We rocked WCG!

So we performed...yup! all 3 days! all 5 performances. It was cool! It was awesome! I had fun. Dancers are really cool peeps. They're outgoing and funny. They dare to make a fool out of themselves. So do gymnasts. Some of them at least. Whatever it is I find that I really enjoy this kind of life. Stressfree, carefree and laid back. Makes me wonder if I'm choosing the right path by going into Science again next year. My cousin once said that it's good to be different but not just for the sake of it. Maybe I am just trying to be different for the sake of being different. I don't know. I've heard way too many tales of science students going into arts and succeeding. With flying colours too. I've heard way too many stories of drop outs being the bosses to those who graduates with a PhD or something. My dad for one would stress: Financial Intelligence, you either have it or you don't. sigh...I don't know...

And today, it suddenly seemed as though being 18 and in college is all about dating. It started with my little brother complaining about being teased with some girl in his class. So i said, he has reached that age. Haha it's first the teasing with the person you hate that's of the opposite sex. Then it's the teasing with the person you like that's of the opposite sex. Then it's the real going steady and what nots. So I was explaining to him this whole life cycle when he suddenly says "I can't imagine che che having a boyfriend!" I have to say I was quite taken aback. So, automatically my ego and pride kicked in and I covered up by saying "Coz che che anti-guy ma". Which is so untrue. But mummy had something wise to add, "It'll come naturally la". Ok...then I had to fetch some friends to Megamall. In the car Ash asks me "got boyfriend adi ar?" I answered the standard answer "college no lengchai la" which isn't a lie, though that ain't the reason. In megamall I caught up with Ling Si whom I've not spoken to in a few weeks coz i've been skipping gim. We were having a perfectly fine conversation till it got to the part where she asked "so how about you? got any boyfriend?" I swear they were on me today. Everyone! Anyway, had to wait a long long time before I got to perform so i took a flyer and did some heart shaped origami (simply coz it's the only thing I know how to fold). Then Desmond (one of the dancers whom I find quite cute btw) was ejeking me "I know you're desperate Karen. Come la i help you find. There this one not bad wat" *points to a girl* "Don't find guys la. Too competitive already. Take girls. Become les" And that's supposed to be funny. ha-ha....so what issit with 18, coll and dating?

well, beats me. But enjoy these pics while you're at it. =)

My little group of friends in among the whole group. Lil boy's called Webster. Adorable!!


O2Jam mascot and Blue Hyppo.


The 2 sisters with star quality.


And the dancers of Dance World!!

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Performing is tiring. I'm so beat I can't rhyme. So, feast your eyes on this instead. You can go here for more.

This is Weng Lum's best starting pose. I couldn't agree more.


This is my favourite girl. Actually my fav is Katerina Pisetsky of Israel but they didn't have her photo. She's the not so keng wan...hehe...So Irina Tchachina it is.


I wish I could do this. She looks Asian. Kazakstan isn't in Asia rite? hehe Aliya Yussupova. Her balances are really good!


Tmr i'll load the pics i took at the WCG. Oh and I learnt a new move! haha Fookie next time i show u! ;)

- still -

I remember the very first day
Where I was my usual busy self
Could hardly stay to hear your say
Just a vague introduction of yourself

I shot many questions at you
And you answered one by one
Then I had more important things to do
I left, but that was how it all begun

I'd never thought that my life would stir
You being the person that shook it
How it happened now seems kinda blur
But what happened is the unforgettable bit

At a point, I guess I was pressured to act
By what? I still do not know
But I wasn't a 100% sure for a fact
That I should or shouldn't take that go

Things happen for a reason i guess
And I don't intend to look back
I feel lucky that I've been blessed
To have our friendship back on track

I no longer wonder why it couldn't
Work out between you and me
I guess I realised that I didn't
Really feel that deeply

But no matter what you'd always hold
A special place inside my heart
For some reason your name stands bold
Guess in you there's this special part

Can't really explain what or why
Just something extraordinary
Something that seemed to have caught my eye
Something that tugs the heart in me

So eventhough I'm over the whole infatuation
Eventhough I'm relieved of an unrequited feeling
Today one thing remains a question
How come I'm still sad that you're departing?

Today it seemed as though my heart was a tad heavier. Feel a little sad that he was gonna leave. In fact left. I don't have any feelings for him whatsoever. It was a misjudgement of my own feelings back then. But anyway, what happened happened and I guess, like every little mishap I've had in my pathetic love life, it stays in my heart. yup...no matter how small the crush was...or how silly I'd acted in the past...or how silly he acted...every single person takes a fraction of my heart. The fact that I did like him at a point meant that there was something special about him. Even if it was just an infatuation. I think the part of my sadness also comes from the uncertainty. The uncertainty of what the future holds. When am i gonna see him again? Sure there'll be MSN messenger and ICQ to help reduce the distance but...u get what I mean.

Apart from that I guess, was the changes that took place today. I have a feeling it's gonna take me a little while to get used to the fact that she's got someone else who comes in first place now. I'm so happy for her. So happy that i feel...sad. It's not about me not having someone. I believe in fate and fate would bring me that someone in due time. It's about me and her. As much as we both deny that nothing's gonna change, we both know something will. And the fact that it isn't wrong, bugs me even more. It's just the way it is supposed to be. I saw this coming. She's my best friend and I love her. I love it that she's happy...

Today was my first performance at WCG. It was a blast! The first show was great, the 2nd better. If you missed today, there's always tomorrow 2pm and 6.30pm, and sunday 4 pm. I'm now more than ever determined to one day perform like MJ or Julyann. =) Today I was supposed to have an outing with my girlfriends. The group gymnasts of selangor year 2000. Yuh Huey couldn't make it for some reason. And...well...she came with him. Maybe I'm being selfish here. Maybe I'm being conceited by wanting an outing with just the 5 of us, before Yuh Huey leaves for UK, to catch up on old times, laugh our heads off in a public restaurant and make fools out of ourselves, snap loads of pictures, just like the old times. Maybe I'm asking too much if I thought, ok so if Yuh Huey couldn't make it, at least there'll be the 4 of us. no one else. Maybe I am just not used to the changes that I have to make now...I will be soon...sorry...I will...

Happy Birthday!!

About 5 years ago i met a bubbly, petite looking girl. She was a year my senior, was in fact a senior prefect of mine, but she was the greatest pal a junior could have. Bearing the same thirst for adventure and hunger for thrill, she and I became great friends almost instantly. It was inevitable that I fell into the same footsteps as her, trailing her as a Leo member, on to Membership Director and eventually President of the Leo Club. Apart from that, she was among the very few who I could always depend on to lend a shoulder, get a few cheers and just be there for me. Today she turns 19 and I celebrate the times we had going through OBS, rock climbing, mountain climbing, yet to scuba dive and kayak with her *wink*.

Beatrice Goh, HaPpY BiRtHdAy!!!!


Born on the same day is a guy who have shown me the meaning of when hardwork pays off. He first struck me as someone very confident, taking things in his own stride. Though our friendship went through a bit of a bumpy road, he remained a friend and I guess that's one of his umpteen qualities. I look up to him in more ways than one and will treasure the times we shared in the short period I've known him. He'll be heading off to the States, on a journey to gain knowledge and experience, and undoubtly success. I wish him all the best in his undertakings and hope to see him again some day in the near future.

Eng Han, HaPpY BiRtHdAy and FaReWeLL!!

This poem was introduced to me by him. Although technically I first heard of it from Debbie, UWC. But it brings a lot of meaning, I think it applies to everyone human. hehe...enjoy...=)

Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrenderbe on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career,
however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.Strive to be happy.
*~Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952~*

I typed this looong post last night, filled with emotion about a certain charitable deed done by my uncle which touched me so much I thought I'd share it with everyone but when i clicked Publish Post the page failed to load and then everything is GONE! And the poem i submitted was one of the best I've ever written! ArGh!!! Poems don't just come anytime and everytime. They flow out when the time is right, the feeling is there. stupid...rewriting a poem is like redrawing a masterpiece. So, i boycotted Blogger last night and decided not to blog....

But, for my uncle's name sake, let me just tell you all what he did. You know those emails that says Please help my daughter, she has cancer and she's only 2...? well, how many of you forward those emails? Better yet, how many of you read them? No wait...how many of you even believe in them?? Well my uncle not only did all of the above, he actually went to visit the girl in SJMC. Then he banked in money into her family's bank account. Talk about noble. What he did touched me a lot and I now think that kindness goes waaaaay beyond just being nice and selfless. It's about taking actions, making a difference in another's life. I told my uncle how touched I was and this was what he said:

We are all champions, leaders and diamond. We just shine in different ways.

We choose our paths (be engineer, be employee, be housewife, be singer, be artist etc) and as long as we feel that we make full use of our life, we have no regrets. We were born to this world with special talent, skill sets and purpose, it is our duty and obligation to creator and parents to discover our hidden treasures, make full use of it for mankind, so that when the time comes for us to report back, we at least go back with pride.

As for myself, I have three rules for doing charity,
a. I do have an allocation, sort of like budget. By doing so (giving money), when I contribute, I do not feel the pain because it is already not mine.
b. I always ask myself this question, "would this dollar be more effective with him or with me?"
c. I do make sure that the money is being used in ways that I want it to be. Doing effective charity is definitely not easy.

Don't you just feel so ashamed right now? hehe...I do. In my many years of being a Leo I realised I'm not doing it for charity. I'm doing it due to power hunger, awards, maybe even for attention's sake. For all the wrong reasons. Sigh...well, not too late to change...

Anyway KDU clarified that they accept SAM. So, my guess is that's where I'll be going next year. Anybody wanna join me?? hehe....

productive day!

Yay i think today was really productive...lemme see...

1. I woke up at 8 this morning to bring my porpor n yehyeh for breakfast hehe. I figured the best way to start a productive day was to wake up early. And the best way to do that is to bring my grandparents out for breakfast. and the best to do that is to call them the night b4 (yesterday) and promise them already, thus, making an obligation. =)

2. I enquired about the Science course at KDU. stupid KDU dun wanna recognize my SAM. wth!?!? My mum did not spend 13 K for nothing. I think the councellor was blurer than me la. They should accept SAM. They must. I'm not enduring a whole year of chem I and II all over again. no no....

3. I visited Ikano power centre! that place is pretty neat. Julie fell in love with the dogs in their largest pet world place. I loved the Scnauzher or however u spell it. hehe..but that place is neat. I wonder if I should get my bro an iguana for his bday. haha he better keep it in Perth then...=)

4. Met up with Eng Han, Mrs Ng and Yong Sheng in BU. Mrs Ng had some solid info about sports engineering which tempted me to pursue that course again. But no way la...my physics now is barely close to my physics back then. Then, I was scoring As, now, i'm scoring Ds. Physics ain't my game now. So engineering is out. Sides, being a sports engineer i'd be one of those behind the scenes peeps and that's not really what I want. I wanna be with the people, hands-on, get motivated by motivating others. yea...that'd be my dream. Eng Han was so quiet!! haha...Julie was like "Karen! u were talking to his mum more than u were talking to him!" haha...well, I wasn't the silent one...
Can't believe he's leaving this friday. How I wish I would be feeling the anxiety, the excitedness, the nerves, the expectations of leaving home. Expecting the unexpected. Murphy's Law. Things happen when u least expect it. sigh...oh well. count ure blessings...count ure blessings...=)

5. I watched the gymnastics gala. Irina tchachina is so gonna win! How come they didn't get Kabaeva to perform? Saving the best for the competition? Once again i think i've entered the wrong gymnastics. I should've been in artistic la. I think I'm better made for that. I could use those buffed arms and legs. not forgetting the buffed hunks. hehe....

and to think that after all that I'd get the satisfaction of it. But instead i got a splitting headache. the statisfaction will surface once the ache goes away...till then...nitez....