clouded thoughts

I really don't understand
How this whole thing started
How it even began
How this phase of my life got created

I wonder if God has something
Laid out just to test me
Coz it seems to me very chellenging
Whenever I try to please every party

On one hand I've got someone
Whom I find very interesting
It struck me when our friendship begun
That he was someone I'd consider liking

He says the right things to me
And i find that very respectable
It is as though he understands completely
Plus, he's also very sociable

On the other hand, is another guy
Whom I frankly think he's talented
I personally cannot lie
That he somehow got me attracted

But that didn't last very long
For i couldn't stand the way he spoke
As though, to him, I already belonged
Everything he said made me choke

I frankly like the first one
That's something I cannot deny
But I cannot just erase thet other one
No matter how hard i try

Now the both of them want to meet
I can't imagine how that's gonna be
It'll be awkward from the moment they greet
What would happen to me?

oh well...Ju thinks it's a bad idea to let them meet. But they're both kinda persistent and frankly i wanna see how it'll turn out as well. So i'm begging some of my friends to come along with me. Pleaseeeeeeee!!! I promise i'll make it up to you all. I think it'll actually be kinda interesting...haha...