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"I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman."

-Anais Nin-

huh.

Of vampires and sex in the city

I realised that I actually have a solitary side to me. I always say I hate being alone. But perhaps it is due to the lack of social activity, or the lack of willingness to spend money, I find that I recoil into an antisocial loner sometimes. And when I am out, I want nothing more than to sit in my room, in front of my laptop, and surf Facebook, or watch videos, or plan potential holiday trips. Perhaps this is escapism, my way of dealing with my homesickness. Perhaps.

But anyway, I watched a movie alone that day. In my room. I watched Twilight. Yes, now only I watch. I wanted to know what all the craze was about, I remember going home last summer and Rosie raving on and on about the lengchai vampire. And Keith going "Omg...what is it with you girls and Twilight?". So I had wanted to watch it with my own lengchai boyfriend, but as always, we never get around to doing the things I plan to do.

Here's my two cents. I think it is cheesy. I don't think Robert Pattinson or what's-his-face is at all good looking, I think I really despise fair guys. I think the girl is really gorgeous though, and I think a century old vampire dating a school girl is kinda paedophilic, but cool in the sense that they get to fly through the trees. I'd give anything to be flown through the trees. =) And though I think it was a long shot at a romantic tale, I couldn't help but feel emotional when he kissed her neck at the prom. Good entertainment though.

I also spent lazy free afternoons reading a storybook. It was called Last Chance Saloon by Marian Keyes. Think Sex and the City. With a gay man amidst the 3 best friends. I thought it was an enjoyable, light hearted novel. I can now understand how some people, mostly girls, can read something and start to reflect on their own lives. It definitely got me thinking about what I want out of life, out of my relationship. It also made me realise that true love really is rare to come by. But we learn to love the next best thing, we learn to fall deeply in love after a while.

I love reading the books, in my own sweet time, but at times reading about love really makes me wish I can end the day in the arms of the boy. And that's when I start wishing for June to come earlier.

How did I become such a sop, I wonder.

And man, I really need to get this lab report done.

i miss you

I miss how we'd walk together at night
I miss how you used to just show up outside
And we'd just hang out by the front porch
Chatting, laughing, sitting, leaning, side by side

I miss how you'd listen to my stories
I miss how you actually liked them once
And you'd laugh at my jokes, and smile at my face
Making funny expressions with a sideways glance

I miss how you'd come down to walk me to my gate
I miss the call you made, as you drove away
Stealing a kiss, telling me you loved me
Made me wish it'd never end if I had it my way

I miss just being with you
Feeling like nothing else in the world matters
Feeling like I matter to you
Feeling like we matter

imissuheaps.

Yusssss!

So it was by chance that I decided to casually surf into the uni website. Just checking around to see if someone tried to burn that building down yet. heh. No such luck though. But then something caught my eye in the nDeva site. Semester One 2010 examination timetable is out!!!

so with my fingers crossed, and my heart rate racing, I clicked on my exam schedule, and guess what?
My last paper ends on the 23rd of June! I am so so so psyched to say the least! This means the world to me! I was originally booked to go home on the 28th of June. Now I can go home 5 days earlier!

Already my head started planning - change my flight, register for KL marathon, tell everyone! So much so, that my dinner thereafter had me swallowing balls of rice, vegetables, bread, banana and water to dislodge a fishbone that got stuck in my throat. I spent an hour of agony, finally ending it by sticking my finger into the back of my mouth and nudging the bone out with my finger. Gag reflex. Pain. urghhh...

But anyhooosss...I've booked my flight out on the 23rd of June, flying out at 11.50 pm! I will be touching down in good ol' KL at about 9.30 am on 24th.

And..... I'm all registered for the KL Marathon 42km Women category for 27th of June! See you all there!!

Yussss....things are looking up!! =)

The Money-Happiness function

I don't like believing in the fact that the happier I want to be, the more money I need to spend. I am in a vast vast land, brimming with opportunities of free, fun happiness.

But sad to say, because I am not of the solitary species, I almost cannot do anything without company. So in order to feed my soul with such wonderful adventures, I need to find people to accompany me. Problem is, not many people fancy just going for a walk for no reason. Rather, not many people I know here have the time.

So to fill the gaping hole that is my social life, and prevent Loneliness and Homesickness from penetrating my sense of self, I take what I can with invites to social get-togethers. They are, more often than not, the gastronomical kind. Which is perfectly fine by me. I love food. It's pretty much all I do back home in Subang anyway - eat.

Except that over here, eating out costs a little bit more. Even to have a drink is expensive. And I don't exactly earn a lot. Minus rent, I don't really have much left to enjoy if i wanted to put aside some money to pay for my flight home.

But to be sitting at home, with no plans but a date with The Big Bang Theory and 2 and a Half Men isn't really my idea of enjoyment. I didn't come here to do that. I came here to experience.

So, spend more money, find more happiness. Save more money, find less happiness.

How?

Well, 85 more days. =)

zoo

I went to the Auckland Zoo today! I've been wanting to go to the Zoo since i got to Auckland. But people keep telling me I won't see anything because it is always too cold. Well, today the weather was a perfect 20 degrees so I followed Erin & Simon (and lampposted) to the zoo.

It was...well, a zoo. Not great, but not bad either. But I'll tell you what I got to see...

a KIWIBIRD! unfortunately they had to be in a dark habitat because they're nocturnal (so they must wonder why it was nightfall all the time, will they ever get time to sleep?!?!?) so I couldn't really take good pictures. This picture is stolen from the web. But I finally saw an actual kiwibird! And they're really really cute! They're about the size of a chicken, so no, they're not that small. But i think it's coz they shuffle around on their 2 feet, with no forelimbs - so adorable! Haha!

I also got to see the usual animals. Oh and there was a black gibbon type monkey which had a bullfrog throat which made the most hilarious noises. It croaked like a bullfrog at first, and then it yelped like a dog! haha...so funny. and the more attention it got from the people, the more it yelled (for lack of knowledge of the term used to describe monkey noises).

I could've stayed there for an hour and still be amused. =)

Was a pretty good trip i guess. Quite alright for Good Friday in Sheep Land for Miss Siah. =)