HOW??

I don't know why he wouldn't give up
Haven't I told him how i feel?
I kinda think he's putting on an act
Why don't he just go on for real?

I know that I have been wrong
I should not have fallen so easily
And expecting him to give up now
Is actually quite mean of me

But I've already told him that I don't
Think it's gonna work out his way
He thinks we might eventually be together
He's hoping I'd realise some day

I won't blame him for having hope
For who am I to confirm the future
But it's obvious for now it wouldn't work
I wish he'd stop giving me the pressure

I told him today that time will decide
And unfortunately, that gave him hope
But it is true that it isn't my choice
And fate will help me to cope

But for now, this very instant
I have my very own hopes too
To have someone as a close friend
Someone as great as you...

K is still on my tail...i dunno what part of NO doesn't he understand. sigh...but i shouldn't complain. I brought myself into this...and it is true...i can't tell the future...=)
the other one, though, pls note...i'm still not admitting...i want him as close friend...someone i can rely on....=)

admit...

Sitting here by my computer
Thinking of the things that happened
Don't think I've had times better
Then the times i had with my friends

Last night was the ultimate best
It seemed as though everyone was happy
Everyone had something to confess
Out it came everything spicy!

But it was last night that i think
I said things i didn't want to say
Things i said seemed to sink
In my mind the whole day

I know myself fairly well
I know how i can control my feelings
How to hide them i can tell
I guess my heart needs concealing

I usually won't start to like someone
Until I actually admit it out
I didn't actually say he was the one
But he was all i talked about

I didn't dare to say i like him
I won't till I know for sure
That's how i keep my feelings in
But last night it became an exposure

But I still won't say i like him
It won't be true till i say it
Knowing me, I'll start to feel
The moment i begin to admit

Just now i met him again...went jogging...haha he's good!

They're back!

Tired...can't rhyme tonight...
but I'm so darn happy muh gurl, Julie and muh stud, Fookie's back! haha missed u guys soooo much!! =)

oh and tonight I had a long chat with Fang! ahha (he requested i added his name in here...)

so yea...there you go...my post for tonight...=)

Who would've guessed....=)

I've always thought of myself
In terms of looks n beauty
As somewhere along the average
Someone very ordinary

I decided that i wasn't included
In the category of chic and hot
I long gave up trying to compete
Trying to be who i'm not

But i would never deny
That my feelings are indifferent
Like any other girl on earth
I do want that special person

I came across a few potentials
But only one has stolen my heart
And when he said no I thought i'd never
Be able to get over that part

A simple girl i claim to be
But I can't help but to be choosey
I want so much from a guy
It seems impossible he'll come eventually

I recently thought I'd found someone
But something about him just wasn't right
Just as i thought I'll have to wait some more
You came in and showed me the light

I'm not exactly Liz hurley
Neither am I a walking book
But someone like you walked in and now
I gave my life a whole new look

There's no saying that you like me
Saying I like you would be an exaggeration
But for now, i could safely say
You fulfill my every condition

Who would've guessed that this would happen to me...=)

I told him how i felt yesterday
How I know it wouldn't work out
"I won't give up" he said
That's what i'm worried about
I know I should not have gotten myself
Involved in this in the first place
But what's right is being true to myself
Even if this is what i have to face
I thought he'd just let go like that
I assumed he wasn't in too deep
But the more we talk, the more i feel bad
I'd think about it before i sleep
But whatever it is i would stand firm
To what i truly believe in
That it is fate that would confirm
My actual feelings within

Ok...that's abt K. I told him he wasn't the one in the gentlest way i could. he seemed ok. though he stressed that he wun give up...haha we'll see. maybe he can really win my heart? haha fate...=)

So easily, i blurt out everything
My deepest secrets i have told you
Guess it's so easy just talking
Wonder how you talk the way you do

I really think that i can depend
On you, to lighten my burden
I feel as though u understand
Everything i say in an instant

I seem to lose myself in conversation
And before i realised it, it's done
I've spilled every little confession
And the topic barely begun

I'm glad to be spending time
Talking to you at this hour of day
But confiding in you seems like a crime
It might make me fall for you one day....

This is abt the other...i like him...yes...but not in that way....yet....i think....

~ G u i l t ~

Was looking through my archive
And it suddenly struck me
I'm quite disgusted by
How fickle minded i appear to be

I think I've over done it
My biggest fault of all
I should never have gotten involved
I should not have taken this fall

Now, I have to undo this
Impossible as it may seem
I have to call it quits
And snap out of this dream

I'll probably hurt his feelings
I'll probably be misunderstood
But i truly want things to stay
And our friendship to remain good

I'm now laden with guilt
But honesty still is the best policy
So today i'm gonna let him now
That he's not the one for me

Sigh...i hope he understands...