do i need a reason

do i need a reason
to want to see you again
to be at that time and place
that happened before the pain

do i need a reason
to long to hear your voice
to have that freeing conversation
not having to make a choice

do i need a reason now
to ask you out again
coz im searching deep within me
and i find that nothing remains

apart from a broken heart
that's torn by loneliness
apart from tired eyes
that's strained through staring into space

apart from a mending life
whose stitches have just been pulled apart
tell me now is that reason enough
to want just 2 ounces of your heart

kids these days...

this actually happened in June. i was about to blog about it, but for some reason or other i didn't. though, it's just too cute to not blog about it. so here it goes. these are excerpts of a conversation i had with a cousin's friend in Melbourne. note: my cousin's 8 years old.

girl: hey
girl: do u noe lawrences phone no
me: ahaha no i dont sorry
me: i dont live in australia
girl: kk
me: im in malaysia now
girl: coz im his
girl: girl friend
girl: !!!!
me: icic...shouldnt u have his number then?
girl: I LOST IT

***

girl: who do u like?
me: what do u mean who do i like?
girl: who do u like
girl: i told u who i like
girl: u tell me who u like
girl: tell me
me: i like the spanish goal keeper
me: :)
girl: lol
me: do u watch football?
me: hehe
girl: no

***

girl: can u ask
girl: lawrence wen
girl: he comes on msn
girl: if we can be bf
girl: and gf?
me: hehe u have to ask him that yourself darling
girl: lol

***

girl: how old r u?
me: im 20
girl: oh my god!
me: ahaha yes im an old dinasaur
girl: are u pretty?
girl: r u a boy or girl?
me: ahaha im a girl...my name's Karen
girl: kk

***

girl: i also like a boy
girl: named austin
girl: his a hottie!
me: i thought u like lawrence
girl: i do
girl: i like law and austin
me: u cant like two boys
girl: yes i can!
me: yea
me: hehe
me: but u said lawrence was your boyfriend
girl: austin is more of my bf coz we kissed
girl: i only just met law

***

[girl] just sent you a Nudge!
me: yes?
girl: talk to me!!!!!!!!!!
me: ahaha i am!
girl: talk to me more then
me: well, what do u want to talk abt?
girl: bf nd gf
me: hehe ic...
me: u start
girl: kk
girl: well law likes chelsea and me
me: oh there's a chelsea too
girl: i hate her thou
girl: how can i win him over?
me: but uve already got austin
girl: i noe
me: why do u hate her? coz she's with lawrence?
girl: yep!!!!
me: hehe that's jealousy not hatred
girl: wat does hatred mean?????????????????????
me: hatred is the feeling of hate
girl: but lawrence and chelsea r together
girl: and im with law and austin!
me: hehe this is not good
me: have u heard of two timing?
girl: no
girl: wat is it?
me: it is when u are dating 2 boys at once
me: its not good...
girl: lol

i thought i was sad because i'm 20 and i'm single. now an 8 year old has made me sink into depression.

results

on my last day in Sydney, my results were released. When i checked i was pretty happy. It's not excellent but it was great. i had 2 distinctions and 2 credits. i did not set any targets actually. i usually dont have expectations of my results, because the moment i hand in my paper i usually have not a single worry about that exam anymore. i would actually quite happy if they never bother to give me results. really i would.

so anyway, my results were satisfactory. i'm not gonna go "it could've been better" or "i can actually work harder". No doubt i can. I believe that i actually can be a good student. The thing here is not the ability, but rather the desire. If i were given a chance to sit for the papers again i would still come out with the same results. I'm not very studious nor diligent. I never liked reading let alone reading something i dont like. I am lucky for the common sense in me that enabled me to answer most of the questions rationally.

so, i gave myself a pat on my back that day. my parents gave me a mini treat when i came home. all's well that ends well. :)

fives

a very much delayed tag post...compliments of Yen.

What were you doin in secondary school?

1. finding writing in pen really hard to do, and then really enjoying it after that...
2. following peer pressure
3. hiding from Mum the discipline teacher
4. having significant others
5. striving for everything at the top of the NON-academic ladder

Five of your favourite singers/ bands

1. Lisa Loeb
2. Bon Jovi
3. Britney Spears
4. Matchbox 20
5. many many others

Five things u would do if u were a millionaire

1. go hike and conquer every mountain...ahahha...:)
2. travel around the world
3. pick a poor country, and buy them all the medical equipment they need, send them specialised doctors and pay the doctors (i know...so noble right...hehe)
4. pay for my family's needs (i'm assuming i'll only get the chance to be a millionaire when i'm old)
5. buy a mountain bike, rock climbing gears, and all the Nike Sports Bras i can have...ahahahha

Five things i like doin

1. eating...
2. running WELL
3. being outdoors
4. OB-ing
5. chilling with friends and family

Five things i would nvr buy, wear or get

1. ciggies...yeap...:)
2. i actually cant think of anymore...this is bad...

Five favourites

1. breezy beaches
2. romantic comedies
3. quiet jungles
4. birthday presents
5. satisfaction

Five people to do this?

whoever who deem themselves bored enough to do this...:)

Sydney in a nutshell

since i'm too lazy to post a detailed report on my 12 days in Sydney (and u guys probably wont be bothered to read my what-i-ate-for-breakfast posts) i decided to do a short summary.
i've got other things to blog about and tags to do as well.

pictures can be viewed here. beware, there are over 300 pictures. :)

Places i visited:
1.7.06
1. The Rocks
2. Harbour Bridge
3. Sydney Opera House (i touched the outside tiles)

2.7.06
4. Taronga Zoo
5. The Rock's Market

3.7.06
6. Sydney University (darn i love this uni)
7. Manly Beach
8. Star City (the coolest casino i've ever seen...for real)

4.7.06
9. Blue Mountains (it rained like the entire day!)
10. Epping (a little suburb on the other side of the city)

5.7.06
11. Sydney Olympic Park
12. The Fish Market
13. Sydney Aquarium

6.7.06 - 7.7.06
14. Canberra ~
(a) The Parliament - old and new
(b) Questacon (this science and technology place...pretty cool)

8.7.06
15. Pylon Tower (one of the pillars at the end of Harbour bridge)
16. Paddy's Market
17. The Rock's again...

9.8.06
18. Bondi Beach!
19. Cherrybrook (where i stayed with Mel)

10.8.06 - 11.8.06
20. Blue Mountains again (this time in bright fine weather!)
21. Echo Point, The Three Sisters and all the trails that lead to and from it...

12.8.06
22. Sydney city for some last minute shopping
23. Sydney International Airport on the way home...

Food i ate:
1.7.06
1. Pavlova
2. Pancakes on The Rocks

2.7.06
3. Hurricanes ribs...mmmmm...

3.7.06
4. Thaitanic
5. Max Brenner's on Manly
6. Macchiato - italian

4.7.06
7. self made tuna and ham sandwhiches

5.7.06
8. Seafood platter for 2 at the Fish Market...seriously yummy...
9. Ice Cream at some place with the name Flower in it
10. super super spicy Korean Japanese food...

6.7.06 - 7.7.06
11. McD's chocolate sundae!
12. self made avocado roll
13. Harry's famous pies and hotdog!

8.7.06
14. Bubble tea
15. Pasteur - Viestnamese
16. Lowenbrau - German... (mango beer...mmmm)
17. Pancakes on The Rocks again...

9.7.06
18. Fried Mars Bars on Bondi (no kidding! they deep fried mars bars!!!)
19. satay, BBQ squids and pasta at Mel's place

10.7.06
20. PapaDino's in Katoomba

11.7.06
21. My own cheese tarts
22. Red Rock Deli chips

12.7.06
23. Indo Mee
24. Krispy Kremes for lunch...

My favourite places:
1. Blue Mountains...hands down...
2. The Rocks
3. Bondi

My favourite food:
1. Pancakes!
2. Ribs
3. Ice cream!

My favourite moments:
1. Bush walking in Blue Mountains...both times!
2. Walking along Bondi and Manly
3. showering in the hot shower...hehe...

yup...as u can see, my days in Sydney were not enough. I had so many things to do with so little time. Time flew by with a flutter of my eye lids. for real. I had so much fun. With my brother. I felt so close to him. Felt like we were best friends. When he left on Sunday i actually cried! I couldn't believe it...

so, that was it...my Sydney trip in a nutshell. :)

so where to next winter? hehe...

Sydney

i really dont know how i'm gonna comlpete my 12 days in Sydney. It's just too activity-packed! i'll try my best, but be warned, i may stop midway and decide to screw the reporting altogether and just do a post mortem slash comparison with Melbourne.

i'm beat right now. and all cracked up. literally. my lips are chapped, my skin scratched. i just applied a ton of moisturiser all over.

Flew on yet another very turbulent flight with Lauda Air. I'll think twice about LaudaAir the next time. I'm pretty exhausted and emotionally worn out as well. so there wont be reporting for tonight.

i'll just leave you with a few pictures till next time. :)