! they come at like 8 am! on the first day, Keith woke up and was startled to see the silhouette of a man outside his window with a "gun". was those high pressure thingies to get the old paint off. there were men right outside my room for a couple of days too. made me a bit uncomfortable at first, so i drew the curtains. but i could hear them loud and clear. They're hakka and i'm beginning to understand why they say hakka people are loud. hehe *no offense* but they are. and i'm a pure breed Banana so God knew what they were jabbering about just inches away from my face. All i could do was blast my mp3s and pray they don't mind my taste in music. hehe...

i would say i had a rather productive day as i doused myself in Business Communications in the afternoon and Marketing at night. I never thought i'd say this but i wished i hadn't skipped all those Monday BCM 101 lectures. haha...but no turning back! I'm just glad that i'm perfectly literate in English.

went running with my mum at the lake today. The Malays are back from their Raya. Nike free guy was back too. So was the girl with the red shoes. hehe...i did 4 rounds, which comes up to about 4.8 km. And i am proud to say, that i am finally within the region of my former fitness level, with an average of 6:40 minutes per round. Funny thing was when this chinese guy, whom i've not seen at the lake before, ran passed me and showed me the Thumbs Up. I have this chauvinistic, egoistic habit of disliking being overtaken by people and then being praised just immediately after. it's a bad habit i know and they probably just wanted to lend some encouragement and support. but i tend to take it as they're trying to act all nice and humble when they know perfectly well they've just beaten me in my own imaginary race. ah...if it's any consolation, it does drive me to push harder. *shrugs*

and so i did. i pumped more juice into my legs and pounded the road a little harder. my left knee bailed. it sent this jolt of pain from the knee up to my lower back. i don't know why, but it went away after several minutes. after a round i caught up with Mr Thumbs-Up. well, actually...he had stopped running and was just walking to cool down.=) as i gained on him, he said to me, "Ni de jiao yao la khai yi dien". woah...ok let me interpret this to the best of my Banana ability. Correct me if i'm wrong but i think it meant:

"you must pull your legs wider apart" (Use bigger strides).

i gave him a friendly smile and nod, and i really did try to take his advice. thing is, this isn't the first time someone has commented on my stride. My korkor used to say i do things as opposed to others. When i pace i have small Kimono steps. When i sprint i take long far strides. Then one of the Malay uncles also said to me "You ni kena lari keras sikit!". Which i gather as put in more energy, thus have stronger, further strides. So yea, it's about time i did something about it.

I tried. and it lasted...for about 10 strides. haha...will work on it. I have a feeling i'll cover more distance with less energy spent if i have longer strides...and that's just what i need - energy conservation.

Today's friday. Friday means the last day of the study week. It means that there will not be any more consultation hours. It means i only have the weekend left to absorb whatever i can on my own. and considering my entire Sunday will be spent in Holiday Villa emcee-ing for the Gimrama Grading and performing, it looks like i only have tomorrow. And tomorrow morning is spent in Kelana Jaya coaching the swimmers for their performance...

i really should think things through before i agree to take the job next time....

Wednesday, November 09, 2005


this goes out to...

she who made a friend out of me

she who called me her best friend right after i showed her my diary which i wrote bitterly about how she had caught the attention of my, then, major crush

she who felt so bad about the whole issue till she could not sleep and had to send me an e-mail to apologize for something that wasn't even her fault

she who had the same gymrama skills as i all throughout our 8 years of gymrama

she who, because of that, became the partner i was stuck with for 8 years

she who knows just what to do, and when to do so without me saying so

she who calls me up just when i start to miss her but had second thoughts of calling her for fear she might have dating plans

she who thinks of me and asks me to go out at the time where i needed it most

she who always finished earlier than me for the event before lunch during competitions, but will stay back with me till i'm done so we could go have lunch together

she who calls me up before every gymrama competition or trip to do a checklist just in case she might forget anything

she who asks me to end the call so she could call me back because she has the post paid line while i have the prepaid one

she who makes me feel less of a dork when we're out with our gim friends coz we both know nuts about alcohol and clubs

she who agreed to do a performance for Corroboree with me eventhough she had doubts about it because she was afraid that messing up in front of our college peers would just mean social sucide (should u ask, i messed up in the end...not she *wink*)

she who wore my own prom dress more times than i

she who skipped her own school just to come for practise and perform for my school

she who gave me a blue elephant which i bring along with me almost everywhere i go

she who stayed up and watched Armageddon with me eventhough she was dead tired, plus it was her second time watching it

she who called me up just to let me know that she'll be free in the next 3 weeks because she's on study leave

she who has more same shirts as me than any other friend of mine because we both dig Buy 1 Free 1 and Buy 1 and get the 2nd for 50% off offers

she who tells me everything about her life

she whom i will dearly miss from the day she leaves for Glasgow

Happy 19th Birthday Lyn!

Monday, November 07, 2005

raging hormones

have been having pretty bad menstrual cramps these days. it's odd...i never used to have them back then. hormonal changes suck.

and i have this pimple like growth on the outline of my upper lip. it itches so i involuntarily bite it. little did i know that my biting it became so obssessive that now it's this HUGE red patch. my upper lip looks lopsidedly swollen. if you had a look at me, you'd think i had a really bad kissing experience. haha...

as a result, i've been a bit grumpy. i think it's that, plus the fact that my exams are drawing nearer and nearer...and it's putting creases in my parents' foreheads. they say i look too free. my mum relates everything i do to studying. that woman has the english proficiency to make everything she says sound right. i am often left dumbfounded with nothing more than "ok-lahh" in reply, as i sulk upstairs to my room. English teacher mums are powerful. Do not engage in a debate with them. it's like planning to lose.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

shanghai hairy crab

yes! now everything can fly! even live crabs! all the way from Shanghai! aunt just came back from China. right after she touched down at KLIA, she showed up at my front door at about 11 pm with these strange tied up boxes. nope. it can't wait till tomorrow. it has to be eaten now.

at the sound of "hairy crabs", i cringed. the thought of putting anything hairy into my mouth was just weird. well, it turned out, i couldn't have enough of it! ahahah...

These crabs are premium dishes. To order one in a restaurant in Shanghai would probably cost you roughly 60 rmb each. and they're not all that huge as you can see. Apparently, to eat them is a luxury. After trying them out today, i'll tell you why.

firstly the crabs are seasonal. it's only fished during late autumn-early winter season. and they're not all that huge. so eating them is tricky. restaurants provide special toothpicks and small forks to pick the flesh out from hard-to-reach places. customers take their own sweet time to eat them. so eating these hairy crabs are a social event, where they meet to chat over crab. =)

and like most foods, these crabs have grades. i think this particular type my aunty brought back is about average in class. check out the stamp on the shell! ahahha...

the crab is eaten with some special sort of wine. the taste is said to be so exquisite, that it should not be taken with anything else like chilli, soy sauce, ketchup etc. it should only be sprinkled with that wine and taken like that. i have nothing to complain about this, for i personally don't like crabs in sauce. oh and it has to be steamed, not fried or grilled.

the hair is only on the crab's clamps (or whatever you call's 'kong' in hokkien). and it is pretty disgusting if you look at it. but whatever's inside the shell is delicious. These crabs are more known for their 'eggs' (the orange stuff) than their flesh. so they've got loads of it. hehe...high reproduction rates i think...

and here's the funny thing. all the crabs that my aunty brought tonight were males. and yet they do have 'eggs'. are crabs bisexual?? haha....

my porpor loved it. while she was eating it, she told me about howmy yehyeh loved it so much last time but had not enough money to buy it. so he'd buy just one to be shared by a family of 6. hehe...

though i specialise in eating shelled seafood in my family, i was unsuccessful in getting the flesh out of the clamps. i didn't have that hammer thingy they provided in the restaurant. so all of my clamps went to my dad who used a pair of kitchen scissors. i'd sink my teeth into it, but looking at all that hair, not such a good idea....=)

i devoured 2 crabs. and that was supper. talk about high cholesterol! now if crabs here were cooked this way here, i wouldn't mind eating them. its the sweet and spicy sauce that i dislike. mmm...

my grandma asked me which i prefer, prawns or these crabs? haha...that's a tough question. but i think prawns it is. prawns are my favourite. be it fried, steamed, grilled or baked. prawns it is!

but i savour these crabs now. for the only time i'll be eating them again would be if someone else heads to Shanghai and flies some home.

hehe...alright...sleep i shall.

i braved the terrain of Gasing Hills this morning with daddy dearest. and tomorrow morning is dancing time with the swimmers....

Friday, November 04, 2005

bear with me

as planned, the Siah family + Pn Wan + Cik Hooi + Shirlyn went to Kiara Hills at the wake of dawn...hehe well 7.15 am to be exact. it was pretty fun. i was with Lyn slightly ahead, as the booming voices of the SMKSJ teachers trailed off behind us. Daddy and Keith were no where to be found. Kiara Hills has monkeys. I don't like monkeys. haha...but these ones are pretty harmless. anyway, i worked up a good sweat. enough to calm myself down after the clashing i had with my mum last night. (p.s. Thanks Ju for bearing with my complains).

breakfast was the reknown Sarawak Mee from Restoran Gembira, Taman Megah (opposite Ming Tien). it was good. but i've had better. :)

the teachers had Pn Chong's thanksgiving lunch in Subang Parade, so i tumpang-ed to go there to develop some photos. We sat in Pn Wong PW's brand new Sentra. hehe...i did some walking around, searching for a birthday present for the November babies. Saw many Celebrity Fitness booths up, recruiting people. Had a look at the timetable and Rosie was right. There were dance classes in Celebrity Fitness. I am so gonna work there when it opens!

at about 4.30 pm, the Siahs went to Bukit Raja mall which is in Klang. Mummy wanted to check out the Jusco sales. Spent quite some time there. I had to summon up such strength to look away from the sales and discounts! I am so in need of compulsive shopping therapy. hehe...oh and i saw Uncle Tee donning the Power shirt. unsurprisingly, he was headed for the Nike store. =)

Dinner was at Berkeley Gardens. It's this Asia-Cafe-cum-Ming-Tien-ish place. But the food's great and cheap! haha...i had my lala chien and ngah pou lou shi fun. my dad ordered fried baby sharks! haha...not too bad i'd say....=)

hmm...a dry post really. and i think only smsjians would get who the hell i'm rambling about. hehe...sorry...the mood of the post dictates the mood of the writer. exams are coming up. bear with me.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

all in a day's work

now, i know i said i wanted long hair again. i know i have reminisced about my long-hair-days. and i have also made a few people promise me that they would stop me the moment i say i wanna get a haircut again...but sometimes when u go shopping, u tend to do things somewhat impulsively. i cut my hair. at Tesco. it's not a boy-cut. it's just roughly 2 inches shorter. i think i look a lot like the Karen in One Tree Hill.

my dad was getting bored just staying at home. he wanted to get out. that's a first. so we all went to Ikano Power Center/The Curve after an early dinner. we went into the pet safari, and once again i have fallen in love with the little Schnauzer. i swear i'll one day get myself a puppy to run with. :) after that we adjourned to Mien Tien in Taman Megah. The food there is overpriced. My leong fun cost RM1.60. My dad's Milo - RM1.90. I'll stick to good ol' Asia Cafe from now on.

i just finished watching One Tree Hill. My current favourite character is Hayley James. I especially love this sentence she said "what happened to sex being something that you wait for and you share with the one you love?" or something like that. yeap. Kapish to that. I know that Malaysian youths are no longer timid, shy and virgins. Most of them aren't. and i know that some may view me as conservative or old fashioned or narrow or holy. but i strongly disagree with pre-marital sex. i think that it should be an act of love not lust. though i may not discriminate against those who've done it, i would definitely not engage in it. and i really hope that my closest friends would share my view on the issue. it's just not worth losing it over someone you don't even know whether you'd be spending the rest of your lives with.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005


so i was a bit impulsive last night. i do not need a boyfriend. i'm perfectly well on my own.

and it turns out, communication is the key to everything. :)

i went running again today. up SS18. i'm ashamed to say this is only my second running feat since the last time i blogged about it. even both my mum and dad are working out more than me. i think my mum's mileage per week is about 25 km. no joke.

needless to say, i was huffing and puffing all along. i saw Puvesh fixing up some lights with his dad as i passed by his house. ah..the festive spirit! :) when i came back down, i tried spotting him again. his front door was left ajar but neither him nor his dad was around. i thought maybe if he was still there, i'd have an excuse to stop and have a chat with good ol' Ah Vesh. hehe...tried looking inside his house when suddenly...


i was a bundle of legs, hands and twigs. i ran right into this fallen branch with many extended branches. i was all tangled up in it. it made quite a noise and i had this instinct that Puvesh will peep out the door, see me and laugh till he hits the floor. haha...well, he didn't. i untangled myself and brisk walked back home. acquired some scratches here and there. no biggie.

when i reached home it was only 6 pm. thought of calling him out for a walk. then i figured he'd probably have preparations to do. so i asked Mei Ling out instead. we walked up the same route i jogged. talked n talked to our hearts' content. :)

i just realised i have exactly 2 weeks to my finals. i need to study. right now i can't figure out which i prefer doing - assignments or exams...

Monday, October 31, 2005

necessity, rather than luxury

i think i'm starting to actually need a boyfriend, rather than want one.

yes...i think the whole boyfriend issue is more of a necessity now rather than a luxury item.

i need one. why?

because, as humble as i can put this, i'm attracting to wrong guys. "wrong" being the adjective to describe the situation, not the guys. i am not particularly shallow. i do place importance on looks but that isn't the deciding factor. there are many other things to consider like, maybe, love and chemistry. i just don't feel interested in any of them. it could be that i am reluctant to let myself be interested. but the bottomline is i'm not.

and unless i can continue to churn out creative (buy-able) excuses to turn them down, i seriously think i need a social status change. i'm not skilled in saying a flat out no. i don't have the heart to do so. or the courage. either way i suck at being direct. i often resort to avoiding the guy, ignoring the guy or asking friends to help me out.

but my creative brain juice is running dry and i really shouldn't be wasting it on thinking up excuses, and i will never be able to say "i'm not interested in you" in the boldest, simplest, most direct way.

goodness...i've brought desperation to a whole new level...

anyway, i just found out last night while tinkering with my videocam software that i have a pretty cool photo editing software. i've been playing with it all are some stuff i've been doing...haha....

Saturday, October 29, 2005


i somehow discovered that there is a lump in my neck. it actually does not hurt, nor itch, nor bother me in any way. i don't even know how long it has been there. but now that i've felt it, i can't stop touching it. and i can't help knowing it's there. my mum thinks its the cause of my recurring headaches. she wants to bring me to UH to check it out. my dad thinks it's my lymph node. i personally have no clue.

i paid my dad RM218 today. i owed him that much for STOMP coz i used the credit card to get the tickets. so there goes my gymrama coaching pay. money is so hard earned.

feeling a bit guilty for something i did...

i didn't mean to tell a lie
i guess i just didn't feel like going
i didn't mean to fake an excuse i guess
i didn't feel like explaining

i don't think you'll understand
if i told u i've someone else in mind
someone i don't think anyone would size up
at least not for this point in time

i can't seem to put a finger on it
why i don't want any other
i can't seem to come up with reasons
to tell myself i should search further

someone i know for a fact
that isn't for me to call mine
someone i know for a fact
that has left his past behind

i don't think u'll understand
if i told u, that there is none
that will make me feel the way i do
like that special someone

random absurdity

1. lyn, rosie and I are gonna perform for the holidy villa gimrama grading! woohoo! its been so long since we performed together. ah miss miss MISS those timess...the group routine...the centralised training...the MSSM...the laughing together...the crying together...whoa...precious moments man...

2. i just went to holiday villa to pay mrs khaw a visit and i came home with this:

my pay for just 2 days of substituting her. Darn i should be a coach!

3. i have been asked by Cik Hooi and Pn Wan to do a performance for some makan malam that SMKSJ is organizing. and while chatting with some friends just now i came up with the utterly bizarre idea of doing a performance by an all-teachers'-children cast! i spoke to zhun neay and he thinks its a great idea. now my only worry is getting these people. so..
attention all proud children of SMKSJ teachers. if you will be around on Feb 25th 2006 please try to take part in this. let me know! you got my number!

4. i went to develop the film of the disposable camera that we were given during the hunt. it's been ages since i went to develop photos. hehe feels kinda weird doing so...i don't know why...

5. a new shop just opened in Subang Parade and their beautiful 3 for RM10 earrings are almost irresistable!

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

some things just don't change

i was having a chocolate sundae in McDs today...the one that's around the corner from my college.

Shakti and i were just talking about stuff that we've been meaning to talk about but we kept putting off because we just didn't have the time to. haha...

there was a group of students who were snapping pictures. out of the corner of my eye i saw them, and i said "sure Taylor's students..". hehe...i have this theory whereby i can differentiate a Metro-ian and a Taylor-ian when i see one.

anyway, suddenly i heard an unmistakble voice, and amidst the group of camwhores i spotted Jocelyn Kung. my! Gawd knows when was the last time i saw her! haha...she saw me too, and came over to give me a hug. I wished her Happy Belated Birthday as i know she shares it with Titus. The catching up process went like this:

me: hey! its been so so long since i last saw you!
jo: (as high pitched and shrill as before) yea! omg!
me: how have u been? where u studying now?
jo: there...Taylor's.
me: TBS? or some degree in Taylor's?
jo: nola...SAM
me: eh..why so late? what have u been doing all of last year?
jo: nothing...just hanging around...
me: oh icic...i thought u went NS or something.
jo: (mortified) what?!? no!! do i look darker? do i look like NS material to you?!?!? *gasps and clutches face*
me: haha nola...i just thought maybe u had to go for NS...don't worry...u look fine...why all in black? *gestures to all her friends*
jo:'s a SAM thing...our class just decided to wear black...

hehe....some things just don't change....

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

the sweet smell of completion

can u smell it? i'm through with projects and assignments! no more for the year 2005!

i'll be presenting one last thing tomorrow morning for Management and that's it! no more researching, and group discussions, and Harvard referencing...

ah! the sweet sweet smell of the year end! soon i'll be done with finals! Done with Semester 2! Done with Year 1!

Things i intend to do during my summer break:
1. Get a job. Preferably one in the fitness industry, that pays well and i don't dread going to.
2. Plan outing with RSGs. This is like a MUST.
3. Plan outing with SJian gang. What is it i heard? Langkawi? Bring it on!
4. Plan outing with G5-ers. Faster come home people!!
5. Challenge my Kor to a 5 km run.
6. Find a partner for Trail Blazer. Wild category this time?
7. Enjoy myself in OBS.
8. Rearrange my room.

Things i intend to buy during my summer break:
1. Roman sandals for OB
2. Hammock for OB
3. Nike dri-fit tights
4. Mountain bike
5. Dress for Teng Jie's wedding

How can I possibly wait?

Monday, October 24, 2005

what drives me??

i've lost the drive to do my work...

my fear gene somehow fails to be working either...coz the deadline for my case study is tomorrow, and i'm not done, and yet i don't feel the urge to continue...

i sit and stare blankly at the pc for hours but end up typing nothing...

i watch helplessly as the minutes tick away but no motivation whatsoever gets my brains working.

why am i not compelled to do my work??

i have always been a procrastinator...but i never fail to get it done. and if so much has changed about my work attitude, i pray that at least that little part of me remains the same...

i will complete my assignments before i hand them in tomorrow.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

treasure hunting...

i never knew how straight my thinking was till i did this here's my SEFA-Munchy's Intervarsity Treasure Hunt story...enjoy...=)

the thing kicked off at roughly 8 am from Giant Shah Alam. but we were told to gather there at 6.30am. Thus, we left sj at 6 am. I woke up at 5.15am. i slept at 2.45am the night before...*yawns*

2 guys, 2 girls and a Kelisa. that was originally my idea for our team name. the team consists of myself, Shakti, Ronald the driver and Kailash the navigator. Team Metropolitan! =) though we weren't the only metro-ians there.

i think the person who came up with the questions was either super creative, or he had too much time on his hands. and i was told that this hunt's difficulty level is no where near a real hunt. i don't think i'd take part in a real hunt anytime soon.

after hours of gruelling mind boggling questions, we finally arrived at Hotel Seri Malaysia PD at about 1.30 pm. i'd say we fared pretty well, leaving minimal questions unanswered and arriving the 6th. felt pretty good with the team at that point.

had lunch which was included in the fee, then checked in with 2 other girls from PACC, which is an accounting institution (i think) in KL. Communication was limited since there is a language difference. But it was alright.

then we had some team building activities. we were all separated into different groups of 10. Ronald and I were coincidentally put into the same team. i've always loved team building activities, so i enjoyed myself. met a lot of people from HELP, Nottingham, Sistematic and so on.

one activity was to create a mechanism/device out of some newspapers, tissue papers, rubber band, rafia and a plastic bag, to prevent an egg from breaking after being thrown down from a certain height. this activity is a pretty common one i think. needless to say, our egg broke. but so did all the other teams' eggs. hehe...

at night after dinner, they went through the questions and answers of the hunt. the urge to bang my head against the table grew stronger and stronger as we discover more and more mistakes from our answers. its amusing really, how differently a question is perceived by different people. we didn't get into the top 5...but all's good. =)

our final activity was a group presentation on community social issues. our group got won! yay! at least something came out of this whole thing! though by then, i was dead tired. i literally struggled to retain consciousness! haha...

after that, being the typical teenager out on a trip with no parents, i refused to sleep. i always feel holidays are not meant for sleeping. the 4 of us went by the beach to chill....then as dark clouds hovered over our heads, we adjourned to the hotel. the SEFA officials and BOD were having their fun time after a long long day. some of the participants joined in a truth or dare session with lots of booze. we were spotted, then was all rather...interesting...i guess...=)

the next day, Shakti and i woke up at about 9 am. breakfast was the final meal included in the whole package. then,we went to walk the beach. nicee....=)

at about 10.30 am, we checked out of the hotel. satisfied, tired, drained of energy, we retreated from PD.

still undone - Marketing case study & Management poster presentation...

reality bites...

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Thursday, October 20, 2005

broke the spell

today i broke my feeling-lethargic-don't-wanna-go-running spell which i was under for over 2 weeks. the moment the long winded drizzle stopped i grabbed my Clima Cools and hit the road. the weather was great. afterall, it had been raining since i saw the morning light :) but my legs felt like 2 big bricks. my lung capacity seemed to have shrunk to half its size. and my arms were awfully clumsy.

who would've thought that 2 weeks out of training would turn me into jelly. haha...but it felt great to run again. though i refused to start my stopwatch. haha who knows what atrocious timing i'd be doing with all the huffing and puffing i had to go through to pull myself up the ss18 hill?

i went up and did 4 rounds around the 18 park. i told myself i'd do 5...
then i came down, and only managed up to somewhere after Puvesh's house. i told myself i'd run all the way home...


oh well...its too bad that the Titiwangsa Triathlon falls on the 13th of November. Finals start on the 14th. looks like there aren't anymore runs to look forward to this year.

Genting Trailblazer will be up in January 2006. That's something to look forward to. Keeran, come back!!! but no...he'd rather devote himself to Sydney than to be my partner and defend our 2nd runner up position! boohoo...need to find new partner...

any takers? =)

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

much love...

my thoughts are heavy,
though empty inside,
as i searched thoroughly,
for words to write.

the simple words do no justice
to the person that you are
and the big ones causes a crease
to the picture from afar

i have so much to say
though i can't put my finger on it
there is no significant way
to explain it bit by bit

to be able to express my thoughts
through this, is what i wish
among the ways that i sought
rhyming is still my fetish

anyhow, anywho, i truly hope
u know just how much you mean to me
and i pray that u'd be able to cope
with all the love i give generously!

hehe...lo and behold my lame attempt at being mischevious...what the heck...

happy 20th birthday, Fang!

Monday, October 17, 2005

field trip to Hunk City

its been so long since i went on a school trip. haha...the whole gathering in front of the main gate, climbing into the bus, singing aloud all the way from the start of the journey till we reach our destination. it's fun...even better when it's at night...and best when our destination is Hunk City. hahah...

so the big day finally came. 2 weeks of daily practise, a pair of very strained thighs and one sprained thumb (yes i sprained my thumb, it amuses me too) later, we finally performed at the NBL in MABA. yup...think tall lanky built basketballers in a huge air conditioned indoor basketball stadium. it was so exciting! those guys were TALL. they were towering over all of us. and quite honestly, some of them act as if they've never seen girls in mini skirts before. seriously, too much attention ain't very flattering. and unless you were there, don't call me a gloat.

the performance was great!! though there were minor mistakes here and there. but overall i think we had a significant amount of cheers and wolf whistles. there was someone who shouted "some more some more!" but i have a feeling they only enjoyed the skirt lifting moments.

i was always kinda attracted to basketballers. don't know what is it that makes balls-flying-into-baskets more interesting than balls-flying-into-goal-posts...or any other sort of game for that matter. perhaps it's just baskteballers themselves. darn ying. hehe...i remember one time in school whereby Ju and i were ogling at guys like Sunil and Min Jun. haha those were the days...

performing is so much fun. from the choreographing, to the practising, right up to performing. it just gives me this thrill. i hope it doesn't end when i graduate....

Saturday, October 15, 2005

just like you

i couldn't believe what just happened
i don't think i've ever felt so blessed
i could see it in your very eyes
how things worked out i could never have guessed

i never knew what comfort was
till i felt the warmth of your arms
i never knew how it was to be loved
till i felt the sincerity in your charms

i never knew what bliss was
till i finally realised
that i never knew what love was
till i saw it in your eyes

and then it changed
as if on cue
as if everything that happened
was just too good to be true

i felt the morning light
through the slits of my eyes
and the cold air cond room
slapped me with all the lies

i woke up this morning with regret
for that was the last thing i intended to do
to break away from my peaceful slumber
for last night i dreamt of you

you know how sometimes when you've experienced something so great, you feel as though you'll never be able to settle for anything less anymore?

what i dreamt of last night may be nothing close to reality. heck, it may not even go near to sanity. but what i felt seemed very very real. i didn't want it to happen. it was hard enough trying to get over you without actually being with you before. well, at least not in a real way. now i don't think i'll ever move on. not when i know that no one would size up. i know, no one would ever be able to be just like you.

Thursday, October 13, 2005


finally...a breather from weeks of back to back assignments!

my flu's also clearing out. my fever's gone. my time-of-the-month is almost done. =)

i just had my weekly dose of OTH. and as usual, these teen romance flicks are so capable of making me all awww inside. darn....

i don't know what to think anymore these few days. i go back and forth between a state of emo-ness to pure bliss. i shuffle between self loathing and self confidence. i don't usually allow myself to step into self pity, but even that happens sometimes.

things have definitely been much easier now that i've long accepted the fact that my best girlfriends have each a very loving boyfriend. then again, things have also gotten a lot more disoriented.

at times, when given a long enough time to think, i'd wish things would just go back to the way it was back in school. back to times where having a boyfriend would be something we'd only dream of. and we all had our crushes to ogle at and admirers to run away from.

but things will never go back to the way it was. and for a very long time, my best friends and i have always had common wishes. but this...this is one wish that i wish alone. because from where i'm standing, i'm still at that stage, while they've moved on.

the other night someone said something which i frankly find non trustworthy. yet, i can't seem to think of any arguments to debate. as much as i thought that what she said was a whole load of crap, i wasn't able to prove it.

she said that girls often fall for the wrong guy. do we? or do i?

when my heart stops to leap
everytime you send me a message
that's when i'm through with you

when my mind stops clouding up
everytime you talk to me
that's when i'm through with you

when my thoughts stop shifting back
to every moment we spent together
that's when i'm through with you

when i stop wishing it was you
everytime i'm out with someone else
that's when i'm through with you

when i stop writing poems like this
in the late late night
that's when i'm through with you

when i stop worrying that you'll read this
everytime i post it up
that's when i'm through with you

when i stop denying to myself
that there isn't hope
that's when i'm really through with you..

like i said, i don't know what to think anymore.

Monday, October 10, 2005


what could be worse than having a runny nose, a sandpapered throat, stomach muscles worked up by coughs, a hot forehead and cold fingers, sleep deprivation while chasing assignment deadlines?

having all of the above during that time of the month.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

i love my best friend

Circle K made a visit to Compasion Home today. i've been there before during my Leo days in smsj...and the home has changed alot since then. apparently, Dato' Asia Cafe as quoted by Theresa, owner of Compasion Home, donated a large sum of money to reconstruct and refurnish the entire place. ah...not only is he enterprising, he's big hearted too! haha...

the kids were pretty fun to be around with. all very well mannered and open. i especially enjoyed the company of Yohan (the indian boy in black in the back sitting row) coz he was singing and dancing most of the time. and i think Isaac (the indian boy in green next to me) would grow up to be very good looking. and Kelvin (the chinese boy in blue in the center with his fingers poised) reminds me alot of my own brother. =) so yea...i enjoyed myself with them...

and as for the Circle K members? they're a pretty fun bunch. i'd definitely enjoy hanging out with them. can't wait for their next club activity.

i was so glad to receive a message from Lyn yesterday asking me if we could hang out today. as i was saying earlier how much i missed her, i really felt like i needed a weekly dose of chilling-with-lyn. everything just seems so relaxed when i'm with her. and the fun we have!'s almost in-born the way we make each other laugh! haha...i know all this sound very much gay but say what u like, i love my best friend!

i really can't imagine how life would be when she goes to Glasgow. it won't be as easy as it seems coz my dear girl logs on to msn like once in 3 months or so. so yea, not having her within driving distance would be

ah! i don't want her to leave!!! thank God it's 2 years from then i'd only be having one sem left before i graduate, and then it'll be my turn to fly off to somewhere far away to be missed. =)

yan nee came along with us. i have always found this girl very nice to yak with. shirlyn chooses very talkative friends. hehe...i think we often have the same perspective on life. but then again, we're both single and our dear Lyn is happily hitched. so could it be unfortunate that the both of us are on the same wavelength? hehe...perhaps it's time we start thinking outside our box. hehe....

today was tiring...but super fun. right now the reality of my Management project is hammering on the back of my head, that of which for a moment, i had totally forgotten about....

Saturday, October 08, 2005

to serve, to strive but not to yield!

*Riiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnggggggggg* (hehe...yes my ringtone is seriously like that)

zainal: hello, can i speak to karen please?
me: yes, karen here.
zainal: hie karen! this is zainal!
me: hie zainal!
zainal: hie! how are you?
me: oh good good...*laughs*
zainal: remember you signed up to be a CA for OBS? so, you still can? December 13th to 22nd...
me: CAN! yay!
zainal: ok! so i send you the letter la? thanks karen. bye!
me: Thank you! bye!

i'm going for OBS!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

*making a change*

to blog or to do BST? to blog or to do BST? blog? BST?....


hehe...i'll work on BST later...there's just too much to blog about...

Violets got second place!!! it was a pity i couldn't stay to watch the prize giving...had to rush home to complete BCM...but yeaa...she won 2nd place! yay! i miss her la...that day didn't get to talk to her much since she was busy cheering and snapping pics and cuddling with her boyfriend...hahah....but yea...i haven't been seeing her and her absence is very much felt....right now i miss her and i wish i had more time to talk to her....

and yesterday...juwita suwito came to metropolitan! she came! she sang! she autographed my CD!! and i thought "darn if only i had my camera!!!" haha...i love her...unlike most local artistes...she can really really sing! and her songs are beautiful! she has a very lisa loeb cum alicia keys touch, i find. ah! love her!!

she came together with some online magazine called Think. and the emcee that day was andy of altered frequency! he, unfortunately did not sing, has a beautiful voice too. i spoke to him. he told me to go watch his band perform in HELP on the 15th night! ah...Andy invited me to watch altered frequency! forgive me, i don't meet cool people who are lead singers in cool bands on a daily basis. unfortunately, 15th night i'd be performing for Metro in some stadium for some basketball tourney intermission. darn you metro!

but like i always say, Godzilla could land in the concourse of Metro and the students won't move a muscle. yup, that's Metro student for u. dead boring people whom Juwita Suwito's performance is wasted on. *sigh* that was my 45 minutes of bliss in metro. somebody wake me up when 2007 ends....

it's mrs khaw's birthday today!!'s wishing her happy birthday coach!!

Mrs Khaw!!!

and right the stroke of my dear brother's 22nd birthday! happy double 2 kor!!!

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

the digital divide

BCM down!

funny how when you're doing an assignment your mood changes according to the different phases of it. take this assignment for example.

phase 1: when we first got it. deciding on a topic was actually fun. when The Digital Divide has been chosen, i actually sit back and await the time i start doing it, since it seems so long away, yet when it's fresh, loads of stuff come into mind.

phase 2: when due date is around the corner. i realised i have not started a thing. worry sets in as friend by friend approach me with questions like "how to do referencing?" and "how many words?". yea i somehow strike them as Ms Know-it-all just coz i speak "fantastic english". but unfortunately, Ms Know-it-all isn't exactly Ms Efficient. Still put it off as the shorter term commitments are deemed more important at this point. by shorter term i mean things-to-hand-in-tomorrow.

phase 3: the last 2-3 days before the due date. just beginning to re-read the question. stress builds up. now reconsidering the alternative questions. all seem to be so hard. try googling. find lots of information on first decision. settle for that topic. start compiling. start typing. start clicking Word Count every now and then just to see how far off i am. getting sleepier by the minute.

phase 4: assignment done. click print. compile. smile. starts messaging people on msn eventhough it's waaay past late. feel half as sleepy as i was in phase 3. start blogging happily about the completion.

and yes the gap caused by the digital divide should be bridged in order to maintain world peace! =)

anyway, was at IMU just now to catch my dear Lyn in action! Woohoo~!! Go Violets! they were awesome! they were soooo coool!
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and Jin Aun who was there going against the Violets. haha Medical faculty vs Pharmacy Faculty.
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Puvesh was also cheerleading! and in my humble opinion, he was pretty darn good as well! it's so nice when there are guys to throw you up and down and u land just nicely in their strong manly arms. hahaha.....
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the whole Cheer Competition was so darn amazing! seriously, they rocked that tiny building to the core. i'm so jealous. i bet i heard more noise in that 2 hours than all of the voices in Metro combined. The spirit of sportsmanship! i miss sports! i miss the cheers, the team spirits, the energy! everything you get out of Sports Day!

i took many video clips of their performances. if you'd like to have a peek, let me know k?