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I confess.
I'm obsessed with these kids at Tumble Tots. I've taken over Julie's hobby of paedophiling. (note: the correct meaning of paedophile is person who is sexually attracted to children, but i'm not sexually attracted ok? just a figure of speech =)) I love them! They're sooooo adorable! It's like...you really want to pinch their cheeks all day, carry them up and out of Tumble Tots and bringing them home to show them off! ahahah...ok maybe I'm being figurative here but you get what i mean...or you will...when you see these pics...haha drool away! (oh erm...don't drool in that manner la k? they're kids....waaaaay too young).


This is Raphael. He's almost 2 i think. Mum looks like a Brazilian to me. Potential Ronaldo probably..=)


These are the twins! Rebecca and Nicole. They're sooo cute! Also within the Walking to 2 age group. Mum looks Eurasian too. Nicole's the more outgoing one, more trusting. Rebecca's a shy girl.


This is Ainsley. She's from the elder age group. She's 3 and a half. She's full of whys!!

And my very own personal favourite:


Ppl...meet Aidan. Isn't he just adorable!??! Everybody go awwwwwww.... =) He's almost 2 as well, learning to talk. Mum's also some European. I love him coz he's always giving in to other kids, never picks a fight, very trusting, not clingy to the mother, independent, and he's just plain CUTE.

sigh...after Aidan's class, i usually have a 10% drop in my enthusiasm towards the next consecutive class. I'll start msising Aidan. haha...so cute la! If any of you ppl decide to marry orang putihs next time, please please please have children!!! And then invite me to his/her 1st birthday ok?

Oh guess what?! Fitness First called me! I'm going for an interview in Wisma John Hancock next Monday. Yay for me! =) I hope i get the job....I'll miss my Tumble Tots but I've got a dream waiting to be fulfilled...=)

Tomorrow I'm going to Genting with my SAM classmates. And then on Sunday morning I'll be having Genting Trailblazer. Wish me luck! Hope I don't injure myself any further, or I'm really gonna have to start believing in Feng Shui.

I had my last training for it today. Jogged 3 rounds around the lake. Came home, removed my shoes and saw a patch of blood on my sock. My toe's bleeding. But don't worry...no pain....=) Okla...that's all for tonight...go look at the babies again! =)

- b o r e d -

I've reached a dead end.
I've tried reading every blog on my links.
I've read every new mail i had.
I've been to Friendster and found no new messages nor testimonials.
I've even gone to Bored.com.
That's how bored i am. I've got 4 msn chat windows on my taskbar, none of which are blinking because these are the same people i talk to almost everyday so the conversation pretty much ends after "how's life?...The same ler...".

I have no idea what to blog about either. Blogger's block. That's what i've got. No actually, i think it's coz my life's so empty. I did not travel to Paris with my boyfriend, sipped hot chocolate with croissants for breakfast, and see Leonardo Dicaprio at the launching of The Aviator like one of my friends did. I don't even have a boyfriend to begin with, i only had bread this morning, i'm not an avid fan of Leo, I don't know where Paris is on the globe (though i'd LOVE to go there) and I don't have the big bucks to go travelling right about now.

sigh...why can't i go back to the my years of age 5 and 6 where the only thing i look forward to were the evening 5-7 pm playtime at the back of my house with my neighbourhood friends? ok...things most of you probably didn't know about my childhood:

1. I had a bunch of friends in my neighbourhood. We all came from SRK Sri Subang Jaya which is approximately a 5 minute walk from my house. They were Mei, Shadzy, Hanzy, Mae Yern, Sureen, Sing Foong, Jude, and many more. Their elder siblings were my brother's pals like Kim Meng, Tajul, Joshua, Cindy, Jack and Leon and others. (note: Sing Foong wasn't known as Sing Foong then...haha)

2. We played everyday from 5-7 pm sharp. Coz by 7 our mums usually start standing by the back gates with faces that read "come home now or else...". Plus mosquitoes start coming out when it's darker.

3. We formed 2 clubs which are supposedly Super Hero clubs : Bird Force and Tornado Club. And get this, we had membership cards drawn by my dear brother and equipments made by dear Joshua. We had nicknames created by all of us. Last but not least, we had training sessions, which are lead by the leaders of the girls and boys group respectively. Yours truly was the leader of the Girls. We trained in the garden of SRKSSJ, near the big BOLEH sign. =) Oh and we had special secret calls and meeting places and everything...it's quite cool really.

4. We had trends. First we were a bunch of moutain bikers, riding our BMXs which are usually rewards for getting all As in our finals (when all As were still virtually possible). Then the roller blades kicked in and there we go strapping blades on to our feet.

5. We loved mooncake festivals. We always gathered to play tanglung and candles, chinese, malay, indian alike. =) We had the annual ghost-story-round-the-bonfire treat. Plus additional background effects from Uncle Boey that scared the living daylights out of us. We usually burned at least one person's shirt by accident per year.

6. I feel nostalgic tonight thanks to good ol' boring cyberspace. Might not have my peaceful night's sleep afterall, what with my brains all worked up over the ol' times...the memories...it'll keep me thinking the night through. owell....=)

* G 0 1 3 *

My toe looks like this: The toe nail's still blue. The flesh around it is swollen, and blue. There's a sort of bubble effect to it. I think there's water retension. I also think that my nail's no longer attached firmly onto my toe coz i can push it around the bubble. In a nutshell, my toe looks distorted. But there's no pain anymore =)

Went jogging up ss18 today. Pumped through the uphill, imagining myself racing through the hills in Genting. Batting away branches and leaves from trees that happen to come in my way. 100% ignorant towards puddles of mud and dirt. Tearing through the tracks of roots and uprooted trunks, my feet stepping with percision as not to trip and fall. Biting back pain should it bug me on that day. Pay no attention to cuts and bruises till the race is over. Every second counts. No longer recreational trek in the woods. Time to get down and dirty. This is gonna be a race. People will be vying for the top spot. I can already feel the priceless sense of satisfaction as the view of the finishing line creeps into sight. G013 Mixed category. My team will kick butt. They'll be eating our dust. =)

OoOhh...i'm so excited!!

- down memory lane -

Updates:

~ my toe is currently not jog-able. Though i'm determined to bite back my tears, bear with the pain and train for trailblazers. Tomorrow, there ain't gonna be any backing out.

~ i think i've finally decided on a course and the uni to study in. I hope this decision stays for now. I'm heading to Mantissa. Intake starts March 7th. Will be doing a Diploma in Commerce (Business Management). Then i'm off to Edith cowan to convert my diploma into a Degree of Sport Management. So there. =)

~ resuming work tomorrow. in Tumble Tots. however, something tells me that the sight of my toe might scare a few tots away. haha...

Met up with Elaine and Pei Jien for lunch today. Had good food in Manhattan Fish Market.




Then met up with Elaine (again), Julie and Fang for yumcha session in Mamak Bistro. Saw Lyn with Yannee and Sinyee there. Was good to see Fang. Have not seen him since the time he left for Melbourne. =)




seeing you today made me ponder
it made me embark on a journey down memory lane
thinking of that moment in life much earlier
when rash feelings and actions, i could not contain

it made me think of how we used to be
more than just friends, yet less than what it seemed
i guess i never made an effort to be just me
to be someone else, was what i deemed

i couldn't help but feel a little disappointed
about how poorly i've played my part
my ignorance is what i truly regretted
considering how bad i can break one's heart

i don't know if you had ill feelings towards me
at that moment in time, for my self centeredness
i don't know if you hated me for acting selfishly
by disregarding your feelings and your selflessness

but what i do know now is, i made a mistake
i could've spared myself some of this pain
by treasuring what i had, for your feelings' sake
so that it's more pleasant, the next time i go down memory lane...


i feel like i was so conceited back then. so much so that the guilt i feel now has turned to pain. i know now that that time has passed, and i'm glad that we're still good friends. i don't expect us to be together again. i just feel that i should've been a better person then.

- only one -

Updates:

~ my toe looks worse but feels better. Should be able to start jogging day after tomorrow, if not tomorrow. Click to see how it looks now. note: not for the weak hearted. =)

~ still clueless as to what i'm gonna pursue. Found out that i could do Bach of Science in KDU with a 2+1 twinning programme. Might consider if I'm allowed to drop Chemistry, and then transfer to Deakin, Victoria to pursue Exercise and Sport Science. Either that, or i'll be doing Bach of Commerce (Management) in Mantissa Institute, also 2+1, transferring to Edith Cowan, Perth to do Sport Management and Sport Science (double major). See how that goes...=)

~ Still working for Tumble Tots. Decided to forego TGIF in exchange for my jogging time in the evenings as I'm far too much of a pig to wake up to jog. =) Tumble Tots has a far more flexible schedule.

I just watched Boyfriend For Christmas on Hallmark. Lovely show...or lovey show. Either way, it's my kinda movie. Fate. I have always believed in fate.

deep inside the center of my heart
i know that it has been laid out for me
i do believe fate plays a part
in choosing the one for everybody

i cannot help but wonder who
though i know well that it's a matter of time
waiting patiently is what i ought to do
though my mind wonders and commits this crime

i question fate over and over
wondering what i did wrong
but it seems i go further and further
from the answer that's hidden all along

i guess fate believes that i'm not ready
and that my moment in life has yet to arrive
when both hearts are ready, then fate will agree
that love will come into my life

i will never know who, how or when
yet i'll never stop wishing that it has begun
the day i meet true love without an end
will be the day i meet my only one

* happy birthday jackie! *

just came back from jackie's birthday bash. Had loads of fun....hehe i think every trip to Jackie's hse is a fun one. So far it has been that way. =)

anyway, here are some of the pics. Got some videos too...but i dun really know how to attach videos. If someone does pls let me know. Thanks. =) Enjoy...


Jackie making his birthday toast...=)


The so-called "Japanese Garden"...


My best gurl Ju.....Cheryl my poh-peh poh-peh partner...haha


The guests....=)

I was sooo glad i could see Cheryl again. Miss that girl to bits! =) Talking about OB was cool too. And calling A'sim? ahahha darn funny. Yay! will be meeting them in Genting. I just hope i don't embarrass myself...they're gonna do sooo much better! if only i hadn't hurt my toe!!!!

guess that's all...gonna wake up tmr and see if my toe's well enough for working...haha...if not i gotta call Cynthia up and say "sorry i believe i'm still temporary handicapped". hehe G'nite ppl!