happy birthday mummy

When times are dull and monotonous
You bring on life and colours and rhyme
You bring on fun and laughter when we’re young
Which carry on in our hearts through time

When times are dark and fearful
You bring light to brighten it up
You bring warmth to comfort our nerves
You bring assurance that you’ll never give up

When times are unreasonable and unjust
You take in our raging temper
You calm us down with soothing words
When none other would understand better

When times are happy and full of zest
Often we take for granted how it came to be
That, really, life for us is grand and wholesome
You made sure of that when you raised us three

am i that easy to leave

am i that easy to leave
does it all just get written over
the story of our lives
the times we've spent together

am i that easy to walk away from
my kisses that easy to forget
does the touch of my skin mean nothing
more than a bundle of regret

do the visions of me just fade
as easily as the taste of water
does my voice calling out your name
not stay around and linger

is my face that easy to turn away from
does my smile not make you smile
does the fear of responsibility outweigh
the love we've had all this while

am i that small in value
that a second's thought is so hard to give
honey, tell me again
am i so easy to leave

*edit* just a pondering. has nothing to do with me, don't worry.

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at Rebecca St James' concert, she spoke about a new movie she was starring in where she played the role of a girl who was pregnant out of wedlock. it made me think of a client i had on Saturday who was transferring her membership to a friend. when i asked her why, she said because her partner got her pregnant and then left her.

just now over dinner, we watched a news covering a center for pregnant teenagers, the youngest mother being only 13 years old. most of them, their partners fled after they find out they're pregnant, and the mom of the unborn child is left alone.

now i am someone with very strong principles with regards to pre-marital sex. call me conservative, but cases like these are reason enough to hold back certain things in life, if you don't buy the whole "sex is an act of true commited love between two commited souls" thing.

i'll be frank. i am terrified of the thought of being pregnant at the age of 23, let alone the age of 13. it would be, without a shadow of doubt, the worst thing that could happen to me at this point in life, and any point until i say I do, for that matter.

i think that the partners of these ladies have the right to be scared. whether they run away or not, that reflects their attitudes towards responsibility, but their decisions aside, they have every right to be scared. and though it is cruel to leave their women to fend for themselves, my stand is still prevention is better than cure. or in this case, solution.

just my 2 cents worth. what do u think?

Rebecca St James

Last night Lily brought me to go watch a very very VERY cool gig at Life, her church. The Aussie born American singer, Rebecca St James didn't ring any bells to me when I first heard her name. But she was pretty awesome. And her brothers Joel & Luke, were pretty cool too. Joel, sang back up with Rebecca for most of the songs and in my very humble opinion, he's quite hot. =) Even more so when he started his song with a short speech on how all the men in the room deserved to have a strong woman in their lives and how every woman is a princess in her own way and should never have to settle for second best. I think he melted a billion hearts in that auditorium last night. Have a listen at their songs, you won't regret it. =)

Joel on the big screen

Rebecca with Tema and Lily

Joel (the hotter more rockstar one on the left) & Luke (the mysterious one according to Lily) and the 3 of us

When Ju came to town

Julie spent about 6 days here in Auckland and for the friend-deprived me, that was some awesome 6 days. haha...ok, i'm not friend-deprived la. I have vinz, nav, ben, abby, cheryl, hanzi, and some 10 other random names. =)

But nevertheless, Julie made my easter break. We had lots of fun meeting up with friends, snapping truckloads of pictures and road tripping! Here's what we were up to...

There goes 1 week of my Easter break. 1 more to go. So fast!

Happy Easter everyone! =)

tralala~!

Julie's here!

If I were a nerd

I really envy nerds. I envy the dedication and commitment they can give towards studying. I envy how they strive so hard to score those impossibly high marks. I wish I had half their will power.

I just had an exam for BioSci 107. and i had really put in quite a lot of effort into this one. i was studying every day for it for about a week. and i did online tests and past year exam papers and did them pretty well too. it came to a point i was looking forward to sitting for this exam because i wanted to test how much i knew. i felt this aura of confidence and self esteem when i walked to uni today to catch the bus.

and then i met my friend Terry. and Terry said to me "I think I'm gonna do really well in this, aye. I think I'm gonna get at least 75% right, I'm sure. How about you?" yea, they don't do that whole humble thing over here. They speak how they feel. Suddenly i feel my confidence shaken. just by his overwhelming confidence.

I walked into the exam hall still feeling quite alright. And then it started. First question. not too sure. 2nd question. not too sure. 3rd question...oh shit. and it went downhill from there. there were a few questions which i probably aced. but i would say 50/50 at this point.

about 4 hours ago I felt pretty smart. I felt like a science student. I KNEW stuff. Stuff with big names like buccopharangeal arch and interembryonic mesoderm.

right now i don't feel so smart. i feel kinda stupid. i feel like once again, Science has proven to me that i am not cut out for it.

I wanna be a nerd. I wanna be kiasu.

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saw this one imprinted somewhere on the grounds of Auckland Uni. Love it when they have these random art on the ground...