* love luck *

Weng Lum says:
wei y u have no luck with ur admireres
galnexdor says:
huh?
Weng Lum says:
from ur blog
galnexdor says:
oh yea...
Weng Lum says:
yeap...
Weng Lum says:
u have no love luck
Weng Lum says:
u have to put a pig in ur love luck direction
Weng Lum says:
to enhance the flow of the chi
Weng Lum says:
maybe if u shine light there then it will give u fire energy
Weng Lum says:
the energy u need to spark a good realtionship
galnexdor says:
ahahha what!!?!?
Weng Lum says:
either that or go to the temple n get some blessings
galnexdor says:
ahahha i can't believe ure advising me on my love life luck
Weng Lum says:
ahahah
Weng Lum says:
as ur best guy friend whos not "that best guy friend" its painful to see such depressions in ur love life
Weng Lum says:
hahaha
galnexdor says:
ahahah aiyo...i'm not depressed
galnexdor says:
dun make me sound S.A.D.
Weng Lum says:
hahha
Weng Lum says:
does S.A.D stand for succesful admirers dysfunction
galnexdor says:
ahahah it stands for single available and desperate
Weng Lum says:
i like mine better
Weng Lum says:
lets keep it that way

That's it. 2005 resolution. Get myself a hunk with great abs and biceps, a roaring sense of humour, and a big heart to match. Like that's gonna happen. Am i really that SAD?? I believe not. Why do people think that way? Why do I always get "so where's your boyfriend?"? People should not assume.

Sigh...why am i getting all cranky?

Hey...i haven't rhymed in a while. Should i try? Nah...all that's gonna come out are baby rhymes right now. *sings "To-ny Chest-nut knows I love you...to-ny knows...to-ny knowsssss*. Oh wanna know what happened to me today? I was carrying this long heavy plank. One of the equipments for the kids to climb on and all. A kid ran into me, and ran away, causing the plank to slip from my fingers and fall right on my big toe. And now, to add to my collection of wounds and scars andf injuries, I have this:

it hurts real bad. It's throbbing. I kinda visualise it enlarging and contracting like how it does in cartoons. I feel it that way. But when i look at it, it's motionless. Only thing is the blue patch is getting blacker and wider by the hour. Sigh...will i ever train for Trailblazers??

[ f a k e ]

u know what i loathe most about people. People who are fake. People who say things to get what they want, people who sweet talk, people who make false claims. I just don't understand how narrow some people's conscience are!

down memory lane...my first erm...more than friend guy was a sweet talker. He even admits of being a cassanova wannabe. Sure he was sweet and all, there were other girls who digged his sense of romance in his words. But it gets a bit annoying when you know that he will never in a million years walk to heaven's gate to hear my voice. Face it. Life isn't that way. There are other ways to express feelings. I'm write poems, I should know. Instead of suicidal tendencies, I think a much more rasional yet sweet way of expressing it would be You light up my life which i think it's possible. That's what my 2nd more than friend guy did for me la. =)

remember that strange encounter? Apparently, he claims he has had a crush on me for...get this...8 years! That's pretty dumb if you ask me. I mean, i met him 8 years ago. We chat a while online that time and then I never saw him ever again! And recently, he calls and says he wants to meet up coz he likes me? Hello!??! What kinda crusher shows up 8 years later? kebodohan...i think it's just an excuse. It's so fake. Owell, even if he meant it I don't have any feelings for him. Afterall, I barely know the guy. So, it's a NO.

Then there's this other guy. The one who met me 3 years ago in OB? He still messages me. He met me 3 years ago. Claimed he could not forget me and has been searching for me since OB ended. Yea right. He wasn't even in my watch. All i said was "hey, you ok?". The guy looked like he was about to hurl! ANY tom, dick and harry would've asked that. Anyway, he apparently wants to see me before i leave for overseas education. Sigh. This is all my fault. I told you, I trust too easily. I make friends too easily. I fall too easily. Lucky for me (or shall i say unlucky) I fall out too easily as well. Sue me.

I went jogging today (and yesterday)! Feel so proud. Though my ankle's swelling up a little again. No pain, so no worries. =) I went to hand in the Trailblazers form. Most of the people there taking Wild. Keeran seems to be a little cautious though. Probably wants to test the waters first. I'm actually quite keen on taking Wild, but what Keeran said made sense too. Oh and i met Ellaine!! Been 62000 years since i last saw her! She looks good! haha so does everyone in the climbing gym. Argh, why can't i master rock climbing? I'd look like all the gurls there in no time! And the guys! ahah...ok let's no go there...hehe. She's into adventure racing now. Waay cool! All of a sudden, opportunities are flashing in front of my face and I'm thinking twice about going for it. How la...get a mountain bike now? And a kayak? maybe when I'm working for real and earn my own big bucks. Then I'll definitely go pro in adventure racing! =)

k...Kenneth Yee's nudging me again. Think I should get back to him. G'nite!

* b e a u t i f u l *

Updates about my injuries.
My arm is a whole lot better. No more pus coming out. Swelling gone down by about 90%. Basically don't feel anything anymore. =)
My ankle however has started swelling a little again. I think it's due to the jogging i did. Not gonna stop me though. =) Felt really good after my run just now. However, I can't sit cross-legged on hard floors. owell....=)

anyway, i got this just now. pretty cool. =)

It's BEAUTIFUL WOMAN MONTH & TAG YOU'RE IT!

Did you know that it's Beautiful Women Month? Well, it is and that means you and me !!! I'm supposed to send this to FIVE BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, and you are one of them !!!



Below is a wonderful poem Audrey Hepburn wrote when asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later.

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.


To all the beautiful women out there....you are who you think you are...not what others think of you...=)

* t e s t i m o n i a l s *

been using my korkor's laptop...it gets heated up and all and then the IE will start to crash...it's madness...couldn't blog for 2 nights. Actually could've easily blogged on my own pc but was lazy also i guess...a lot of hassle dismantling my bro's laptop and all. =)

anyway, i just wrote 2 testimonials in Friendster. it's funny how testimonials usually start with Full Name of recipient, followed by "Where do i begin?" or "How do I start?" or "What can i say about this person?". Notice how common these lines are? Like where's the originality ppl? haha...i shouldn't be complaining. I love testimonials. They have no choice but to flatter me! haha...nah...they can always bitch about me. As long as it's what they think. Love knowing what people think of me. It's like subtle reminders to tell you if you're on the right path of socializing. A wise man once said:
"When you hear something nice about someone, let him know"
I don't know where I read that but it's good advice, no? a praise or a good word of mouth does wonders to your ego. I mean just a word of Thanks can get you more help in the future. As long as you mean what you say.

Appreciation goes a long way. Ever gotten the mail "Pass it on"? It's about relaying a good deed. Not only does it make others feel good, it makes YOU feel good, no? And just by saying "You look great" actually changes someone's day. Really it does. Just mean it. It does the trick. That's one thing I love about Friendster. The one and ONLY thing actually. Apart from looking at pictures and updating myself about people's relationship status. hehe...

Testimonials are do-gooders, ego-boosters, smile-bringers. Besides, who on the face of this earth does not like being praised. By saying so, i mean not sweet talking. Just praised and complimented. Some find it as being a big fat phoney baloney. Some find the people who bask in the rays of flattery and praise, sluts and ego-maniacs. Once again it voices down to meaning it. If you ask me, if the flattery and praises are from the heart...then by all means...bask away! =) Sides, if it brightens up your day and changes your perspective on life, then bring it on! =)

To all my readers, check this out. I mean it, really. If it weren't for you guys, ~ galnexdor ~ is just another abandonned website. =)

*~*~*~* 2005 is here *~*~*~*

yay!!! it's the new year!!!

u noe...i'm usually not this psyched about new years. Usually i'd be more psyched about the company i'm with during the ushering of the new year rather than the occasion itself. think my happiest new year countdown was several years back where i, needless to say, was spellbound by someone. yup...and there was dancing, and singing and playing games! coolest house party i ever attended! haha what a fool i was then...

this year, 2005 marks my first year in uni. Thus, this new year, by all means, is D most meaningful new year. haha...but...what uni? haha i still haven't figured that one out. Might end up in TBS doing sport management. I happen to like UTS's syllabus more than any other uni. Curtin's subjects are too business like. We'll see how that goes...

Resolutionssss....what is a New Year without resolutions =). I've got a list rolling in my head right now and I see no end. Something tells me I'll only make at most 5 of it. =) Here goes:

1. Be good. (haha isn't this like the mother of all resolutions...)
2. Earn money. (hopefully Fitness First will call me soon and i can quit Tumble Tots. Not like i despise working there but built men are more to my liking than 5 year old cuties. haha nola...if i'm ever getting my dreams achieved this would be my first step of my journey of a thousand miles)
3. Save money. (yup...no buying new handphone till my Siemens is 100% un-usable)
4. Start a work out routine and stick to it. (If i'm ever gonna join A'sim on any of his adventure races i better start getting in shape! Same goes to cycling too!)
5. Join a full duathlon/triathlon. (Once again...start cycling!!)
6. Study to the best of my ability. (If i said study hard, it'll never come true)
7. Achieve the Silver level of Freestyle dance. (yea! i'm soo carrying on my dancing)
8. Keep those rhymes going! (no more excuses of dead poetic brain cells hehe)
9...

I can't think of any more right now. If i do I'll make a mental note of it. =) ok la...guess i should start by achieving resolution #8. Here's tonight's poem. Enjoy 2005 readers!


come this year of my life
i'd try my best to change my ways
i'll make sure i keep a cool temper
for i wouldn't wanna be a damper
spoiling other peoples' fun days

come this year of my life
i'd try my best to alter my personality
i'll keep my achievements on the low
speak only if asked to show
yet keep in sight my own humility

come this year of my life
i'd try my best to get rid of an old habit
i'll have myself more self discipline
make myself follow a planned routine
and tell myself there's nothing to it

come this year of my life
i'd try my best to think more highly
of the things that i am able to do
to know the person inside me that's true
come 2005, i'll learn to love me...


hey...that's another 4 more resolutions there...=)
Happy New Year everyone!

* strange encounter *

I think I should be more careful of the people i meet in future. 2 random encounters have landed me in tight spots. I think sometimes i trust too easily. Could be possible that I was on the verge of being desperate at one point. I really don't mind admitting that. loneliness does strange things to u...I have now learned not to let my guard down that easily. The good news is, i would probably trust ppl less easily, therefore sparing myself from more strange encounters. The bad news would be, that i have formed a superficial shell around me that may harden me from the world. This has happened to me before. I found it hard to trust, therefore hard to love as well. I had my little crushes, but none were deep enough for me to commit. Broke a few hearts during that period, which lunged me into a deeper fear of commitment. Guilt tastes more bitter than rejection. That's what I realised.

Anyway, someone called me today on my handphone. The first thing he said was "guess who I am?". I personally hate this question. If it was from a close friend I don't mind it. But if it's from an unfamiliar voice, I hate it. Gives me the creeps. Anyway, the hints he gave were sufficient and I found out who he was. He happened to be a cyber friend of my friend's (note: not mine). He just called to ask how i was and all. Proposed to meet up sometime too. I was freaking out. He had been trying to go out with me since the time i met him, which was, according to him, 6 years ago. Yup. I'm not sure how old he is but not less than 5 yrs older. He had been begging my friend for my contacts since then. I think i recently gave him my hp thru friendster. Don't ask why. The conversation was casual, though I was freaking out. Anyway, we didn't make any specific plans to meet and so on, but he was sure that we would one day. I just hope i can come up with a good excuse when that day comes...

yup...that's it. Not very strange to some of u, but i'm not a meet-and-date kinda girl. So it is strange to me. I have not seen this fella since form 2 i think. And he claims he updates himself about me thru Friendster. Creepo.

i do not know when exactly
that i'd see myself hand in hand
with someone meant for me
on someone that i can depend

i do not know how exactly
that i'm gonna find myself one
a person who'll love me for me
just by being with me, we'll have fun

i do not know why exactly
that finding the perfect person seem so hard
that the list would go on endlessly
before, as the one, i would regard

all i know is when that happens
at that moment in time exactly
when the warmth in my heart deepens
i know i will be ready...