forever love

tell me. how many of you grew up to the immortal Disney Princess classics. How many of you wept your eyes out when Sleeping Beauty pricked her finger on that spindle? How many of you swooned at the sight of Cinderella's Prince Charming? How many of you hissed and spat at the evil queen in Snow White? How many of you drooled over the streetwise, acrobatic, strong, muscular Aladdin? (i know i definitely did) and how many of you sighed and shed tears of happiness watching the princes and princesses kissing each other in the end that you remained planted in that glossy eyed position till the credits rolled over to the end?

this may not apply for to the guys, but i know that both the guys and girls at one point believed in true, everlasting love once in their lives. guys, it's ok to admit it. we know you did once. i know this topic has been discussed time and time again in chic zines, the Sunday times, radio programs and late night TV shows. its been spat at, criticized, bitched about, glorified, condemned, crucified, appreciated and literally vommited out in so many blogs countless of times. i, myself, have gone down that dark and stormy path of utter and pure true love condemnation once or twice. yet, here i am again, rambling on again about this insanely subjective and abstract topic.

reason being this:



i got this when someone paid me some cash the other day. i was quite taken by it. first, it was the familiarity of the concept of it which was copied from the movie Serendipity which happens to be my favourite movie. second, it was the utter coolness of the fact that someone tried it out. third, it's the amazing historical element of it for it was dated 4.4.03. and finally, it was the pang of sadness that came with wanting to do something like that too.

my immediate response was to wonder if "CT & Adeq" were still together. i mean, they did write "forever in love". what if they've broken up? and it did go back to one of their hands? how would they feel? would all their feelings start rushing back? would they start believing in fate and faith and start running back to each other?

something to think about? definitely. but since we're at this topic, let's not sleep on it. let's talk. are there still believers of fated love? do the words "soulmate" and "meant to be" exist for real? do people still believe that there's a special someone for everyone in this world?

i know i believed in that for a pretty long time. i grew up believing in fairytales. i wanted so much to have a fairytale happen to me too - to be able to light up when i tell people my story of how i met him and how we fell in love. i believed that God had arranged for everyone to have a special someone. i believed that you cannot grow to love someone, unless he/she was meant to be with you.

that's meeting true love. then there's forever love. i believed that there are still people out there who are loyal beyond this world. i believed that there are still people who will take all sorts of shit from you and still love you for everything. i believed that absence makes the heart grow fonder. i believed that marriages are permanent and they last forever.

i believed in a whole lotta crap. and there's testimony to it. the Hollywood celebrities are the perfect examples. gone is the vow "to have and to hold till death do us part". then again, actors and artistes are lousy references.

maybe fairytales do happen to people. as long as there is true love in this world, i think fairytales do happen to the people who love with all their heart. and they can meet through a dating service, or an ad in the papers or even a dumb reality show. they can be introduced at parties or found on Friendster. the channel does not really matter does it? what's really important is the journey that begins after they fall in love. the happy times they enjoy together and the rough times they pull through together.

i saw this episode of Everybody Loves Raymond the other night. Robert and his wife, Amy threw a celebration for their 3 month wedding anniversary. and they were all lovey dovey and mushy gooey that it made Ray and Deb sick. and when the brothers and their wives start lashing at each other about "the married life", Frank and Marie steps in and says what the true meaning of a marriage is. to accept each individual entirely and to stick with each other no matter what.

acceptance. i think that's the biggest issue of love. or at least, i think it's the main issue that i have to learn. when people tell me i'm pick, they ain't kidding. i am. i have such high standards and criteria and the slightest flaw in a person will change my mind immediately. and i keep telling myself, if it was meant to be, then it'll be.

but i've said it once. cupid may strike the arrows, but at the end of the day, it still takes a sensible amount of courage and a good pick up line to get things started. and somebody has to do it.

i may have summed up a lot of things today and drawn a lot of conclusions. but i still won't know for sure until i find my true love. i'm still looking. but i wont hurry. i've got a long way ahead. and i'll keep my options open. :)

and as for CT and Adeq, i hope they're still together. i'm gonna spend that note tomorrow. and i hope it lands back in their hands. who knows, maybe they'll read this post of mine and suddenly see a spark of hope. :)