Wednesday, January 26, 2005

[ breaking one's heart ]

why do people say they're in
then later, utter the words i want out
knowing very well they couldn't last
with someone they know nothing about

why do people give out signs
then later, take them back
they lead innocent others on
then toss them aside like a sack

why do people say out words
then later, forget every single thing
knowing very well they never meant it
everything that escapes the lips were worth nothing

why do people create memories
go through such moments with a laugh or a cry
only to end it all with their backs
trying to erase them all with one goodbye

why do people foster such warmth
everytime they touch or hold
only to turn around in the end
leaving others out in the cold

why do people make up lies
as if ending it isn't bad enough
why do people create excuses
asuming every lover is that tough

why do people fail to think twice
before moving on so bold
why do heart breakers have hearts of ice
while the heart brokens' are left with a hole

Monday, January 24, 2005

[ little white lie ]

Something really hilarious happened today. My tummy still has stitches from my roaring laughter that all started from a little white lie.

You guys remember my infamous toe? Well, on Thursday night i had the nail extracted. (Haha don't worry it wasn't as painful as it sounds, thanks to local anaesthetic).

It looks quite disgusting now, so see only if you dare...=) It scared the living daylights out of Ju. hehe....

So, back to my story. I had it wrapped up in a bandage which covered the entire toe. So that night my little cousins, Charmaine, Chadric and Charlene came over to my house. Charmaine was curious about my toe, since she saw it in the morning and I told her that I was going to see a doctor later. So when she asked to look at it, my dad told her that my whole toe had been amputated!!! haha, knowing a child's mind, she believed it, much to her horror. Guess we kinda underestimated the impact on lil Charmaine when we told her so.

Today, the little girl had gim class. She goes to the same coach that i was formerly under. That lil girl went and told my coach "karen jiejie's whole toe got chopped off!". My coach was obviously, not going to buy it. Though, she did have a look at my blue toe earlier this week so she guessed that it could be true. She tried re-confirming with Charmaine's mum, which was a bit oblivious to my whole toe incident which reaffirms her believe to Charmaine's story. Not only that, my dear little cousin (with Mrs Khaw's help no doubt) told everyone present there at Holiday Villa Badminton Court and lead a team of mothers to Mrs Khaw's wall of fame (it's actually a wall with loads of international gymnasts' pics, but Mrs Khaw was nice enough to slip in my group's picture as though we were a part of it all) and practically showed off her brave cousin, Karen's picture who allegedly now has only 9 toes! There were plenty of omgs and aiyos coming from them, knowing how they usually react with their herd mentality.

So, a concerned Mrs Khaw started ringing me up to see if it was true. Unfortunately, I was away at Pacesetters at that time, so she couldn't get me. She thought I was hospitalised! Then, almost desperate, she called up Shirlyn, which was working at that moment too, thus unable to answer her phone. Mrs Khaw thought "she must be visiting Karen". =)

Finally, at about 10-ish at night, my handphone rang and Mrs Khaw was on the line. She sounded very worried as she started off with "karen, are you ok!?!? How's your foot?" By then, I already knew half the story since, my uncle (Charmaine's dad) came and told me all about it. So i laughed my head off explaining to her how it all happened, and that I am 100% fine with exactly 10 toes, nothing more nothing less. She told me everything else mentioned above and seriously, I laughed so hard everyone was staring at me! I was in Asia Cafe having supper with my family. I'm still on the verge of laughing right now, recalling the whole incident in my mind. But I guess that's not the best idea since it's late and everyone's asleep. *giggles*

Yup...lesson of the day: white lies spread! Especially when little curious inquisitive children are concerned. hehe...

tmr's my off day! Gonna go sign up for Metropolitan! No backing out now! =)

Saturday, January 22, 2005

* this one's for the girls *



Was in Klang just now celebrating 5 birthdays of the January babies in my family tree. Was pretty cool. Took loads of pics actually...far too lazy to post them though. Doubt u guys are interested...but for the ke-po-chis out there...hesitate not...[more pics]

Heard this song on the radio today. Yet another nice meaningful song to add to my list of fav's. =)

Martina McBride - This One's for the Girls

This is for all you girls, about thirteen.
High School can be so rough; can be so mean.
Hold onto, onto your innocence.
Stand your ground, when everybody's givin' in.

This one's for the girls.

This is for all you girls, about twenty-five.
In little apartments just tryin' to get by.
Livin' on, on dreams and Spaghettios.
Wonderin' where your life is gonna go.

This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world,
This one's for the girls.(This one's for all the girls.)

This is for all you girls, about forty-two.
Tossin' pennies into the fountain of youth.
Every laugh, laugh line on your face,
Made you who you are today.

This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world:
This one's for the girls.

Yeah, we're all the same inside (Same inside.)
From one to ninety-nine:

This one's for the girls,
Who've ever had a broken heart;
Who've wished upon a shootin' star:
You're beautiful the way you are.
This one's for the girls,
Who love without holdin' back;
Who dream with everything they have.
All around the world, yeah,
This one's for the girls.(This one's for all the girls.)
Yeah, this one's for the girls.(This one's for all the girls.)

nice song yea?? just realised i didn't write a single poem all week...sigh...will write one tmr la...i need to sleep...tmr full day work...niteee.....

Thursday, January 20, 2005

* too good to be true *

I think the Carlsberg Ad...the one that did the song Can't Take My Eyes Off of You with the bottles and all was really cool. Was it Carlsberg? Or something else? Well that song is cool. It's like everybody's repertoire. Everyone knows it. Everyone will sing to it should it be aired. Everyone loves it. Best sung at the end of a karaoke session too...like the cherry that tops it. =)

The title makes me think though. Too good to be true. Reflects on how I've been creating impressions as i meet people along the way. Was talking to a friend just now...someone who has been going through a bit of a emotional turmoil. We were hitting issues like feeling lost, like there's no place to fit in, considering the fact that he's oh so actively involved in so many things. People will naturally assume he's got loads of friends, a large network of them. Then it struck me. I totally get him. I'm into loads of stuff too. I have about 6 groups of friends, which i can hang out with respectively. This does not include the other mini groups which i occasionally get invited into for parties and whatnots. I guess, having so many different commitments gain you aquaintences not friends. You expand your network, yet you narrow your shoulders to cry on.

Sometimes i wish i've got a best friend...a buddy...that would be into everything i'm into. That way, no matter which group of friends i'm out with, i always have that one person to get me all the time.

I'm moving off topic. Too good to be true. I tend to size up people. Think that explains why I'm single till now. It's not that i don't allow myself to be close to any guy. I do. But the moment, I find something I don't like, even if it's just a tad disturbing, I immediately close up. It's like I want him to be so perfect...so right. I want him to totally meet my every need and all that. Why? I don't know. But I can't quite say I'm sorry. I have standards...pride. And honestly, I don't think my requirements are that demanding. It's just that people like that don't exist anymore. Someone kind...someone nice...someone simple. Someone that knows how to live life, yet has a focus. Someone that laughs at silly things. Someone that doesn't believe in flowers and chocolates but rather, a song dedication or a poem. Most of all, someone who has a heart not only for me, but also for others.

Most people now has such attributes that seem to impress kings and queens. They strive so hard to achieve excellence, they condescend mediocrity. They just have everything that it's just far too perfect. What's the use? They all have alterior motives in the end. Sincerity no longer glows. It's getting fainter in today's society.

I'm blabbering on and on...with one thing totally not in relation with the other. This is what I call, an emotion overflow. One should not think so much. Thy shall go to sleep.

p/s: I'm meeting Aidan tmr!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

* w a n n a b e *

*sings*
If u wanna be my lover...u gotta get with my friends...make it last forever...friendship never ennnndddsssss!

haha talk about old school! Went out with my gim friends today. These gim friends outings always end up with us having sore throats, aching jaws and painful tummies due to waaaay too much laughing and talking! But in this case, it was singing! in RedBox!! Was loads of fun! We were choosing songs sung by artistes like Spice Girls (hence the title and intro...), Backstreet Boys, ABBA...get the picture? ahha we're a little ketinggalan zaman but it was good stuff man! I mean, seriously, no boy band ever got bigger than BSB! Hands up all those who has at least one BSB album or posters! haha. Face it! They were HUGE! ahahah...and Spice girls?? C'mon what's Girl Power without them man! Seriously! All those in favour say AYE! =) Anyway, enjoyed myself thoroughly! And of course, leave no event unphotographed! haha...



Note: I'm very tanned...i know...don't have to point out the obvious...=)

Oh and I was watching ManHunt just now! Seriously, why can't Asian men look like that?! If they did, the act of idolising the west would be VERY much less obvious! ahahha They're so hot! Jon Johnson's the best! ahah girls, if u missed it, catch it next week Tuesday, Star World, 10pm - 11pm. *wink*

Monday, January 17, 2005

* genting adventure *

I'm back! Had a ball of a time up in the highlands! Firstly the class trip. It was fun...however, got a bit boring at night since there's absolutely nothing to do in Genting after dinner. Owell, was fun to get together anyway. =) Check out the pics! haha i think the most hilarious part was getting locked in the emergency staircase and we couldn't get out! haha...silly us...=)



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Genting Trailblazer! It's by far the most tiring, exhausting, painful yet fun race in my entire life! Not to mention exhilirating! haha...I'd be lying if i said i'm not basking in the rays of my victory right now, smiling from ear to ear at how well my partner, Keeran and I did! haha 3rd place? who would've expected? check out the pics!



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