drift away...

I'm listening to uncle kracker now...drift away....soothing song...reminds me of something....=)

When i drift away...

I go back in time again
We were like close friends
There wasn't any pain
Just curiosity then

When i drift away....

I recall the moments
You told me about her
All your lil' problems
And i just played the listenner

When i drift away...

I kept in everything
All the yearning and longing
The questions i started wondering
The hope i started losing

When i drift away....

Of course I start to think
When all hope can to an end
My heart started to sink
You said we should jus stay friends

When i drift away...

I think of how we're still friends
And I'm much happier this way
I realised things just blend
So much better than yesterday

When i drift away...

I feel grateful it's like this
I took the right step, so did he
I will always be a friend of his
And he'll always have a friend in me

Sick came to pai nien

Han Yang must've recommended his friend Sick to come n pai nien in my house. I must say it's really annoying...but oh well, it's my excuse not to do my hw! =)

I guess there's some things
That time can't exactly heal
And there's other things
That actually keeps time still

Certain things just sticks to you
As though you're meant to go through it
And as painful as the memories were to you
They're the things you just can't get rid

Eventhough i liked him before
Eventhough i have tried my best
Eventhough he made my heart sore
I just couldn't seem to forget the rest

The times where we did have fun
The times where you were everything
The times I thought you were The One
Even the times i was left with nothing

Sad or painful the times i went through
I held it close to me somehow
I had hoped to get over you
But that seems impossible now...

Year of da MoNk3y

It's great to enjoy the festive season
With family and friends as a reason
Had fun playing ear damaging fireworks
And collecting ang pows definitely has its perks

But away from home brings another meaning
It's when i allow myself to start daydreaming
Away from the bustling city life in Subang
There's nothing to distract me in Raub, Pahang

Obviously someone would pop into my head
And the first person that my heart would relate
Wasn't at all who i had expected
And to a certain extend, not who i wanted

I can't believe I'm thinking of him again
I guess my feelings for him partly remained
And what better time for it to resurface
Then each time i manage to spot his face

I guess i never let go of what seemed to be
The one guy that was right for me
Somehow deep down i refused to erase
Him from my life, leaving no trace

I'm afraid it's starting all over again
Knowing very well that it could drive me insane
You just don't find "the one" everyday
Even if you do, often it doesn't go you way...

Something has changed
I realised today
Things got rearranged
And i don't quite like it this way

Something is different
About how things are
Changes took place sometime recent
I didn't notice it so far

Something is wrong
I can sense it from today
I somehow didn't feel like i belong
I felt estranged in a cerrtain way

Something needs to be done
It needs to be corrected quickly
I know something has just begun
And I think it is changing me

I kept wondering about what Ju said. Do i really hate that many people now? i dun think so. The people i dun like now were the same ppl i didn't like back then. For the simple reason that they're all annoying and they smoke and they drink and get drunk. Oh and accesive cursing too. Then how come I took it to heart when pj started saying that i often refuse to go out? Have i really changed?

Messenger gurl

It's not that i do not like helping my friends to increase their circle of friends. I just get kinda annoyed when they see me as the messenger gurl. Call me sad, but i feel like my life revolves around helping ppl find their soul mates!

Every morning when i reach college
She greets me with a smile
But even when she asks about me
She's thinking of you all the while

Every day i come in with you
But the only person she sees
Is you coming into college
And I seemed to have siezed to exist

As though one wasn't enough
Suddenly he messaged me
Someone i don't even know
Wants to meet Elaine desperately

The number of questions he asked
Had drained RM1.60 from my credit
I'm not surprised by this at all
But frankly speaking, i've had it!

Ok...i dunno how to continue adi. Guess i should jus say it in layman words. i'm not really as angry as i sound la. Just a bit bugged by the fact that i'm this link to the hot guy and the chun chic for others. haha...maybe i'm jealous...but not coz of him la...jus coz i dun get ppl hu want to know ME desperately...so sue me....

I questioned myself again today
If I really want to make this decision
I looked at you from a distance
And left myself in confusion

There's definitely a solid reason
Why i'm so afraid to make a move
But to say it out and make it clear
Is something i cannot prove

Today i realised something though
To my disappointment
I found out that i'll never
Be able to give my commitment

It's simply because there's something
About you that just isn't right
It's all in the character I'm sure
But what it is i can't decide

All i can say is, i like u a lot
But only as a friend i'd say
I have tried, really i have
But i just can't like you that way

Somehow i'm not comfortable
When it comes to being with u
Somehow I can't relax at all
When i start to talk to you

You're seriously a great friend
And i'll never give that away
The friendship we have is great
I sincerely wish it'll stay

It's my fault entirely
I fell for the charm, the looks
I fell for the flowers and gifts
These were what got me hooked

But when it comes to security
When it comes to a shoulder to cry on
When i seek a comforting word
It's not u I depend on

I have no idea how i am
Going to apologize to u
I can only hope that eventually
You'll forget me too...