Monday, June 28, 2010

A little too ambitious

I think I should never make targets. I always seem to screw up whenever I try to achieve a target.

Yesterday I ran the Standard Chartered KL Marathon with my dad, Isaiah, Ralph and the many other marathon enthusiasts. I had targeted a sub 4 hour time and I had this aim sitting in my mind since I registered for the race a few months back..

One thing about me, I should stop blabbering. I need to learn to keep my ideals to myself. Maybe if I hadn't told so many people about my target time I wouldn't feel the pressure caving in on me. *shrug*

Excuses aside. The race was a blessing for one thing. It rained at the start, which made it cool and a lot more bearable for my jetlagged unacclimatised body. I am not a fan of the wet squishy shoes, but hey, you win some you lose some.

We started off at a comfortable pace, I thought. I was happily chatting and singing even with my 2 peeps, Ralph and Isaiah. But then I asked Isaiah what pace we were doing, he checked his little pacer thingy and said we were running at a 9km/h pace. Now, that to me is an offense. 9km/h? I was thinking, that's really really slow. What are we doing? We need to speed up!

So I did. And I think I kinda overdid it. I was trying my hardest to find the 4:00 balloon. When I saw a yellow balloon up ahead, I would speed up, give chase, until I finally catch up on it, and realised to my dismay, that it was only the 4:30 balloon. I think I went a little crazy, because I carried on "sprinting", I think probably running a 5 min/km pace.

As expected, my fuel tanks ran low pretty quickly. At about 25km I was feeling a little nauseous, feeling like throwing up. I had to stop to see if I was going to. Ralph asked me to slow down. Which I did, but then I keep wanting to go faster and faster.

So the last 5 km or so was a run-walk event. I know, I am truly disappointed in myself. But when an uncle told me sub 4 hours was a little bit hard to reach then, I kinda lost hope. And gave up. When Keat Seong came up from behind to get me to go on, I could only keep up for a bit. I don't know why I was so low on determination yesterday, because I swear I could've done it. It was within reach. I had 5 km to go and a 27 minute allowance to make it under 4 hours. But nope, I had to throw my hands up in despair and stop.

To be honest, I was gasping for breath. My feet were burning. But these are all signs I am all too familiar with. Yet I fail to harness the energy to pummel through. Why? Don't know...I guess I just got mad when I realised I wouldn't have been able to make it.

Anyway, I finished in 4:06:36. which I guess wasn't too bad considering the amount of time I stopped to walk. And we all have off days, don't we? =) I'm a little bummed out I didn't give it all I've got, but I think it's not too bad a time also la. So, I guess I should count my blessings.

Daddy had a half an hour improvement when he finished in 5:14. His last marathon took him 5:45, so well done Daddy!

I've managed to hurt my ankle though. I think I stepped in a pot hole and twisted it ever so slightly. So I've got my ankle wrapped up in a bandage now.


FireWire said...

I think you are being too hard on yourself but well come on the timing despite all the "excuses". Congrats once again!

Are you going for PBIM?

galnexdor said...

Thanks. =) when's PBIM? i dont think I will be around for it. Will be in Auckland then.

how did u do?

Wendy said...

congrats karen. 4:06 is also not easy to achieve :)

K3vski said...

According to Tey's ranking, the 3rd Malaysian woman was also 4:06.

Still a good run though. Your second best after Auckland Marathon and in a much tougher course, plus the humidity.

Haiya, no blind fold also can step into pot hole.

K3vski said...

Oops correction, 5th Malaysian woman. 4:06:03. Gun time.

galnexdor said...

yaka? EW finished 4:04 le...mannnn i couldve overtaken her. but i managed to overtake the other one la. so at least safe face a bit...haha

waiting for the official results. i think everyone concentrating on the death of the boy.

K3vski said...

The top rankings are out. You are 7th Malaysian woman. EW must have registered as HK.

galnexdor said...

8th malaysian la.

yea i didnt see her name. if i did my PB can win USD500 man. dont play...

now i feel really stupid. haha