Who will join us now at Outward Bound?

Last year, Instructor Karen asked me:

"Karen, do you have a boyfriend?"
"No"
"Are you looking for one?"
"What? No!"
"Good..."

Reason being she didnt want me to go flirting and frolicking around with a bunch of 15-17 year olds. Not like I would. I wouldn't even date a guy who's a year younger than I.

This year, however, if she were to ask me the same question i think the incident would turn out like this:

"So, Karen, do you have a boyfriend now?"
"No"
*giggles* "Still no?" *sniggers* "So are you looking for one?"
"No...of course not"
*laughs* "Maybe it's time you should..."

Do you reckon i should lie to save my pride? *shrugs* Well, in an hour's time, i'll be going to Mel's house in Kajang. Tomorrow i'll be leaving for OBS Lumut! See you guys in 14 days time with loads and loads of pictures!

i dont want to just settle for you

i see you...
as someone that i can talk to
someone who shares the fun
to smile with and laugh with
and reminisce through things we've done

i see you...
as someone who looks out for me
who makes sure i'm home safe and sound
who treats me with pride and generosity
as someone i'd feel safe around

yet when i need a shoulder to cry on
a hug to say that things are okay
when i need someone who understands
who knows without having me to say

when i think of someone who'd back me up
who'd give me faith when i have fallen
whose hands are there to pull me up
and tell me just how far i have gotten

when i see the person who knows me through
who sometimes know me more than i do
who'd say the right words and do the right things
try as i might, i can't seem to picture you

and that is what hurts me the most
for never again would i want to go through
the path i took that point in time
never again do i want to just settle for you...

i told Ju that i think i have the tendency to cheat next time. because i'm a stubborn mule who refuses to accept and move on. i sing, everyday, Hinder's Lips of an Angel with such emotion that i could've fooled people into believing that i wrote it. it's silly, i know. i tell myself, if you don't want to cheat then don't! simple and logical, innit? it is everything but. and i'm not liking myself very much for it. so yea...self bashing mechanism initiated. readers, be warned.

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on a brighter note, i got my hair highlighted today from The Academy for RM30. and i'm pretty happy with the results :)

p.i.g

i've become one of those youngsters who requires an alarm clock to wake up at 11 am.

goodbye Milo tees

I'm parting with my Milo T-Shirts.

My t-shirt drawer is about to explode and the new tees aren't gonna stop coming in. I once said i wasn't going to give them away no matter what i do, because they each represent a part of my life for which i would never trade for the world. But there's no room left and unfortunately free tees that come with race kits now are branded and made from dri-fit material. so between high quality dri-fit branded t-shirts, and cotton oversized white Milo t-shirts, however do i pick?

dri-fit...cotton....

dri-fit...cotton...

heck, i dont know why i even ask...:)

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there are several things one should not be addicted to.

One Tree Hill season 4 is one of them.

for the simple reason that having to wait for subsequent episodes to come out is edging on unbearable.

the end...:)

And it was with that final stab, that she took down the last of Exams. With black ink so bold, she scathed the face of Huma Resource Management 200, the last of the dark warriors, without so much as a flinch from her gaze. Smiling, she knew she had earned what she had yearned for...she was free...

haha...yes drama queen i may be, but it doesnt change the fact that i am over and done with exams. HRM was alright. I supposed when i can write till i ran out of ink, it's always a good sign. Now to kick off those heels and let the hair down...metaphorically speaking of course, since i neither wear heels to college nor do i own hair that is long enough to be "let down", so to speak.

and so, what did a bunch of raving hooligans do to commemorate the final day of their imprisonment? we scooted over to Sunway Pyramid, whereby a heated debate between the girls and the guys started. You see, the women were in need of cute cuddly penguins to relax whereas the boys needed some bloody action with hot women to keep them on their toes, considering the accumulated amount of sleep that they had could not reach 6 hours. with much negotiation, the girls relented and gave in to the cravings of men, God forbid they'd do that the rest of their lives.

and so, i hereby comment that with all the hoo-ha and publicity and ravings about Double-0-7 in Casino Royale? i've only decreased my already low impression of James Bond in general. The script has gotten much cornier, the Bond girl was a far cry from elegant and gorgeous, and sad to say, i'd pull a trigger on the idiot who casted Daniel Craig. First of all, far too many beautiful cars got demolished in the movie in a very very shameful manner. Second, James Bond is a lot more ruthless and not so much the gentleman we all were taught to think he is. and finally, the plot is senseless.

it was disappointing and a total waste of my RM8.

dinner was with the same group at a Bak Kut Teh shop in Klang. And then we adjourned to some Swenson/A Bread Story like place in Bukit Tinggi called Leo for a couple hours of stitch inducing laughs. :)

tossing and turning

alone in my room wrapped in silence
tossing and turning in the still night
squeezing my eyes in persistence
with all focus to shut out the light

louder and louder i hear the clock tick
faster and faster the cars seem to travel
my eyes dart around at every tap, every click
my ears hear sounds that was never audible

images of happenings throughout the day
words and words on white sheets of paper
louder and louder they murmur and say
slowly i feel my palms getting sweatier

a glance at the clock treads on my nerves
five am and not a single wink of an eye
tossing and turning under the covers
alone in the darkness i lie

yeap...for some unknown reason i was unable to sleep last night. at 5.30 am mummy and daddy were awake, and soon keith too. Keith was going to Paroi for the Ong Kee Hui swimming competition. i dont know which is harder, trying to stay awake when your eyelids weigh a tonne, or trying to fall asleep when your mind's as alert as a hawk. i think my final glance at the clock was 6.10 am and the next thing i knew sunshine was pouring in through the windows. it was well after noon and that pretty much spoilt my whole day. i was in no mood to read any HRM. then again, i really shouldn't be blaming mood swings now...

anyway, to be fair to both brothers i hereby congratulate my big brother, Kevin, for passing his Tax exam for his CA.

p/s: i better be passing all my 4 subjects...all this congratulatory wishes is making my ownself jealous.