Tuesday, February 08, 2005

[ hard to say goodbye ]

When in despair, friends will be there. But what if friends start to leave? To somewhere far far away? Life will be different. Not even with today's technology will life ever be the same again. I love changes. Most of them. But this is one change I'll feel stabbed in the heart should it happen.

Went out with the OB CA clan again today. Was a pretty lazy outing since we didn't do much. Bowling was kinda fun though. And jokes about Eugene and his 2 year plan regarding water conservation in Perth did spice things up a bit too...hahaha....

But what touched me the most was watching Poh Leng say bye to Mel. Heartfelt hug that refused to end...warm friendly peck on the cheek...it all seemed so...sad. I do not know much, but I do know that separation is not easy on any best friend. I know it. If I could feel the absence when my best friend got a boyfriend, I would inevitably feel the void when she leaves for another country. Or when I leave. It's gonna happen. It's bound to. And I can't help it.

Anyway, took some pics. Enjoy...:)






Eugene was feeling a bit...naughty, i guess. haha...That's all. I'll be going to Raub tomorrow for the Chinese New Year. Will be back on Thursday, 10th Feb.

Here's wishing all those who celebrate it out there:
Gong Hei Fatt Choy!
Gong Xi Fa Chai!
Keong Hee Huat Zhai!

Monday, February 07, 2005

[ r e s e n t ]

I think that I'm meeting more and more "fans" as I go along, which is weird since I believe I've become better and better in nature. Then again, I guess I'm meeting more and more different people as I live. Read this:

Hello everyone,

Listen Karen....Yes, I've got ur message...You have no RIGHT, totally no right at all in suggesting that I step down...WHO do you think you are?Of course I have been doing my duties..do u even know what my duties are? I bet you dont, or else you were not have been Blind towards what I have done.

Its just too bad if Lion Chris did not get the reports....because the other Lions got it, u get that? Its just that u were not aware enough of this matter....and you call yourself President - I guess you should have been more Aware

Whatever happened to your Leadership Qualities?...Being a President, u should portray some...Your actions in sending me an email like this does not show that you have Any QUALITIES!!

You could have approached me personally regarding this matter if you wanted any clarification ...NOT sending an email like what u did ....furthermore sending the same email to the rest of the BOD...Because of this I'm sending this email to the rest of the BOD too - they should know of the Actual Matter.....not being blinded by nonsense

In a big organisation/company, if u did a thing like this, let me tell you - You Will Be Sued For Defamation, got it? You might even be fired ! A delicate matter like this needs careful attention and handling.Why bring this up now, after almost 1 year - what were you doing when you were still in college? Sleeping?

Who was the one handling the crucial parts of the Install, Your Install? Let me tel you - the install would have been far worse had I not coordinated certain matters...and to think of it, I did not even get any food...not even a single drop of water.(this is small stuff, but just letting you know how much dedication I have towards the club)...Who would want to contribute towards a club if you are not being appreciated, if the President does not even know what u have done?

I dont like to bring this up..but you have forced me to....I know evryone did a good job during install ( 1 or 2 did not do theirs - I will not name them...thay are not in Taylor's anymore, anyway, and are not the recipients of this mail)

I do not like to boast of what I Have done...that is the reason I'm keeping quiet all this while...Who did your invitations for the install and IU, do you even know bout this?.. an invitation or secretariat wasnt even mentioned in the Programme Book..I even brought this up during the IU rehearsal...but no one bothered....This shows how responsible u are as a President...u are supposed to oversee things...but u didnt

A good manager/OC/president would make sure her members are taken care of well enough... You must Remember that I have been in many managerial positions (and various others) throughout the years...Head Prefect, MD , Secreatries, Treasurers, Presidents... I'm not intending to boast...Do Not get the wrong message...but I very well know what a job entails and how to deal with different kinds of people..I have So Much EXPERIENCE, enough to tell u that I hv dealt with many kind of ppl (problematic ones too).... unlike what u have done by sending a step-down suggestion through email, you have no experience, I can see

I will retire when the time comes...when I Feel its time...u Hv NO Right to tell me to .....as you do not even know what I have done....compiling reports and chasing after reports isnt as easy as you can talk, u hear that, Karen? I'm doing these things, Not you - have you even ever done it before?

Oh yeah, Paul, regarding the the candidates and all...I'll approach you personally and tell you my opinions...too much to tell over mail... a lot needs to be done, in a proper, systematic way...

Thats all for clarifying this matter... I hope all of you now know whats been happening and dont think that I'm in the club just doin nothing....there are times I cant make it for meetings, I ve some matters to attend to sometimes, but I always get the updates as much and as fast as I can..my humble apologies for thatI apologise for anything said or done ..nothing was intentional.. ...but this is just a response to the email (and the message directed to me) which was sent by Karen

Looking forward towards working with all of you Directors still at Taylor's, my dear good friends...

Regards,
xxx

see...people are hating me. But u noe what? I don't give a damn...

for one thing...this guy's a nut. He's been doing his duties, yea rite. If he has, my handphone would not have been ringing off the hook with phonecalls from Lion Chris. 1 Lion is excusable, 1 report is excusable, but ALL Lions and ALL reports? Yea...i really do believe they got lost in the mail. Every single case.

approach him? I would if i could get him. His handphone is answered by his mum (they share the hp). He's NEVER at home. He's NEVER at meetings. Right, it IS my fault for not trekking the entire globe searching for him just to confront him. It IS my fault for not placing a tracking device on him, that's what it is. The only reason he feels it is so unethical of me to relay such a message to the whole BOD is because he wasn't around enough to be close with them. The BOD are more than professional associates. We're friends. We've hung out, we've laughed n joked. I believe there's nothing wrong with my suggesting such a thing to the whole BOD.

and his right. I don't know his duties. That's why i have him, moron! I personally despise, loathe, hate screterial work. I know it's hard work. But if he were as good as he claimed to be, with his 1001 posts and such, I'm SURE he'd do a hell of a job. The least he could've done was made sure those reports REACH. Perhaps the main problem is his gazillion involvements! He's commitment is divided by a billion! There is a REASON why multiple club memberships were not encouraged in Leo...

I have not overlooked things, is what he claims. Well excuse me, what have I been doing if not chasing him around for reports? What use is getting every single thing done, and having no one to note it, record it in black and white, then later appreciate it! Reports = Lions reading them = Awards! For who? For every director in the BOD! He did not eat/drink. The poor soul. Well that makes 2 of us, doink! What did he think i was doing? Galivanting down the food table stuffing my face? I was running just as much as he was, getting things fixed, making sure everything ran smoothly to prevent glitches, not fix them. Coordination is by far the simplest job. Any tom, dick and harry would've been able to coordinate. It's not like they were dealing with kids, they were dealing with grown up, intelligent 18 year old college students. It doesn't take a Professor to understand the meaning of Line Up.

Lastly, what does he mean i have no right to suggest that he steps down? I have no right to make him step down, but i have every right to suggest it! That's my prerogative! In fact, where I came from, and last I checked with the Lions, I even have the right to fire him hands on! So what's his problem!?

Ok...actually, I wasn't expecting to blow up. I was actually supposed to remain calm and keep my composure while handling this. But I am annoyed, no doubt. I have done A LOT, if not too much, for my club. The club in which I founded. And hearing people put me down like that is inevitably hurting. However, I still believe I've done my best and if he's not happy with it, well, lucky for him, I'm no longer in the business.

Am i that hate-able?

Friday, February 04, 2005

* f u t u r e *

we laugh together today
about the things we did as friends
the craze we went through, all ups and downs,
all highs and lows, the skies and the grounds,
living the days like we'd never see their ends

we tease each other about our chosen paths
assuming we'd stay on the roads that we chose
among us there's a doctor, a dancer, a fashion designer,
a pharmacist, a stewardess, and possibly a gym manager
just predicting we'd do fine in those

and after we leave
what happens next in line?
immediately we feel the void in us
like a missing word in a song verse
would we just leave all the memories behind?

how well would we do in life?
how good will our careers be, and are we sure?
most importantly, how much of our times will be cherished
or will the memories just perish
no one really knows what happens in the future...

but right now,
at this very moment,
neither the future,
nor the past,
should be as significant as the present...

live the present...



Thursday, February 03, 2005

* grease lightning! *

was watching Grease nicely on 8TV jus now...when it just got cut off without an ending! what kebodohan~!!! Malaysian TV i tell u! tsk tsk tsk...not like i haven't watched the end but still!!! it's a coool show! not to mention i played in it! hahah...good times, aye?! :)

anyway, my total pay added up to RM312 exactly. Right smack in the middle of my 2 very varied expectations. I worked 78 hours exactly. No more tumbling tots the next time I'm looking for a job. Sure it's fun and easy but the main criteria must be kept in focus. $$$. I'll probably go do retailing. Chris seems to be earning a good living. Maybe i'll go back to promoting...what's for a few big bucks in exchange for a little of my pride! ahhaha... Aunty Cynthia just hired this new girl. So thanks to her i've been kicked off my night shifts too. Sigh...i should jus quit...should i?

I got my brand new Sony Ericsson J200i jus now!!! Bought it for RM420. I was a little short on cash so my mum sponsored RM200. I feel bad n all, but she insisted. The condition was "kuai kuai tuk shi". ahhaha yes mummy. :) Was transfering the numbers from my phonebook. Quite a hassle since there's like 50 numbers that couldn't fit into my SIM phonebook. Then there's also the birthday n movie reminders which i'm yet to transfer as well.

Speaking of which....

HaPpY 19th BiRtHdAy NaViN~!!

oh and i went to this horoscope site and this was what i got:

You have unusually strong security needs that are likely to find expression in a healthy drive for financial well-being and domestic safety. You can be ferociously defensive when your home or those you love are threatened, and this makes you a good provider who is sensitive to family concerns. Periodically, you may have to restructure your entire lifestyle, and these experiences are what shape your need for stability.

In your personal relationships, you have a very sympathetic and understanding demeanor. You care for the underdog, and may find that many of your friends come to you for advice because you listen so well. In the home, you are likely to be the one who takes charge, since you have very strong ideas about the way things should be. In general, you get along best with Cancerians, Scorpios, Capricorns, and Pisceans.

In your professional life, you may prefer to work out of your home, or in an office situation that approximates a homey atmosphere. Your co-workers may become like family members, or your family members may help you with your career or business. You may be tuned into women's rights in the workplace, and could greatly benefit by securing a place for more women. You may also prosper in the food or health industries.



find it pretty true...so Cancerians, Scorpios, Capricorns n Pisceans...come forth! ahahha

Monday, January 31, 2005

[ money matters ]

I was looking forward to a good payday this morning. I woke up with a smile, thinking I could get a sum of RM520 (not as much as some of you, i know, but it was good enough of me) from my boss. Was so eager to get myself a new handphone since mine has been playing all sorts of tricks, making me read with half the screen, or an upside down screen, or a screen with lines n all. Then when i reached work, i started calculating my number of hours based on the log book and much to my disappointment, i got only RM200 odd. I was like what!?!?! somehow my mental maths must've gone down the drain, and my calculator skills must've gone down with it. One of the figures is wrong. I just hope that it's the smaller amount. Thanks to that, I lost my motivation to work a full 8 hours today, and decided to flee at 2 with Julie to attend the dumb karate meeting, which got me into more tangles.

I now have to pay:
membership fee : $10
annual fee: $10
monthly fee: $10
I can't believe this. Not only that, Brown 1's have to go through interviews before they can proceed to black (and i thought i could motivate myself to join karate again with the black belt in sight). Plus, if i miss a meeting 3 times in a row, my membership will be terminated! To re-enter the BB Club i need to produce an official letter! I don't quite like this new formal, official, systematic committee thing. I was much mroe willing to offer my assistance for free last time, without having obligations to go for classes. Sigh...

Went back home after meeting. The miscalculated pay was bugging me to the bone so I whipped out my GC (graphics calculator) and started punching in numbers again. I went day by day with the calender. Hour by hour i calculated and finally came up to about RM420 odd. A HUGE relief on my part! ahahha now i can still get that new handphone without having to spend much of my own or my parents' money. What puzzled me though is how i can miscalculate such simple maths! i really must be getting rusty. My brains are probably 75% mush.

well, i met the Tumble Tot today. The one whose mum was killed by the Tsunami. I felt like crying for her. Young 2 year old with not a care in the world. I wonder if she knows anything. The poor dad must be devastated. Sigh....

Saturday, January 29, 2005

* aching arms *

I am suffering from post-fitness-first-symptoms. My arms feel like 2 boulders attached to my body. Slept in till noon today! haha...half my day wasted...then again, not like there's much to do around my home. (when i told my mum this just now she suggested painting the wall outside and decorating the house which i'm far too lazy or incapable of doing). Watched Troy but realised i was dozing off halfway through the movie. Brad Pitt's hot in the movie though. =)

Work was...i don't know....different. The first hour we had zero kids. So i spent the time updating lists and whatnots (admin stuff). While doing so, i was...shall we say...enlightened by some of the staff's secrets. I would say gossips...about the internal meetings the permanent staff hold every once in a while. Was enjoying it till it touched some pretty sensitive issues. Not that it concerned me...but rather people that I know. Feels sad to know such things. Hearing all those things had put me in a very difficult, controversial position. Now what am I to do? I no longer feel that happy working there. Feel like getting it off my chest, but yet i'm afraid it might lead to even more complicated issues...issues which endangers friendship and things like that. Sigh...politics suck...

anyway, after that went to pick Lyn up. Saw Eugin, Yannee, Sin Yee, Ying Yi and Mei Tien i think. Yea...nice to see all of 'em. We went to pay Mrs Khaw a visit. I totally forgot that my infamous toe story would still be an issue there. The moment i stepped into Holiday Villa Badminton Court, the story started all over again. Then i had a group of gymnasts hovering over my toe! haha Shu Fei even snapped a pic of it. owell...Kai Lynn n Ling Si still standing strong...haha such dedication....=)

After that drove home...was supposed to meet Fang n Jin Aun outside my house. We were caught in a police road block somewhere in front of Siah Brothers building, and i was starting to worry about the 2 guys. Thought maybe i was keeping them waiting. Little did i know, dearest Pn Yeo played a good spontaneous host! ahahha....Owell, we went to kei Tak Sek in SS2 to eat Tong Sui. hehe not bad la actually the food there....I finally tried the SS2 Tong Sui that had been much spoken of.

And that was it...my friday. Now i should go to sleep...if i'm caught yawning n all tmr...i may be the one being gossiped about next. Tmr's a full day work! starting to get real tired of it...but oh well, only say that when i'm done working. When the kids come, i could squeeze them to shreds! ahhaha....