short attention span

i have the attention span of an ant. i just walked out of lecture. the hall was freezing. and i was losing focus by the second. my stomach is grumbling (though i had forgotten to bring my wallet out with me). i was struggling to keep awake. Finance is dull. i'll get it for a while, and then i don't. and it just bugs the hell out of me that everyone keeps saying its easy! why am i finding it so hard to get? i get maths. i get stats. i believe i have enough sense in me to invest in a project that incurs higher returns. but i just don't get Finance. or rather, i don't pay attention long enough to get it.

gah. enough ranting. i think i should be getting back into class...

i think ive lost over 1000 calories

i'm so proud of myself today. i had obligingly parted my dreams at the first sound of my alarm at 6.20 am. i washed up and put on my NBs. then i hopped into the car with my dad and brother, and headed to Bt Gasing.

Keith went swimming. dad and i went to meet Uncles, Cousin and some second cousins and aunty at Bt Gasing. It's always a joy to bring new people to that place. I feel like there's so much i can show them in there...rubber seeds, suspension bridge, bird tower, monkeys (occassionally). the little cousins were pretty good. some of them weren't from this area, they stayed over at my uncle's place. so they only had slippers with them. yet they charged down the dirt routes with zero difficulty. :)

i had wanted to consider that excercise for today already. but talking to kor on MSN, somehow made me decide to go for a run. the weather couldn't be more perfect, post rain, no sun. going up the hill was a little hard, but the moment i reached the top, feels all better. :) in fact, ideas started flowing through my head! i think next year, no matter what my position in Circle-K might be, i'll be organizing a health and fitness campaign. it'll be about a week or so. i'll maybe try to get Dr William Chan to come and talk or something. i actually have it all planned out, monday to sunday! Sunday being the grand finale - Hike up Bt Gasing! hahaha...

but yea...i seriously think i burnt up about a thousand calories today. feeling really good! :)

p/s: *yawn* im getting sleepy earlier and earlier! its barely midnight and i'm dozing off!

what have i gotten myself into?

last night, kor told me to sign up for Powerman quick, before the deadline comes. i'm so used to being called by Uncle Peter that i assumed he'd sign me up already. since he didn't call, i decided to send him a message.

yes, i'm being very brave. not only have i never done a full individual Powerman, i have also never done a full individual MMDS (which is shorter than Powerman), and i have never cycled more than 40 km in my life. Powerman is a 10 km run, 60 km bike, 10 km run event. i know for a fact that on 11th November 2006, i'll be dragging my sorry ass back to the finish line on all fours. that's if i ever come back, God forbid i pass out in the middle of the race course.

it must've been quite a shocker for Uncle Peter and the peeps at Powerman because today i got a call from Powerman Malaysia!

Melody: Hello Karen! Melody here...from Powerman...
Me: Oh hi Melody!
Melody: Hey! Peter told me you're doing individual this time.
Me: *laughs* yea...
Melody: Are you sure? Long Distance?
Me: erm...yea [confidence level slipping]
Melody: *hesitates* well...ok la i'll put your name in
Me: okay thanks [hangs up before i can change my mind]

great. even Melody has doubts. what the hell was i thinking?? but that wasn't all. a while later during lunch, Uncle Peter calls me up.

Peter: Wei...
Me: Yea? Hello! Melody just called me...
Peter: Yea...so you doing full ah? 60 km bike you know.
Me: yea i know...*laughs*
Peter: Its at 1 pm you know....eh, need training wan you know! How's your training?
Me: erm...hehe...gotla...got train...okla...
Peter: This Sunday you running SJ 10k?
Me: yup.
Peter: Saturday you follow me. We go for long ride in Putrajaya
Me: *gulps* what time you all leaving?
Peter: Leaving my house at half past 7.
Me: okay...[sinks into oblivion]....but i'm very slow!
Peter: don't worry we have one girl very slow also...
Me: okay...
Peter: okla. see you saturday ah!

darn. you know the feeling you get when you're sitting outside the principal's office, waiting to enter? or when you're next up for the Lisan dan Bacaan exam? uhuh...i walked around all day trying to shirk that feeling to no avail. So i got onto the exercise bike and did 15 km. made me feel a tad better.

now if i could just do that another 4 more times non stop...

the hottie

so i found out today that the hot groupmate is the talk of college. as in, i'm not the only girl who thinks he's hot. which makes him all the more...desirable...i guess. :)

*edit* purely a crush. nothing more. :)

he casually invited me to join him for that-meal-thats-later-than-lunch-but-earlier-than-dinner. i would've loved to join him, but i had plans to be embarrased by a group of crooning singing prodigies.

*chants*hesgotagirlfriendhesgotagirlfriendhesgotagirlfriend

we went to Redbox today. we, being, Shakti, Anita, YeeYee, Matt, Adrian, YanYee and myself. it was fun. but i think i had more fun singing, very off tune, to Say You'll Be There with my RSGs. seriously, how can one sing unconsciously when these people have a vocal range of 8 octaves or something, and can reach every note with punctuation?!



*edit*video uploaded! here's Shakti n Anita singing to Menghitung Hari. You can't see anything, but the first voice is Anita and the next is Shakti. :)

then i caught John Tucker Must Die with YanYee, Leena and Dektos. pretty hilarious! yes, its a dumb chick flick but seriously, the guy's a dating mastermind. he's a genius! and brittany snow has the most incredible abs! no kidding!


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on another note, i was blog surfing the other day, and i came across several blogs of my friends. there was this blog which Shakti sent to me. it was of this guy who pretty much has every post of his dedicated to this girl which he really likes. it's a pretty sappy blog, but i actually continue reading it till today. the guy's just so in love with this girl, he's greatest nightmare would be if he came to college one day and she decides not to be his friend anymore. he has this fear that she might suddenly think he's edging on stalkerish.

it just shows this other side of the male specimen. i mean, u usually hear all the sappy what-if-he-doesnt-like-me-anymore stories from a girl's p.o.v. i never knew that guys can actually have a girl on their mind like 24/7. in short, i never knew they were that deep. sue me.

what is it about the trees?

there's something about trees that has this effect on me. whenever i'm in the jungle, or staring out into the sea with trees to frame the picture i'm seeing, or just looking up at the moon with the sound of crickets in the background, i'd feel this utter sense of sernity and calmness. and then...loneliness.

the family outing was really fun, no doubt. i played by the beach at Cherating, i found hermit crabs and jellyfish, i sat myself under a gushing waterfall, i played table tennis and pool with my cousins, i got trashed by my 83 year old granddad in table tennis (no kidding!), i had buffet for breakfast...the list goes on!

but like i said, the trees are infectious. i become darn emo la. so i think that the jungle is the most romantic place. sue me. i think that deep in the jungle, by a bonfire, with marshmallows on sticks, and a waterfall not too far away, is most definitely the best way to spend time with a boyfriend/girlfriend. where else can you find such tranquility? where else can you breathe in clean cool air from dawn to dawn?

i am so having a jungle honeymoon.

waltz into my life again

only with you, i'd turn around
running back to where i came from
only with you, i'd retrace the path
flipping up stones in search for breadcrumbs

only with you, i'd stop in my tracks
just to recount the days we had
only with you, i'd see a significance
in everything that i thread

only with you, i'd stop a smile
from curling up my lips
just because of the thought of you
having your arms around her hips

only with you, i'd walk a long way through time
to heal, to move on with whatever life reckons
only to have you talk to me again
and have my wound pried open in seconds

they say time is a healer
through time we forgive and forget
they say time helps us move on
through time we forego our regrets

only with you, i'd let myself get hurt
i'd bear the tears and the pain
yet stretch my arms wide open
to have you waltz into my life again

i realised i have not written a poem in donkey years. considering inspiration comes to me in the form of heartbreak and pain, the lack of poems are a good sign. :) but i shall do justice to the name of this blog, hence ive written a little something from experience. it's annoying, really, when there is someone who just have that much control over you. almost crippling...yet in a desired way.

i'll be headed to Terengganu in exactly 6 hours time. its a big family getaway, with cousins, aunts and uncles, grandfather...should be fun! i'll be back only on Wednesday. don't miss me! :)