afraid

i'm afraid...
to think of you again
for fear that it would be
of times i wished had happened
or times i wish would happen

i'm afraid...
to talk to you again
for fear that it would be
another pointless conversation
or another tearful one

i'm afraid...
to see you again
for fear that it would be
far too hard for me to accept
or far too hard for me to forget

i'm afraid...
to post this poem up
for fear that it would be
read by you come one day
and perceived by you in another way

i'm afraid...
that anything i do
may just make things worse