Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Go Blind

In my effort to procrastinate and avoid doing my last article review, I have decided to promote my cause a little bit more. And I'm hoping you guys, you with blogs, can help me out.

Help me promote my cause by posting a post with a photo of yourself blindfolded! You can do it any style you like.

Work it ANTM style.
Or take an artistic shot.Or just make a fool out of yourself.Here's the link of my fundraiser page:

So please please please help me out! I know you guys get WAAAAY more hits than I do on this blog. Half the hits I get probably come from myself. =)

Thanks! I owe you big time!

Monday, September 28, 2009

Running Blind for a Cause

So I don't know if you've heard. But I have decided to raise funds for the Kiwanis Down Syndrome Foundation and I'm gonna do so by running the Standard Chartered Marathon in December.

And...inspired by Lily and friends at Life, I am gonna be doing the full 42.195 km with a blindfold!

Yes I have given thought to how dangerous this could be. But I will be running with someone. Once I FIND that someone that is. I'm looking for a running buddy to hold my hand/for me to hold so that I can be directed and guided the whole way.

Anyway, that is another matter altogether. For now, fundraising has BEGUN! So if you want to support me or my cause or just wanna tick off that charity on your New Year's Resolution list, please go to my fundraiser page and do your bit today! =)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

I did something quite spontaneous and brave (in my humble opinion) yesterday. I signed myself up for a bouldering competition. Yes, I did. Zhi had asked me if i wanted to take part in it because there was a beginner's category and there were spot prizes to be won. So I, with my 3 month work experience in Camp 5, 1 Utama, 4 year Outward Bound School Course Assistant experience, and the random, occasional try-to-impress-my-friends-and-score-some-points-with-those-boys-at-the-gym trips to Summit Rock Climbing gym, went ahead and entered myself in the bouldering competition. Nevermind the fact that I have absolutely no skill, no upper body strength, and my worst event in rock climbing is in fact bouldering (I honestly don't suck thaaat badly in top-rope i promise).

But having said that, I opened up my eyes to the world of rock climbers, and some of them were real eye openers, if u know what i mean ;). I had a good time. I woke up this morning, my arms weighing like bricks though, but it was good fun. I completed 2 "problems" out of maybe 25, but i'm getting there. =)

There's round 2 and 3. And I might be able to train up for those 2. Maybe complete 3-4 the next time.

Ah...chin up....here i come baby!

Thursday, September 24, 2009


Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do, I still feel you here 'till the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I
Try to make you see that you're
Everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I
Can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah
You're onto me, onto me and all over

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

Sara Bereilles - Gravity

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

just because it is too early to go to bed

i'm blogging because it is only 10.48 pm. i feel that any time before 11 pm seems too early to go to bed. although, admittedly, I have crept under the covers at about 10 plus before in the past. and i did so with no guilt whatsoever. just switched the lights off, went under the duvet, and went to sleep. almost instantly. such is my night time nowadays. because the friends at home come online far too late for me, and the friends here do not go online. because facebook can only entertain you so much in a day. because my internet isn't the greatest anyway. because i can't download songs, thus i'm sick of my song list.

i'm feeling fat. i admit that i sometimes do feel fat. and it is due to excessive binging. today i finished up the bag of corn chips, i finished up my bag of chocolate peanuts. and i finished up my pasta which was supposed to be for 2 meals. when i can no longer see the lines of my abs, i feel fat. it could potentially be due to water retention because it is that time of the month again. but either way, i'm feeling fat. and the scary thing is i'm not really in the mood to go running. heh.

i'm aiming to do a chin up by the end of the year. the target it to be able to do 2 successive chin ups (because one could be a fluke). my upper body strength is shocking. right now i wake up, hop onto the floor and do 12 push ups every morning. i'm gonna hit 15 next week, 17 the week after, then 20...and so on and so forth. u reckon that alone will help me do a chin up? or do i need a whole lot of pecs strength training as well?

i'm starting to miss u. quite terribly.

woohoo. it's 11. goodnight, world.

Monday, September 21, 2009


So the forecast for Sunday was sunny and fine weather and Ruth really wanted to be outdoors. So Erin and I decided we should all have an outdoorsy day as well!

We took Shrek to Karekare beach out west of Auckland. I have to say, Shrek went through a lot that day, but I'm proud of him nonetheless. =)
The weather was indeed glorious to be out at the beach. It was about 16 degrees but i stripped down to my bikini in the end and jumped into the freezing sea! It was good fun! =)

We also decided to go on a tramp so we changed into our trainers and started trekking onto some random path. Got a little lost for a bit, it was supposed to be a half an hour tramp, but we took nearly 2 hours in the end. haha...was a good route though. I thoroughly enjoyed it! =)

Fun times like these make me lazy to study. Also makes me feel slightly sad that I'm saying goodbye to these girls quite soon. =(

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Patrick Swayze, Del Potro, Shrek.

My gosh, I haven't rhymed in yonks! I tried the other day seeing that grief used to be my best genre, and I have been going through quite a bit of grief lately, but it became too personal in the end to be posted up on this blog. And I'd really like to put up a strong front so this blog shall not be grey and blue! Behold, random thoughts of the day in no particular order!

  • So Patrick Swayze died today. I am honestly saddened by this. I like the dude. I thought he was rather hot, in my humble opinion. And Dirty Dancing was a cool movie! so was Ghost, but I prefer Dirty Dancing. Our world is losing so many talented males, it's tragic!
  • Del Potro is 2 years my junior! Man is that boy young! And already a title champ. When I was 21 I was...single...and in a green dress at a restaurant whose table clothes were the colour of my dress. The exact same green. heh. Anyway, awww...i wanted Federer to win!! Because he da man! =(
  • Shrek, my lovely little green machine is BACK. after 2 weeks and 2 days my car mechanic/dealer had kept him in rehab. He's driving great now on the road. Except the brake fluid lights are on and I don't know if that's really a concern, or it's just because the guy had earlier emptied some fluid stuff and changed some hose ring thing and the car just hasn't really "sensed" it has been refilled. *shrug*. Will try to find that brake fluid reservoire tomorrow morning and see if it's really running low. Shouldn't be that hard to find. :P

Friday, September 11, 2009

there goes my holiday

2 weeks of semester break whizzed by really really REALLY quickly. And I must say having Weng Lum and Anne over made it a lot more exciting than I had planned. I actually have been very lucky to have so many visitors. I think my flatmates are jealous of me. Haha...well, who's next? =)

After they left, everything was at a standstill. It was as if you could hear the sound of crickets in the air. And so, with a sudden burst of quiet time, I had a lot of time to think about some of the things that have been clouding my mind lately. I thought of the things that initiated the issue at hand. I tried to trace back to the time it all started and who committed the first flaw. I tried tying in memories of a year ago with memories of 3 months ago. I tried to comprehend my actions and yours from as objective a point of view as I could possibly manage. I tried to be professional. I tried to leave my emotions aside and just see things from a 3rd party's perspective.

I failed. In so many degrees.

I honestly think I'm incapable of making sound judgements when it comes to you. Every decision had a flipside to it. There was none that was absolute. Nothing is ever clear cut when it comes to thoughts about you.

I hope things get better. I honestly do.

I hope we can start anew.

Monday, September 07, 2009

with Weng Lum and Anne

With Weng Lum and Anne over in the past 7 days, life fast forwarded 3x its regular pace. It was fun. There were a few setbacks which were really untimely, and possibly because I've been moody and grumpy for a while now, hence attracting some negative energy, but on the whole I'd say there were definitely many many many more high points than low points. Which is good. Considering I am trying desperately to shift my focus.
my extremely successful Merdeka Day night at my place

Sitting on the flying fox at Cornwall Park

I am, until now, still laughing silently to myself about the silliest words (English, Malay, Maori, Chinese) which were thrown around by Navin, Hanizah and Weng. Ahh...fun times.

I spent heaps of cash but it was well worth it. Weng Lum and his DSLR and his silly nonsensical chatter with Navin and Hanizah and the great blue sunny skies and the awesome new sights...that's what I call a holiday. Friends, fun, sun.I've got so many photos I don't know which to publish. I can't even decide which photo to use as my Facebook and MSN profile pictures. HAHA! I think imma gonna alternate them for a few weeks. Just because I can. =)

As I did the day Julie left, I am sitting here wondering what to do with myself today, feeling a little lonely, and wishing that Weng Lum and Anne didn't leave. I have a couple of assignments and readings to finish before school starts again, but I can't bring myself to do them. Not right now anyway. Will get to them soon enough.

On other things. I'm fine. I think. well, not really. I think I almost broke down that day karaokeing with the guys. But i recovered.

I can't help it. It's possibly the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. I think I finally understand the many other incidents in the past where I had to console a friend with a broken heart. No amount of "there there, it's ok" will ever make things okay. And neither would "Come on, be strong, I know you are" make me feel any better. Honestly. I can only heal with time. And chocolate.

Except that I've decided to not spend a dime for 2 weeks to recover from the wallet burn in the past couple of weeks. So I'm doing it without chocolate this time.


Thursday, September 03, 2009


I think, I'm not as strong as I'd like myself to be. I think that when I see an uphill while running, I increase speed and pummel on and I go "Huh, I'm pretty tough". But when Life throws me an uphill test, I panic and wish with all my might that I can turn around and run the opposite direction. Or in this case, in the direction of home.

Life has been quite a test this past week or so. And I think I have found out roughly where I stand on the toughness scale...i.e...not very high up.

But I believe that with every test thrown my way, I do come out a little stronger. I progress slowly, but surely.

But after all that's said and done, a large chunk of me just can't wait to be home right now. And surprise, you're still the reason.