Sunday, July 06, 2008

when "coupla weeks more" turns into "coupla days more"

ok...i feel it now. the urgency to get everything i could possibly bring over in my 30 kg weight limit, that would ensure my survival in Kiwiland, to buy anything that would help me save my cost of living because it's 2.5 times cheaper here, to get all things sorted out over there from who's picking me up, to where i'm gonna live, and last but not least, the urgency to meet up, spend time with and cherish the people i'd be leaving behind.

it's not supposed to sound that sad. i am, without a doubt, thrilled and psyched to be embarking on this new chapter of my life. i have been waiting for this for a pretty long time, and it's all happening sooner than it seemed. but a nagging thought rests in the pits of my mind, a restless knowing that things aren't going to be the same right now. we promise to keep in touch, and we hug and bid our goodbyes with hopes that time would accelerate till the time we meet again, just so we can preserve whatever ties and relationship we have fostered. but how often does that happen?

i've started packing a few days ago. i need a bigger bag. my things are bursting out of the one i have now and it ain't because i'm a heavy traveller. i'd like to think i am actually able to live off the bare necessities. but the winter stuff just takes up too much space.

i've 4 days left before i fly off. i think i've managed to meet up with all the people who see me on a pretty regular basis, those who would actually feel my absence in their lives (che wah...hehe...). There are others whom i failed to squeeze them in, but they should be fine without me, since we don't meet up that often anyway.

Shirlyn's coming home! I miss that woman so much, i don't know if 2 days are enough for us to catch up!

And then there's Dennis. I'll miss the boy so much. If at any point in time i find myself curled up in my room on a cold cold day in Auckland willing time to just fast forward to December, my guess is it would be because of him.

And there's my family. It aches me to know that they've paid so much and I'm the one who's going to have all the fun. For them i'd wish to accelerate time to the year 2010. Convocation. I look forward to be able to repay my brother and my parents for this degree more than anything else in the world.

All these emotions are being mixed and blended in the depths of my stomach.

I think I feel an anxiety attack comin...

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wishing you all the best for your new degree.When you mention repaying your bro,looks like he is funding you in NZ too.Wah,you truly got a good bro' if that's the case.

Rahul

..melanie.. said...

because of him??! NOT BECAUSE OF ME MEH!? che wah...haha.

galnexdor said...

haha yea he's the best...:) thanks rahul!

hahah okok because of u tooo....seafood will never taste the same to me...

Obi-Kwan Kenobi said...

Karen, u might be worried now, thinking random thoughts bout the future.. but once ur there u might get to like it. (tho maybe food-wise, hav to start cooking on ur own but it's a good skill to learn anywayz :p)
Based on my experience, i've grown to like living in UK. So hopefully u will like it in NZ. (i've lived in NZ for 1.5 yrs when i was little, n it was gooooood :))
We can exchange notes on overseas living some time. Hehe, take care n dun be so worried la! ;-D

Tisha said...

Woman!!
Just don't have a panic attack or a sudden melt/breakdown!

All will be fine and you'll do swell..am going to save up to see you in KIWIland!!

kev said...

Wah paiseh kena puji, hehheh. Don't have to repay in cash, buy cool stuff for my children in the future can already... stuff that us stingy parents won't buy hahhah.

Take good care of yourself in NZ. Keep yourself active. If you are willing to spend, there are plenty of races in Auckland, including the half marathon in Lake Taupo, which is the venue of the Bonita Ironman.

galnexdor said...

ahhaha thanks all...

kwc: yupyup i will definitely grow to love NZ i reckon. thanks for sharing your opinions. are u back in malaysia by any chance?

tisha: hey hey! ahah thanks darlin...i'll email everyone my address as soon as i get it...=)

kor: yup...i have a marathon to train for...so i'll be running for sure...nah wont race la...not as fun racing when i dont know anyone.

valeriechuan said...

2 yrs will just fly pass..for all you know you're done with a 2nd degree just like that..hehe.. ;-)

yeah la dont be silly think so much!..adui...2 yrs only..mine 6yrs ar...:P

at times i miss msian food so much..come home eat eat eat get fat..Haha..:P

see ya tmr..

galnexdor said...

3 yrs...ahaha...yupyup...

Obi-Kwan Kenobi said...

Nah, not back to Msia yet. Still in Cov, UK. Maybe back in Sept. Not for certain yet. :-/