the first day of college

i was barely in college for 15 minutes when the entire lecture theatre went dark! i laughed! the first day of college and we've got ourselves a blackout. haha...it was a rather major hiccup. the entire ss15 was out apparently. but...sigh...the lights came back half an hour later. so the lesson resumed.

anyway, i take a daring step into college today and every single person who passes me by starts congratulating me upon "making the billboard". haha...they finally changed those 6 huge ass panels in front of college. i'm actually quite bashful about it now. it's not exactly the best picture of myself. i look constipated. and it's not exactly unnoticeable. it's HUGE!


before and after
on to other things, i think i shall give new year resolutions a miss this year. it's not like i ever achieve any. my resolutions were always to be less of a procrastinator, to work harder, to push my limits further, yadda yadda yadda...

but you know what? i think that's just me. last minute work is my forte. procrastination is a skill i seemed to have mastered. it's just how i am, and it works for me. i get satisfying results. so, why change something that works?

i'm not a strong believer of scheduled routines. i never made timetables coz i never stayed focus long enough to follow them. i'm very emotionally driven. i can't do things i don't feel like doing. so new year resolutions? i never saw them through. *shrugs*

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if only i can know for sure
that my thoughts are fixed on you
if only i can know for sure
that i am able to stay true

if only i can tell myself
that i have entirely moved on
if only i can tell myself
that those feelings are gone

if only i can show myself
that i will not dwell on the past
if only i can show myself
that my feelings for you will last

if only i can gather the courage
to leave the past behind
if only i can gather the courage
to have just you on my mind..