I'm running out of rhymes in my head...so i guess i shall do what most ppl would do to express how they feel when they don't know how to say it out. haha paste song lyrics. This song is not bad...=)

The sun just slipped its note below my door
And I can't hide beneath my sheets
I've read the words before so now I know
The time has come again for me

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

Another day that I can't find my head
My feet don't look like they're my own
I'll try and find the floor below to stand
And I hope I reach it once again

And I'm feelin' the same way...

So many times I wonder where I've gone
and how I found my way back in
I look around awhile for something lost
maybe I'll find it in the end

And I'm feelin' the same way...

*Norah Jones - Feelin' the Same Way*

Reading through my poems
I realised i have changed
I've been so into you and me
About how things will be eventually
How my life can be arraged

But when i read through them again
I realised something really bad
The poems were mainly what i feel
And i forgot about what was real
In fact, it made me seem really sad

I failed to consider something important
I thought about myself all the time
I should've thought more about you
About what exactly was true
Now, I feel as though i've commited a crime

So from now on i shall start
To think about your feelings
I'll think whether you feel the same way
And whether you would have anything to say
And also about the consequences it brings

I will consider even the 3rd parties
I'll see if she likes you too
Maybe it was fate that you're with her
In the same class together
Maybe who she really likes is you

So from today i made a promise
That i will not only think of me, myself and I
There's a lot of things that it will affect
And a lot of things that will take effect
Now, i shall just see as time fly by...

Stop emoing!!

I think i shall not emo for tonight. My last few poems seemed kinda pathetic. I myself am starting to see myself in a different light. I'm sad man! gotta get out of this rutt!

Today i guess i had some fun
I made more friends i'd say
And eventhough Trushna left the class
It wasn't dull all the way

I know i had a fear at first
Fear that i wouldn't be able to cope
But i've made up my mind to try my best
Now i can only hope

....ok...obviously i have writer's block. BIG time. I seriously can't think of anything....can't thnk of anything ELSE...actually...anything other than...u. Gawd!! That's it. i'm ending this blog. go to sleep and start afresh tmr.

Getting the prom picture today stirred something in my mind. As much and as long as i had thought about it, i'm still left in confusion. I can only hope this won't affect my studies in any way.

Taking out the picture of u and me
May seem like an easy task
But deciding to look at you in the eye
Is really too much to ask

Although it's just a picture
I can't seem to tell why
What i feel when i look at you
Is as though it was a real guy

I feel confused when i see you face
And I dare not stare too long
I feel questions clouding my mind
Questions that bug me all along

I can't tell if my mind is stable
And if i won't repeat my mistake
Or if i will hurt u again
And place our friendship at stake

I can't tell if i am just flattered
By your charm and your looks
Or if i really like you this much
Have i really been hooked?

The girls in class think you're hot
I admit i feel very proud
But what if that's the main reason
What if that's what my feelings are about?

That i have what the other girls want
And then only showing u off
I really don't want to use u this way
But it's something i am not sure of

Then again, there's you and her
Being in the same class everyday
You both had some history together
There's bound to be feelings some day

Part of me refuses to believe
That I feel a little bugged by it
That I feel like i'm losing my chance
Somehow i just can't admit

But part of me knows what's best
I shouldn't allow any chance to come my way
Hurting you hurts me as well
I just can't bear to have it replayed

I guess what i really need to do
Is get my thinking straight
I need to find out if i really like you
Before, i'm afraid, it is too late...

Stepping into college now
Isn't exactly how i thought it would be
What i assumed was fun and excitement
Turned out to be very scary

Everything has changed
Makes me start to realise
How much i miss my schooling years
Especially times with u guys

The college walls intimidate me
The books all seem so bombastic
And the lecturers have their different ways
But all seem very sarcastic

Everything seems so "big"
And i suddenly feel so small
I feel a little worried now
What if i can't cope with it all?

New friends i made a few
Makes things a little better
With someone just as lost as me
Makes "being lost" a little easier

I hope i can toughen up a bit
To face these challenges as they come
I hope that i will put in my best
Scholarship material, i will become!

Come, 2004

I dedicate this poem to Julie Kuan. You've been there for me through thick and thin. Hope it stays that way. =) Luv ya girl!

Just yesterday i was still running
With you around my primary school
Playing "getah" and "catching"
Couldn't care less if i acted like a fool

Just yesterday i was jumping with joy
Straight As i scored in my UPSR
You and i, we all went to enjoy
Setting our blues afar

Just yesterday your schoulders were wet
From the tears that flowed from my eyes
2 Bs for PMR, how dreadful the feeling of regret
I should've been more serious, i started to realise

Just yesterday we were giving each other hugs
Wishing good luck and all the best
Calming each other's jitter bugs
As we face SPM and be put to the test

Today we hang out at our favourite places
Play our favourite games, eat our favourite food
Laughter and smiles on our faces
We have fun just like we should

Tomorrow we start a new beginning
As each of us embark on a new journey
Fear and insecurity are surfacing
How is this new life to be?

Tomorrow and onwards will be a new day
Surrounded by new friends, new people
And once in a while i will think of yesterday
Thinking of the elements that made yesterday memorable...