anxiety...

It's gonna be out tomorrow
I feel all squirmy and jittery
I thought i'd have some friends
To go through it with me
But everyone's either at home or somewhere else

It's gonna be out tomorrow
I'm afraid of what I might see
I thought I'd have someone
To stay up and chat with me
But somehow people can actually sleep tonight

It's gonna be out tomorrow
I'm scared that I might cry
I can feel the pressure arising
How do I not aim so high?
I can't possibly beat my brother's results

It's gonna be out tomorrow
I'm having an aching head
Time to retire and await tomorrow
In the comfort of my bed
Good night....*yawn*

What was I thinking?

I wrote this poem in class that day. Was feeling a bit down. but since my IE wasn't working again, i only get to post it now....

Wondering about what i said
Thinking if I could've been better
I've always thought i had it in me
Guess i could not have been any prouder

Hearing words and whispers around
Seeing posters up on the wall
With the heat all over the place
Brings me back to the time at the hall

I thought I gave it all some thought
I didn't just blurt out everything
I remember planning and preparing my answers
But only now has it got me thinking

Looking back I just realised
That I didn't say it accidentally
But neither did i say it on purpose
So what was I thinking actually?

When changes take place

Goodness...IE really was going on some sort of boycot against me in the past few days. oh well, at least we're now on good terms again. =) anyway, this isn't gonna be a sad poem...just something i've been pondering on...

If something extra have been added
Something else will be taken away
When someone new I get to meet
Someone I knew takes a new way

I happen to wonder about life
And how it carries out its cycle
And i got to know that since i arrived
Everything has a certain sequel

I've always been ahead in some things
And I have thought I always would
But now a certain change in life brings
Someone to do the things i could

I know i'm being a little selfish
But it'll take me time to get used to it
You're gonna come back all tough and strongish
And everything's gonna change, every bit

Everyone already loved you before
With your angel-like smile and eyes
Now they'll love you even more
When you come back with a big surprise

You're gonna be the perfect one
Looks, skill, and even the brains
Call me jealous, but I can't run
Before you conclude, let me explain

I depended on my "tough-girl" personality
Since looks were definitely out of question
It would have been my specific specialty
So at least, I got some attention

I know i sound very childish right now
But I can't help but feel this way
They're gonna like you better somehow
And I'll probably have no say....

ok...call me sad....but just to let you know this is how i feel. I've always thought that i had to prove myself in some way or another since i'm not exactly Miss universe. Guys really do look at looks, whether you agree with me or not. And I have long been trying to see if someone was gonna like me for me. guess it takes a little more just to turn a few heads huh? oh well...once again, this is not a sad poem. Just something i've always pondered upon...

Something's missing

I picked up the phone again today
Just about to dial your number
Almost forgetting that you're away
And I am left a little emptier

I feel as though something's missing
It's the fact that u're not there
I can feel that something's missing
Whenever I need someone to care

I guess I'll have to wait 3 months
For you to answer my calls in just 2 rings
For you to listen to my crappy ones
When homework, i just don't feel like doing

There's so much I want to tell you
So much a message won't fit it
Please, let time fly through
And I'll be able to tell you bit by bit

There's also so much i'd like to hear
The activities and stuff you're doing
It's only day 3 but right now right here
I already feel that something's missing

Hey...i miss my best friend Julie. Bet there are many out there who does too. Imagine the experience she's going through! I just hope she doesn't change much by the time May 2nd comes. i hope that I don't change much either.

* to Fookie *

I promised fookie a poem...so here's one to him b4 he leaves for NS. haha...but also to the rest that are leaving too. Of course, the main emphasis is on Fookie lor. =)

When the joyful moments in my life
Start to turn itself around
And as they force me to strive
That's when a friend in you i found

When times just didn't seem
To go according to plan
And when i truly wished it was a dream
On you i could depend

But of all the times when i was down
The one that hurt me the most
Was the time he turned me down
The same time u helped me the most

Then there were moments that we shared
Not with tears but laughter
When water splashed and mud smeared
You made the wacky times wackier!

So to you my all-weather friend
I thank you for just being there
Fookie, I'm guessing that you can
Tell that you're beyond compare!

Have fun at NS peeps! Once again i would like to express that i wish i was going! But anyway, you peeps better come home all buffed up! Make sure you'll be bringing me jungle trekking and rafting in the future! *muax*

~ Me, Myself and I ~

Today is Valentine's Day
Can't help but feel a lil' sad
I guess in me there is still
A pain that hurts kinda bad

I know that it's been said out
I know I shouldn't hang on
I know I've got it crystal clear
That this chance i shouldn't rely upon

I guess i have accepted that
He always stay as jus my friend
I do not ask for another chance
It's just the loneliness that has no end

Today i shall have fun
With the friends i love jus as much
I will perform to my heart's content
With love, happiness and such

Today, Valentine's day
I will enjoy, I will try
With my family and friends around
Just me , myself and I

Happy Valentine's Day...