I was looking forward to a good payday this morning. I woke up with a smile, thinking I could get a sum of RM520 (not as much as some of you, i know, but it was good enough of me) from my boss. Was so eager to get myself a new handphone since mine has been playing all sorts of tricks, making me read with half the screen, or an upside down screen, or a screen with lines n all. Then when i reached work, i started calculating my number of hours based on the log book and much to my disappointment, i got only RM200 odd. I was like what!?!?! somehow my mental maths must've gone down the drain, and my calculator skills must've gone down with it. One of the figures is wrong. I just hope that it's the smaller amount. Thanks to that, I lost my motivation to work a full 8 hours today, and decided to flee at 2 with Julie to attend the dumb karate meeting, which got me into more tangles.
I now have to pay:
membership fee : $10
annual fee: $10
monthly fee: $10
I can't believe this. Not only that, Brown 1's have to go through interviews before they can proceed to black (and i thought i could motivate myself to join karate again with the black belt in sight). Plus, if i miss a meeting 3 times in a row, my membership will be terminated! To re-enter the BB Club i need to produce an official letter! I don't quite like this new formal, official, systematic committee thing. I was much mroe willing to offer my assistance for free last time, without having obligations to go for classes. Sigh...
Went back home after meeting. The miscalculated pay was bugging me to the bone so I whipped out my GC (graphics calculator) and started punching in numbers again. I went day by day with the calender. Hour by hour i calculated and finally came up to about RM420 odd. A HUGE relief on my part! ahahha now i can still get that new handphone without having to spend much of my own or my parents' money. What puzzled me though is how i can miscalculate such simple maths! i really must be getting rusty. My brains are probably 75% mush.
well, i met the Tumble Tot today. The one whose mum was killed by the Tsunami. I felt like crying for her. Young 2 year old with not a care in the world. I wonder if she knows anything. The poor dad must be devastated. Sigh....
Monday, January 31, 2005
Saturday, January 29, 2005
* aching arms *
I am suffering from post-fitness-first-symptoms. My arms feel like 2 boulders attached to my body. Slept in till noon today! haha...half my day wasted...then again, not like there's much to do around my home. (when i told my mum this just now she suggested painting the wall outside and decorating the house which i'm far too lazy or incapable of doing). Watched Troy but realised i was dozing off halfway through the movie. Brad Pitt's hot in the movie though. =)
Work was...i don't know....different. The first hour we had zero kids. So i spent the time updating lists and whatnots (admin stuff). While doing so, i was...shall we say...enlightened by some of the staff's secrets. I would say gossips...about the internal meetings the permanent staff hold every once in a while. Was enjoying it till it touched some pretty sensitive issues. Not that it concerned me...but rather people that I know. Feels sad to know such things. Hearing all those things had put me in a very difficult, controversial position. Now what am I to do? I no longer feel that happy working there. Feel like getting it off my chest, but yet i'm afraid it might lead to even more complicated issues...issues which endangers friendship and things like that. Sigh...politics suck...
anyway, after that went to pick Lyn up. Saw Eugin, Yannee, Sin Yee, Ying Yi and Mei Tien i think. Yea...nice to see all of 'em. We went to pay Mrs Khaw a visit. I totally forgot that my infamous toe story would still be an issue there. The moment i stepped into Holiday Villa Badminton Court, the story started all over again. Then i had a group of gymnasts hovering over my toe! haha Shu Fei even snapped a pic of it. owell...Kai Lynn n Ling Si still standing strong...haha such dedication....=)
After that drove home...was supposed to meet Fang n Jin Aun outside my house. We were caught in a police road block somewhere in front of Siah Brothers building, and i was starting to worry about the 2 guys. Thought maybe i was keeping them waiting. Little did i know, dearest Pn Yeo played a good spontaneous host! ahahha....Owell, we went to kei Tak Sek in SS2 to eat Tong Sui. hehe not bad la actually the food there....I finally tried the SS2 Tong Sui that had been much spoken of.
And that was it...my friday. Now i should go to sleep...if i'm caught yawning n all tmr...i may be the one being gossiped about next. Tmr's a full day work! starting to get real tired of it...but oh well, only say that when i'm done working. When the kids come, i could squeeze them to shreds! ahhaha....
Work was...i don't know....different. The first hour we had zero kids. So i spent the time updating lists and whatnots (admin stuff). While doing so, i was...shall we say...enlightened by some of the staff's secrets. I would say gossips...about the internal meetings the permanent staff hold every once in a while. Was enjoying it till it touched some pretty sensitive issues. Not that it concerned me...but rather people that I know. Feels sad to know such things. Hearing all those things had put me in a very difficult, controversial position. Now what am I to do? I no longer feel that happy working there. Feel like getting it off my chest, but yet i'm afraid it might lead to even more complicated issues...issues which endangers friendship and things like that. Sigh...politics suck...
anyway, after that went to pick Lyn up. Saw Eugin, Yannee, Sin Yee, Ying Yi and Mei Tien i think. Yea...nice to see all of 'em. We went to pay Mrs Khaw a visit. I totally forgot that my infamous toe story would still be an issue there. The moment i stepped into Holiday Villa Badminton Court, the story started all over again. Then i had a group of gymnasts hovering over my toe! haha Shu Fei even snapped a pic of it. owell...Kai Lynn n Ling Si still standing strong...haha such dedication....=)
After that drove home...was supposed to meet Fang n Jin Aun outside my house. We were caught in a police road block somewhere in front of Siah Brothers building, and i was starting to worry about the 2 guys. Thought maybe i was keeping them waiting. Little did i know, dearest Pn Yeo played a good spontaneous host! ahahha....Owell, we went to kei Tak Sek in SS2 to eat Tong Sui. hehe not bad la actually the food there....I finally tried the SS2 Tong Sui that had been much spoken of.
And that was it...my friday. Now i should go to sleep...if i'm caught yawning n all tmr...i may be the one being gossiped about next. Tmr's a full day work! starting to get real tired of it...but oh well, only say that when i'm done working. When the kids come, i could squeeze them to shreds! ahhaha....
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
[ breaking one's heart ]
then later, utter the words i want out
knowing very well they couldn't last
with someone they know nothing about
why do people give out signs
then later, take them back
they lead innocent others on
then toss them aside like a sack
why do people say out words
then later, forget every single thing
knowing very well they never meant it
everything that escapes the lips were worth nothing
why do people create memories
go through such moments with a laugh or a cry
only to end it all with their backs
trying to erase them all with one goodbye
why do people foster such warmth
everytime they touch or hold
only to turn around in the end
leaving others out in the cold
why do people make up lies
as if ending it isn't bad enough
why do people create excuses
asuming every lover is that tough
why do people fail to think twice
before moving on so bold
why do heart breakers have hearts of ice
while the heart brokens' are left with a hole
Monday, January 24, 2005
[ little white lie ]
Something really hilarious happened today. My tummy still has stitches from my roaring laughter that all started from a little white lie.
You guys remember my infamous toe? Well, on Thursday night i had the nail extracted. (Haha don't worry it wasn't as painful as it sounds, thanks to local anaesthetic).
It looks quite disgusting now, so see only if you dare...=) It scared the living daylights out of Ju. hehe....
So, back to my story. I had it wrapped up in a bandage which covered the entire toe. So that night my little cousins, Charmaine, Chadric and Charlene came over to my house. Charmaine was curious about my toe, since she saw it in the morning and I told her that I was going to see a doctor later. So when she asked to look at it, my dad told her that my whole toe had been amputated!!! haha, knowing a child's mind, she believed it, much to her horror. Guess we kinda underestimated the impact on lil Charmaine when we told her so.
Today, the little girl had gim class. She goes to the same coach that i was formerly under. That lil girl went and told my coach "karen jiejie's whole toe got chopped off!". My coach was obviously, not going to buy it. Though, she did have a look at my blue toe earlier this week so she guessed that it could be true. She tried re-confirming with Charmaine's mum, which was a bit oblivious to my whole toe incident which reaffirms her believe to Charmaine's story. Not only that, my dear little cousin (with Mrs Khaw's help no doubt) told everyone present there at Holiday Villa Badminton Court and lead a team of mothers to Mrs Khaw's wall of fame (it's actually a wall with loads of international gymnasts' pics, but Mrs Khaw was nice enough to slip in my group's picture as though we were a part of it all) and practically showed off her brave cousin, Karen's picture who allegedly now has only 9 toes! There were plenty of omgs and aiyos coming from them, knowing how they usually react with their herd mentality.
So, a concerned Mrs Khaw started ringing me up to see if it was true. Unfortunately, I was away at Pacesetters at that time, so she couldn't get me. She thought I was hospitalised! Then, almost desperate, she called up Shirlyn, which was working at that moment too, thus unable to answer her phone. Mrs Khaw thought "she must be visiting Karen". =)
Finally, at about 10-ish at night, my handphone rang and Mrs Khaw was on the line. She sounded very worried as she started off with "karen, are you ok!?!? How's your foot?" By then, I already knew half the story since, my uncle (Charmaine's dad) came and told me all about it. So i laughed my head off explaining to her how it all happened, and that I am 100% fine with exactly 10 toes, nothing more nothing less. She told me everything else mentioned above and seriously, I laughed so hard everyone was staring at me! I was in Asia Cafe having supper with my family. I'm still on the verge of laughing right now, recalling the whole incident in my mind. But I guess that's not the best idea since it's late and everyone's asleep. *giggles*
Yup...lesson of the day: white lies spread! Especially when little curious inquisitive children are concerned. hehe...
tmr's my off day! Gonna go sign up for Metropolitan! No backing out now! =)
You guys remember my infamous toe? Well, on Thursday night i had the nail extracted. (Haha don't worry it wasn't as painful as it sounds, thanks to local anaesthetic).
It looks quite disgusting now, so see only if you dare...=) It scared the living daylights out of Ju. hehe....
So, back to my story. I had it wrapped up in a bandage which covered the entire toe. So that night my little cousins, Charmaine, Chadric and Charlene came over to my house. Charmaine was curious about my toe, since she saw it in the morning and I told her that I was going to see a doctor later. So when she asked to look at it, my dad told her that my whole toe had been amputated!!! haha, knowing a child's mind, she believed it, much to her horror. Guess we kinda underestimated the impact on lil Charmaine when we told her so.
Today, the little girl had gim class. She goes to the same coach that i was formerly under. That lil girl went and told my coach "karen jiejie's whole toe got chopped off!". My coach was obviously, not going to buy it. Though, she did have a look at my blue toe earlier this week so she guessed that it could be true. She tried re-confirming with Charmaine's mum, which was a bit oblivious to my whole toe incident which reaffirms her believe to Charmaine's story. Not only that, my dear little cousin (with Mrs Khaw's help no doubt) told everyone present there at Holiday Villa Badminton Court and lead a team of mothers to Mrs Khaw's wall of fame (it's actually a wall with loads of international gymnasts' pics, but Mrs Khaw was nice enough to slip in my group's picture as though we were a part of it all) and practically showed off her brave cousin, Karen's picture who allegedly now has only 9 toes! There were plenty of omgs and aiyos coming from them, knowing how they usually react with their herd mentality.
So, a concerned Mrs Khaw started ringing me up to see if it was true. Unfortunately, I was away at Pacesetters at that time, so she couldn't get me. She thought I was hospitalised! Then, almost desperate, she called up Shirlyn, which was working at that moment too, thus unable to answer her phone. Mrs Khaw thought "she must be visiting Karen". =)
Finally, at about 10-ish at night, my handphone rang and Mrs Khaw was on the line. She sounded very worried as she started off with "karen, are you ok!?!? How's your foot?" By then, I already knew half the story since, my uncle (Charmaine's dad) came and told me all about it. So i laughed my head off explaining to her how it all happened, and that I am 100% fine with exactly 10 toes, nothing more nothing less. She told me everything else mentioned above and seriously, I laughed so hard everyone was staring at me! I was in Asia Cafe having supper with my family. I'm still on the verge of laughing right now, recalling the whole incident in my mind. But I guess that's not the best idea since it's late and everyone's asleep. *giggles*
Yup...lesson of the day: white lies spread! Especially when little curious inquisitive children are concerned. hehe...
tmr's my off day! Gonna go sign up for Metropolitan! No backing out now! =)
Saturday, January 22, 2005
* this one's for the girls *
Was in Klang just now celebrating 5 birthdays of the January babies in my family tree. Was pretty cool. Took loads of pics actually...far too lazy to post them though. Doubt u guys are interested...but for the ke-po-chis out there...hesitate not...[more pics]
Heard this song on the radio today. Yet another nice meaningful song to add to my list of fav's. =)
Martina McBride - This One's for the Girls
This is for all you girls, about thirteen.
High School can be so rough; can be so mean.
Hold onto, onto your innocence.
Stand your ground, when everybody's givin' in.
This one's for the girls.
This is for all you girls, about twenty-five.
In little apartments just tryin' to get by.
Livin' on, on dreams and Spaghettios.
Wonderin' where your life is gonna go.
This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world,
This one's for the girls.(This one's for all the girls.)
This is for all you girls, about forty-two.
Tossin' pennies into the fountain of youth.
Every laugh, laugh line on your face,
Made you who you are today.
This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world:
This one's for the girls.
Yeah, we're all the same inside (Same inside.)
From one to ninety-nine:
This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world, yeah,
This one's for the girls.(This one's for all the girls.)
Yeah, this one's for the girls.(This one's for all the girls.)
nice song yea?? just realised i didn't write a single poem all week...sigh...will write one tmr la...i need to sleep...tmr full day work...niteee.....
Thursday, January 20, 2005
* too good to be true *
I think the Carlsberg Ad...the one that did the song Can't Take My Eyes Off of You with the bottles and all was really cool. Was it Carlsberg? Or something else? Well that song is cool. It's like everybody's repertoire. Everyone knows it. Everyone will sing to it should it be aired. Everyone loves it. Best sung at the end of a karaoke session too...like the cherry that tops it. =)
The title makes me think though. Too good to be true. Reflects on how I've been creating impressions as i meet people along the way. Was talking to a friend just now...someone who has been going through a bit of a emotional turmoil. We were hitting issues like feeling lost, like there's no place to fit in, considering the fact that he's oh so actively involved in so many things. People will naturally assume he's got loads of friends, a large network of them. Then it struck me. I totally get him. I'm into loads of stuff too. I have about 6 groups of friends, which i can hang out with respectively. This does not include the other mini groups which i occasionally get invited into for parties and whatnots. I guess, having so many different commitments gain you aquaintences not friends. You expand your network, yet you narrow your shoulders to cry on.
Sometimes i wish i've got a best friend...a buddy...that would be into everything i'm into. That way, no matter which group of friends i'm out with, i always have that one person to get me all the time.
I'm moving off topic. Too good to be true. I tend to size up people. Think that explains why I'm single till now. It's not that i don't allow myself to be close to any guy. I do. But the moment, I find something I don't like, even if it's just a tad disturbing, I immediately close up. It's like I want him to be so perfect...so right. I want him to totally meet my every need and all that. Why? I don't know. But I can't quite say I'm sorry. I have standards...pride. And honestly, I don't think my requirements are that demanding. It's just that people like that don't exist anymore. Someone kind...someone nice...someone simple. Someone that knows how to live life, yet has a focus. Someone that laughs at silly things. Someone that doesn't believe in flowers and chocolates but rather, a song dedication or a poem. Most of all, someone who has a heart not only for me, but also for others.
Most people now has such attributes that seem to impress kings and queens. They strive so hard to achieve excellence, they condescend mediocrity. They just have everything that it's just far too perfect. What's the use? They all have alterior motives in the end. Sincerity no longer glows. It's getting fainter in today's society.
I'm blabbering on and on...with one thing totally not in relation with the other. This is what I call, an emotion overflow. One should not think so much. Thy shall go to sleep.
p/s: I'm meeting Aidan tmr!!
The title makes me think though. Too good to be true. Reflects on how I've been creating impressions as i meet people along the way. Was talking to a friend just now...someone who has been going through a bit of a emotional turmoil. We were hitting issues like feeling lost, like there's no place to fit in, considering the fact that he's oh so actively involved in so many things. People will naturally assume he's got loads of friends, a large network of them. Then it struck me. I totally get him. I'm into loads of stuff too. I have about 6 groups of friends, which i can hang out with respectively. This does not include the other mini groups which i occasionally get invited into for parties and whatnots. I guess, having so many different commitments gain you aquaintences not friends. You expand your network, yet you narrow your shoulders to cry on.
Sometimes i wish i've got a best friend...a buddy...that would be into everything i'm into. That way, no matter which group of friends i'm out with, i always have that one person to get me all the time.
I'm moving off topic. Too good to be true. I tend to size up people. Think that explains why I'm single till now. It's not that i don't allow myself to be close to any guy. I do. But the moment, I find something I don't like, even if it's just a tad disturbing, I immediately close up. It's like I want him to be so perfect...so right. I want him to totally meet my every need and all that. Why? I don't know. But I can't quite say I'm sorry. I have standards...pride. And honestly, I don't think my requirements are that demanding. It's just that people like that don't exist anymore. Someone kind...someone nice...someone simple. Someone that knows how to live life, yet has a focus. Someone that laughs at silly things. Someone that doesn't believe in flowers and chocolates but rather, a song dedication or a poem. Most of all, someone who has a heart not only for me, but also for others.
Most people now has such attributes that seem to impress kings and queens. They strive so hard to achieve excellence, they condescend mediocrity. They just have everything that it's just far too perfect. What's the use? They all have alterior motives in the end. Sincerity no longer glows. It's getting fainter in today's society.
I'm blabbering on and on...with one thing totally not in relation with the other. This is what I call, an emotion overflow. One should not think so much. Thy shall go to sleep.
p/s: I'm meeting Aidan tmr!!
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