While ignorance is bliss

Getting to know him a little more
I realised suddenly
Someone who falls easily just with words
And that someone is me

I'd never thought i'd be so foolish
I'd never thought i'd be so blind
I realise I'm falling deeper everyday
Every moment he clouds up my mind

I realised I know nothing at all
No proof that he is sincere
But yet i believe him day by day
And he is there while i am here

Come to think about it
Him being so far away
I'd never guess if he treats all girls
In exactly the same way

But whatever i say up till now
What i'd still really want
Is that he speaks the truth
Ever since the story begun

Because what i've always believed in
Is that fate will help me decide
If he was meant to find me now
Then, with fate, he would be by my side

I'll let things be, let time play it's role
For whatever comes I'm willing to pay the price
Coz while ignorance is bliss
it is folly to be wise....

Seem like a change in perception? haha a bit la...read a few of his testimonials saying he's like always surrounded with girls....sum kinda playboy n all. so i dunno...i'll let fate decide. Dun wanna poke my nose around trying to find out mroe abt him...coz it seems to more i find out, the more i see the uglier side of him...which may not even be true. Then again, HIS words may not even be true. But of which is the TRUTH, i can never tell. Therefore, i shall be ignorant...i shall let time tell....

Walking into the lion's lair

Taking a move I just don't dare
The confusion i have is beyond compare
Somehow something might be a scare
Maybe, again, a pain i cannot bear
I don't wish to relive the nightmare
Of liking someone who doesn't care
I feel like I'm walking into a lion's lair
Only to find you there,
Hopefully to offer me love and care....

By now, i'd say i know him slightly better. So far he seems sincere. And I find that we're having more n more things in common. Kinda think the same way in certain things as well. sigh...dunno what to think actually. I want very much to let things be...let time tell...but i'm kinda losing my focus a little. Everyday i wonder how things will end up...haha...gotta get my thinking straight.....common tests are coming again....=)

a poem a day...

A poem a day to bring me smiles
To make me feel all warm inside
A poem a day to bring me meaning
To bring my life a whole new light
A poem a day to show he cares
to let me know he's thinking of me
A poem a day to express sincerity
To show me words of honesty
A poem a day for no reason
Sent to me just because
A poem a day without any occasion
A perfect one...with no flaws...

What should i do, i pray
Tell me what should i say
What image does he portray
How do i refuse someone who sends me a poem a day?

too good to be true?

Today he asked if I trust him
Seriously, I don't know that myself
I don't think he'd lie about those things
Things that show about himself

Sure it sounds too good to be true
All his talents and character galore
How can he fit all my criterias
And yet add to them a lil more?

I guess i believe everything he claims
Everything except one thing
Whether or not his confessions are true
Or is it all about sweet talking

Whether he truly has the interest
Whether he really thinks he likes me
Whether or not he is sincere enough
That he doesn't treat every girl similarly

How about on my part?
Do I really want to commit?
Am I really ready to move on?
Should my heart just open up a bit?

=) yea...he asked if i trust him....think i dunno myself. But i want to trust him...i really do....even if everything seems too good to be true. I'm not used to someone telling me almost everyday that he is interested in me. But that's what's going on right now. haha...yea i think i will meet him. What's the worst that could happen? or should i say, what's the best?=)

so, it starts...

hahah....one day i'll tell u guys the whole story la...but till then...feel free to read it in fragments through my poems...=)

I don't know when or how
I don't even know exactly why
All i know is that I've allowed
Myself to give this person a try

He seems sincere enough for now
Though his past relationship history's a mess
The things he does are like...wow
I'm attracted to that for now i guess

He plays the piano seriously
He's also a taekwondo master
He sings...that really caught me
Not forgetting an outdoor lover

He says he's into poetry
And he's gonna send me one daily
He seems too good to be true to me
But he IS really true from what i see

I've been messaging him all day
Used up a great portion of my credit
But there's just so much that we have to say
That it was so hard to end it

I sound like i'm head over heels for this guy
I admit that I'm liking him more and more
But think about it, I can't tell if everything's a lie
Not to mention i saw him 3 years before

He has asked for a chance already
I'm so his type, he says
But to accept him is crazy!
I've only known him for 7 days!

So now I'll just get to know him better
And he promised to do that too
We'll see how things go in future
And then we'll know what to do...

haha...dun gape at this ok? It's true...this guy is multitalented! I couldn't fit in that he was a debater and former Vice President of Leo as well. These i got from his friends' testimonials in friendster so it has to be true. And yea he asked me for a chance...as in not like bf/gf already ler...jus a chance to know each other better n all. No doubt he hopes we could be more than friends in future. God! i seriously dunno how it all started! Do you think i should meet up with him??

I seem to have found another...

I seem to have found another
Though I'm not sure if it's appropriate
For me to call him a suiter
At such an early stage

I find him rather interesting
Conversations easily strike up
Plus when I'm down there'll be something
He does to cheer me up

He's kinda always there
Early in the morning or late at night
It's hard trying not to care
When his name is always in sight

What's worse is that I cannot lie
I've gotten used to receiving his messages
And the time he takes to reply
Surprisingly seems like ages

Though i'm not a big fan of sweet talking
I'm afraid i'm attracted to his words
I somehow find it very worrying
That to his every message, I will look forward

We've only started talking for about a week
Though technically i knew him since form 3
But up till now, he turns me a little weak
The moment he says something about me

I have not fallen for him, not today
I can barely recall his face
But i'm quite relieved to say
That it is the end of the old phase

This is all too scary...i never thought this would happen to me. i met him 3 years ago, exchanged like 5 words (at least that's what I recall, he claims we had a whole conversation), and forgot about him the moment i left the camp. He however has been searching for me since then, till now?! But it's kinda exciting anyhow. And like i said, it's a huge relief that i'm no longer hurting for someone who doesn't feel the same way. It was cool while it lasted...but now things got a little cooler...=)