smses

yesterday i accidentally deleted one sms that had been stored in my sim for ages. i was clearing my inbox and i deleted it by mistake. i almost panicked. and then i thought...what for?

i have about 6 smses in my phone which i have had since....2002?? yea somewhere there. 4 are from someone very special. and eventhough those 4 smses bore bad news, i kept them because i could never bring myself to delete them. another 2 more was from a very close friend of mine. well, at least he was then. now we seem to have drifted apart. he sent those smses during his NS. i could never delete those as well coz they meant a lot...

so when i deleted one of the 4 by mistake i went into a panick state. moreover those 4 smses were continuous. and i deleted the last. i blinked, went to Delete All and pressed yes. i did it without a second thought.

there's no way i was going to have a second chance at being with him. and even if i did, i probably didn't want to. there were too much of a difference between us.

and as it is, i was no longer close to the other friend. even now, when we're in the same college. something changed.

i don't know if i hung on to those smses just for memory's sake or for hope. Hope that time will take a turn and things will go back to how it was then. but the more i thought, the more i realised that even if it did go back to the way it was, it would've still turned out this way.

What Ifs don't work. Things happened for a reason.